Yesterday my boyfriend was caught with a large amount of heroin on him. He was arrested and his bail is 75,000 dollars. Which you only have to pay ten percent of... 7,500. I have no money, Im scared to be without him. I love him and before he left we fought and I said the meanest things to him as possible. I cant talk to him and find out whats happening.Our apartment we live in needs the rent and...

Im not stating an opinion on my heroin use. I dont care if you think its stupid.But last night my boyfriend and I went to Hartford the city to get dope. He shot me up two bags and I felt nothing which then meant I get pissed at him because he feels it right away. He moved to the front seat. Five minutes later I asked him something and he didnt respond. I shook him and he wouldn't wake up. I...

Why cant I have a terminal illness? I'd be so lucky. I cant off myself, not on purpose, and I want to use drugs forever. I love my heroin and when I cant have it, it feels as if my brains going to burst through my skull and my veins are melting and my skin is crawling. Everyone would understand my drug use if I had a terminal illness they could understand. Like cancer.No one gets addiction. It IS...

I just got out of rehab after a two month heroin binge where at the ending point I was in handcuffs in the back of a cop car. My boyfriend gave the cops a bullshit story about how it was my first time and they did let me go. They called my parents since I was driving my moms car and made me go home, luckily for me they didn't find three bags of dope in my purse so I got high then went to see em. I...

I keep seeing poem after poem that makes me want to scoop my eyes out as I read. And I'm not saying I'm a great writer at all. Yes it IS up to the reader. But where in all this poetry is there originality?The structure, the word usage....its so...BLA. Either the writer is concerned about the rhyming scheme or if they've repeated their point enough. Ending up making the poem...a black hole of...

I feel like Im Dying. Hows does everything change so quickly? And why to me?I was at a party last night. Lets say I wasnt in the best state of mind to make any great decisions. Needless to say I lost my virginity. And I cant talk about it to anyone . I wanted it to be with someone I loved, and someone who loved me just the same. But its all gone now and I cant stop crying. And today...he denied he...

All the notes and scribbles left by doctors and philosophers cause a reaction. A thing is bad simply because it is bad for you. Health is top priority. But I think, " what if the doctors had a head filled with holes they couldnt fill"What if everyone got to feel what it was like to dance on the edge of a cliff naked in a thunderstorm waiting for one strike of pure electric to take out their pulse....

Im Fucking PISSED at my mother. I could quite literally hurt her. This may not seem like a big deal to any of you, but if you've fallen into a drug pattern..maybe you'll understand.I've had EVERYTHING taken away from me, my pills, my car, my friends, everything. No one trusts me and no one will listen. I know its my fault, all I need is my second chance. Anyways I have chronic back pain and Im not...

So I just got out of a psychiatric unit today. I got in Friday afternoon. I hated it though, and fought my way out. Ive never felt so hopeless so lifeless so EMPTY. This is the major problem bothering me now...BUT wait till you here this. This allows me to say fuckier, my world is absolutely absurd in every aspect.I got home, went to school, then proceeded from school to go to my sisters house....

I don't even know anymore. I'm really lost and really confused...I wouldn't say I'm happy with who I am...just content. No I fucking hate myself. But I'll live it out, I'm not going to hurt myself. But theres something wrong and theres been something wrong for a while that I've denied and denied to myself repeatedly. Its stupid and wrong and if I ever voiced this to people who really knew me...

I know most of you are probably too, "good" for drugs and can't possibly comprehend why a person would slowly slip into madness for something as irresponsible as getting high. Most of you don''t understand the slow pull of the drug, tugging you back out of the bullshit and giving you more room to breath. Why would you? You are obviously a better person.But that's not the reason most people look...