Loss of appetite, no expression, no feelings, and alone; Trying to fake a smile everyday has become your goal.No one is listening to the screams. No one is helping you through the flames. Not one person is there next to you telling you the right words.All they can say is their sorry, but you know that sorry is not enough. That sorry will not make the thoughts disappear. That one little word will...

Haphephobia:An intense, irrational fear of being touched.Treatment after treatment but still this phobia returns.Too many people are around me. I can’t breathe with all these people standing around me.My hands are shaking, my heart is racing, and I’m growing dizzier and dizzier. Make it stop, make it stop.No one can see it, but it’s right there.Someone is coming near me. Nothing about them...

I sit in the chair with no expression on my face while gazing out the window. The trees where changing colors. Rows and rows of orange, yellow, and brown leaves stood high up in the sky. Gently, multiple of them began to fall from the trees into the bright green grass. Children played in the mountains of leaves. Kicking them and throwing them at each other. Their smiles made the sun shine bright...

So, a story of mine, I'm Your Boyfriend?, has become a really good story.I think.How I write:Anyway, I really enjoy writing this story because its a way that I can escape from the world. I don't pre-write anything or like think hard and long about what I want to be in the story. I always just open to Document and just typing words.How I get my inspiration:The way I get my inspiration is sorta...

You know sometimes I stop and think, Would my life be better if we never met? I think about this question a lot and I don’t know if I want to know the answer. In back my mind screams the truth, but I stay silent hoping that it will all change. I look at you and scream inside my mind hoping that one day you’ll hear me. Can’t you see these scares on my wrist, the pain in my eyes, the tears on...

I went to my friend’s house the other day and I was l having a fun time, but once her brother got home. Something inside me changed, I mean I have met him before so I thought that it would be no different. Then he said a few words and something in my heart stopped. I swear it felt like I was meeting him for the first time. In my mind I can’t stop thinking about him, he just makes me smile. He...

Honestly I don’t mind the way you look at me, I don’t mind the way you smile at me, and I don’t mind the way you make me laugh. Honestly I don’t like the way you make me feel, I don’t like the way you have my heart, and I don’t like the way you know when I’m leaving.From what it feels like my heart is just lying in my chest waiting for you, and only you. It feels like I’m floating...

Sometimes we have to give up that person we love. Deep in our minds we know that we don't want to ever leave this person but there is always that thought that us will never happen or happen again.Giving up on that speical person is hard, so hard that some of us might fall into that depression. No one knows how long it will last, and no one wants to go through it alone. We might beg for people to...

Many people know I can not keep a story going, sadly. Anyway, I have this great idea for a story! This story is mostly gonna be based off songs by Boyfriend. Boyfriend is this band in Korea and a few months ago I found them when I was looking for new music. I love their music it makes me smile(: So, I found out that there are these two twins in the band, Jo Twins, KwangMin & YoungMin. I just...

Come and take my by the hand.For a week and still to this day I have been dreaming about the same guy over and over again. The places have been different but the feelings and the moments are all the same. I have had this happen before but this time it feels much more different. After I wake up from the dream I always have to think twice because the dream feels so real that it just happened two...

The truth.Suffering from depression has changed my life. The feeling of hopelessness, guilt, and pain run through my veins. The thoughts of why am I still here?, whats the point?, and why does it matter? race through my mind every minute. A million tears leave my eyes every hour of every day. Im starting wonder if I'll every get better, I'm starting to look at myself as if I don't exist. Everyday...

Your Smile.I always talk about your smile and how it makes my day, but what if I was lying? What if I have been lying to everyone, but more importantly what if I was lying to myself? Your smile does bring me joy and happiness, but only for a minute or two. Once that smile on your face fades away, that's when I disappear. That smile of yours saved my life from the darkness of death.My Heart.There...

Let me be speechless in your arms.At this moment I don't know how much longer I can wait. The days are getting more and more confusing, but that's apart of life right? All these question keep me awake at night and they are all begging to be answered. I don't have the heart to ask anyone these question because what if the answers break me.I love the way you look into my eyes and smile.I just want...

Have you ever thought of something so much that you begin to stop breathing?Have you ever screamed so loud that you couldn't even hear yourself?The past few days have been really confusing for me, and I don't know how much more I can take of it. I'm two seconds away from yelling at him for doing this to me, my mind is racing with so many questions that I have no chance of ever getting them...

School School SchoolSo tomorrow is school, the first day to be correct. I am so not ready, I mean I have everything but mentality I don't think I can handle it. All I want to do is see everyone and then go home, simple enough.When it comes to school, I'm always find myself writing a lot more. So be prepared for like 10 poems a week, 5 journals a day, and 20 short stories every hour. That is how...

I thought that the abusive relationship I was in was all my fault, and I couldn't do anything about it. I thought that maybe God or someone was punishing me for something that I've done. I put up with the pain, suffering, and bullshit for about 2 or 3 months. I didn't tell anyone about him and I wanted no one to change us. I began to think that everything I was put through was real love and that...

When you read this you might change your mind about me, you might not talk to me anymore, or you'll just be done with me. At this point I really don't care I'm tired of lying to everyone, I am not that happy going girl that everyone thinks. Accept the truth or just leave me be.4:00am while everyone is mostly sleeping, I am up thinking about my life. My fucked up, crazy ass, messed up life, and I...

Broken hearts, meaningless words, and all the lies. She is starting to feel the pain, she is slowly falling of the face of the earth. All she did was love you, treated with respect, never left your side, she fought for you, lost friends for you, and most of all she put all trust in you. The fights you and her had were nothing but words, always one would come back. She watches over you like a...

Grab my hand, please. I want to show you what I have been hiding all my life. No I can't just tell you, I need you to see. Let me take you on a ride, I hope you can make it until the end. Hold on because I know you will fall off. These walls you see are not just for show, they symbolize all the times they have broken. Don't you see there are million of them, each day a wall is broken and each...

It's getting hard to sleep, to breath, and most of all to be me. I look at all these pictures and I keep thinking who is this person? That cant be me. The nights are now dying, I sleep but soon I wake up screaming and crying. Each day my heart is repaired but then immediately broken, how is it that this one person can do all this. One moment I will love him, then I hate him, finally I cry.The...