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RAWR WHERE ARE YOU AND YOUR BEAUTIFUL WRITINGS

I'd like to thank you so much for the comment you left on my poem. To be honest, I was a bit surprised when I got an email saying that I had a comment on Kisses of Winter, because I posted it over two years ago (when I was 13 or 14). I'm flattered by your comment and I am so glad that you enjoyed the poem and got so much out of it!

Anyway, can I ask you where you came upon it? Was it projectfiction?

Thanks again!

OMG I DON'T KNOW WHO YOU ARE.
WHY U RANSOM GNAW MY FACE OFF?!
GAH KILLER.
-DIED-

We all go AWOL, nothing to apologize for. I generally have to end up explaining to people after a few days that I may be socially dead at the time but very much physically alive.

The cookies were everything you said. And so so so delicous. He ate two. And then put his head on my shoulder and sighed. My heart went insane and I was just like, well fuck.

And then I jumped, and drug him down with me. It was a glorious crash of pent up frustration, desire, and chemistry. He kissed me and frick. My mind went blank. Later when I walked him out to his car at 4:30 in the morning he threw me in the backseat and kissed me again. Obliterated my ability to think. I'm still not fully up to par and that was two weeks ago. ><

But, we did talk (before that happened) and he told me what had happened, and then made me tell him what was wrong, even though I didn't want to. Then we cuddled and he told me he missed me and made me promise to tell him when things were bothering me. I've tried to keep that promise, but it's hard when his phone is so shot I can't get in contact with him and he can't get in contact with anyone else. But at this point I'm used to it. We go weeks, sometimes a month without speaking. But he always comes back. And we're always comfortable with each other. And when he says he misses me I can tell he means it. I just don't know if he realizes how he misses me yet. I miss him as more than a friend, and I think he does too, he's just scared to admit it. He's admitted that before. But I'm still a giant emotional barricade, so my defenses go up pretty quickly, even if he can tear them down in a heartbeat. Dear lord, I'm rambling. asdgasgdh. I just really like him, and it's troublesome and scary.

But I can't pursue a relationship with him right now. Not after ex-girlfriend-lady owned his emotional abilities. So I'm just stuck waiting and hoping. Hell, if I'm getting anything from this experience, it's that I'm learning to be patient. That's always a good thing.

Annyhoooooo, how're you, huh?? I've missed you!!!!

I love you omg thank you so much.

Also you started up on tumblr again! I just followed you <3 I'm telmarine there :D

Haha, I love the comment you left me. I'm a give your updated story a look in a minute.
Odd and/or random noises make things much more fun.
True story ;]

Aaah! I'm sorry I'm just now responding; I've had a ton of hours at work this week because the lady who usually works the day shift is on vacation. So I'm finally getting a chance to relax. o.o

There has been a semi-new development in the boy-who-blew-my-mind situation. He's coming over, in like, 40 minutes.

The chick he marched with was of no consequence. That was a huge misunderstanding (She wasn't his sister, just one of the people he hung out with over the summer) and it turns out his ex girlfriend who rocked his world decided to play the mind-fuck game with him as soon as he got back to school. On top of that he had more family problems hit. And when everything explodes in his face, the first person he texts is me. So he's coming over. And I'm being a good person and made him chocolate chip cookies in hopes to make him feel better. Because I'm too nice, and I just can't say no. And I need a hug. And he needs a hug. And this may be a bad idea but I'm saying fuck it and jumping out of the damn aeroplane that is the logic of this entire situation.

Adslgas. He broke my brain when he text me. I had lunch with a friend and asked them to drive simply so I could buy a drink. And I did. And mango martinis are fantastically delicious, just so you know. So yeah. Now I'm waiting. And looking at the clock every two seconds. And my heart is like, YOUR RIB CAGE, I WILL POUND ON IT UNTIL I EXPLODE. And Argh.

Anyhoo. I just also wanted to say your new story is fantastically adorable and whimsical and somehow still dark and interesting and I love it already. Your brain is a magical place with wonderful things that make me feel like an excited small child on Christmas. <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

I can't remember either but it's my pleasure; it was and still is a great story albeit disturbing but that's how I like 'em. :D

AHHHHHJHHHH NOOOOOOOOOOOOO I DON'T WANT TOOOOOOOO BEEEEE ONNNNNEEEEEEEEEE WITH YOOOOOOOOUUUUU

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH WHAT JJHGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I DON'T KNOWW.............. WHAT AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Aw, thank you. ><

If this one was a heart-eater like the rest, I'd be alright. But the entire problem is he isn't, and what he's doing is totally out of character and no one knows what the hell to make of any of it and it's just awful and weird. All of our friends took a step back when I told them about how he's been acting and just went "That's not him, at all. He wouldn't do that to someone." Like this is a genuinely good kid and I feel like I somehow turned him into a douche because apparently I have that gift. asldkjgas

And I don't mind, really. His parents are getting a divorce...because they were caught cheating on each other. He didn't see it coming, no one did. On top of that he's taking 21 hours of credit semesters for a double major, and his ex and him broke up basically just as he found out about the cheating and the divorce and whatnot. So he's not emotionally stable. And he shuts down, he doesn't like to talk about it. He freaking just shuts off and holds it all in. He freaked out when he thought he had feelings for me a few months back, because he was scared that he was going to hurt me, or himself, or us both and he seriously avoided me for two weeks before apologizing profusely. And now I don't know what's going on. I haven't spoken to him in two weeks, since about a week after he got back from his summer marching thing and came to see me and kissed me. He kissed me. And now some chick he marched with is talking to him and no one knows what's going on because he doesn't just kiss people he is still a virgin and a good kid and screwing someone over--especially a friend whose known him since ninth grade like me-- is really really out of character. So I feel weird, and unhappy, and I don't know what to do. I don't know whether I should try talking to him or not. And he makes me act like a girl and blush and care about how I look when I see him and stuff. It's annoying. And I'm confused, and ranting. Ohgod I'm so sorry. ><

Ah, you've been so busy finding time to write has been a bitch, yeah? I can feel you there sometimes. But I luurve your stuffs so it's all good. :)

Bahahaha. Updating whore? That's the first time I've heard that one. I just spat water all over my desk. hahahaha. You're fantastic. <3 <3 <3

AND LOTS OF HEARTS AGAIN. <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

'CAUSE I'M GLAD YOUR BACK AND STUFF. :D

Ohdude you made a Pokemon reference, you are totally totally amazing and awesome just for that. Holy hell it has been so long since we chatted.

I'm glad life is good. That's fantastic.

And yes, a bear hug would be nice. Because guy friends are total idiots. And the ones you never expect to screw you over will in .5 seconds and then you're like OHWAIT I LIKED MY HEART YOU KNOW.

Argh. And I don't know what to do. He's genuinely not a bad guy, and for once I'm not making excuses. Anyone who's been through what his family has done to him in the past year is a shoe-in for emotional damage/baggage. So I don't know. And I'm being a girl and all confused and stupid stuff. asdlkgghg.

I do not like drama with the opposite sex. It is totally awful.

OMG ARE YOU STILL WRITING? I LOVE YOUR STORIES AS MUCH AS I LOVE TALKING TO YOU!

Oh, anything interesting happened to you recently?

You're welcome :D

Oh my goodness you're alive! You have no idea how happy this makes me!! I've missed you lots!
How are you? How's life and such??
Yay I'm so glad you're alive!!

FRECKLESSSSSS. Where have you gone. Computer problems suck. I hope that everything gets fixed up soon and that you can update during the summer vacations!!! XD

Haha it's all good. I've done something similar before =P
Was actually surprised to get a message that u updated this lol
Thought this was discontinued or something xP

YESSSS~ Of course I am:D Merry Christmas and A Happy New Year( this one in case my computer won't work in that period, because I'll definitely message you a 'Happy New Year' if it does:D). What did Santa brought you? Did it bring you owl eyebrows?Because mine didn't; it wasn't slim enough to catch an owl and it was too kind to rip it's eyebrows off. Anyway, this is a long message. Wow! The longest in a while( by five words:D)
Hope you have a good time during Holidays:D

FREAKLEZZSSZSzsSs!!!!848&!95!5!6!3!!(!!
WHERE HAS YOU BEEENNNN?!?!?!?!?! :O ZOMFG I'VE NEVER KNOWN A LEGIT ZOMBIE:D :D
Agh I don't know why I am afraid of people walking on my left side but everyone is used to it now and they know if I'm walking on the right side of them but I'm quiet it's because on the inside I'm like OMFG I'M UNCOMFORTABLEEEEE. So they're like HEY 1907 WANNA WALK ON MY LEFT SID33??? And I'm like YUUUSSSSS PLEEEZZEEE.(x
:O how did you die?!?!!?!!???!??!!!?:O I wanna know so's I can turn into one and BEAT THEN EAT THE SHIT OUT OF THAT FUCKING AUSTRALIAN BASTURD.
LE GASP! I thought I was the only one who forgot spelling when the word was in CAPITOLZ!
(: imeesedyou!
YOU KNOW WHAT SONG I'M LIKE SOSOSOS OBSESSED WITH RIGHT NOW?! JUST THE WAY YOU ARE BY BRUNO MARS. His voice is marvo.;D

OHMYGOD DONKEY!!!!
SHERKISAMAZING!
FAILURE!!! BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

AHHHH REMEMBER YOU!!
YOU'RE THE CRAZY ONE!