Confidence.

It's weird to think how much more confident I've grown since being pregnant. In the person I am, in the way I look.A few years ago, I couldn't leave the house without needing to put on foundation, eyeliner, mascara, concealer and lip balm and lipstick. When I became pregnant, I worried because I wouldn't have the time to do all this with a little one.Over the past two weeks, I've been able to...
July 31st, 2012 at 12:26pm

Real love.

Recently I've been feeling down, but with a baby taking all your energy, it's to be expected. Feeling like I've had no energy, doing things just because I have to, rather than doing it because I enjoy doing them has been hard.I've been feeling worthless, but then I think, I know, I'm feeling this way, because you're taking all my energy, and then, I don't feel so worthless. All those people who...
July 1st, 2012 at 11:34pm

Realization

My fiance keeps saying to me that he's sorry that I feel so sick. I came to the realization that at the end of this, we'd have a beautiful baby. I know that I'd do anything for the baby.I know it's horrible feeling tired, sick and down - but if you think about it, many parents would die for their baby, let alone feel sick.I can't even eat or drink anything without being sick (I am waiting on a...
May 21st, 2012 at 02:46pm

Skinny, Not Anorexic.

I've actually wanted to write something about this for ages. I am someone who is naturally skinny, and though people may say you should enjoy it, you're very lucky, it isn't all that great!You have health implications, there are mental ones as well. Growing up naturally skinny, having a body you see if fashion magazines must me amazing right...No!I've grown up being called Anorexic, a model scout...
February 4th, 2012 at 07:54pm

Who wants to be conventionally beautiful?

Many people want to be unique, but they're so caught up on being conventionally beautiful. I've been on this site many years (though my 'joined date' says differently) I've seen many sob stories.All my life I was taught not to put people down, after all 'it's much easier to bring people down, than build them up.' Is it easy to avoid judging people due to their looks, I've heard ' you may have so...
December 4th, 2011 at 08:27pm

Learning to live.

Life if pretty amazing right now.I'm actually excited about a lot of things.1) Turning 19 on the 10/11. Even though getting older seems scary, I'm looking forward to it as well. (But not being 5hrs away from my family on the day though.)2) I normally hate going back home, having to clean a whole flat, do everything on my own, but I'm rather excited. I have LOTS of new ideas of what I want to...
October 29th, 2011 at 09:28am

Life/questions

I’ve been saying I’m going to have a new start for a while now, but it didn’t really happen due to reason that were in my control, but I didn’t fight (a part of me still didn’t want to fight). So I’ve decided when I come home from London I will start a fresh.I need to be more organised, I need to get over fears, and I need to get out my shell. I have a, not fear, but I enjoy having...
October 26th, 2011 at 07:53am

News/Pictures/Questions.

Random journal update and some pictures...Can't wait for the hen party on Saturday. An excuse to get hammered.Movies tomorrow with Zack and Siobhan.Haven't slept in 3 days, and I feel like death.I actually love winter (minus the rain)I love wearing knits, mitten and ear muffs. I think they're cute and comfy.New piercing:-Yes, got my hip pierced again.Also finished the painting:-Even though it took...
October 11th, 2011 at 11:48pm

Weirdly perfect.

It was awkward and perfect at the same time.Let me start the story. We were in Tootsies, and my friend was getting a ‘fish pedicure.’He walked past the shop, and noticed each other. He came inside and gave me a hug. For the next 10 minutes, we were stood there, cuddling and talking.After my friend was done with her fish pedicure, we had to walk back up to class, and he offered to walk up as...
October 7th, 2011 at 10:30am

:D

Rather happy today. Bumped into a guy I had a crush on. We spent ages talking at lunch, at the end he walked me to my classroom door, and gave me a hug and a kiss on my cheek, and now we’re gunna meet up and have a drink…which has made my day.Think that experience is proof that things can get better. I’ve had some bad times this week, but after today, I don’t care as much. I’m going to...
October 5th, 2011 at 05:45pm

Food.

Once again, I’m writing this journal to get things out my head rather than anything else.Ever since starting these pills, I’ve lost all my appetite. Right now I’m forcing myself to have breakfast because I didn’t eat all yesterday. I’ve gone down to 6 stone (84lbs) which is very underweight for an 18 year old. I’m meant to be putting weight on though. These pills are meant to sort out...
September 20th, 2011 at 09:40am

Really?!

'awww thanks fo rthe comment!! i love you too! lol NOT!!! YOU SHOULD JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP AND MIND YOUR OWN BUISNESS! DID YOU EVEN READ MY PROFILE?? PROB NOT! I CUT AND ALL THAT NICE STUFF, AND RIGHT WHEN YOU SAID ALL THAT STUFF ON MY PHOTOS AND PROFILE, I JUST GRABBED THAT KNIFE AND CUT MY WRIST OPEN! HOW DO YOU FEEL NOW?!? HUH! YOU JUST MADE THAT KINDA IMPACT ON MY LIFE, AND I MIGHT DIE CASUE...
September 19th, 2011 at 03:19pm

Photography Comp/Questions

FIRSTAnyone who does photography:-http://www.mibba.com/forums/topic/74567/let’s try and keep the competition alive, shall we?SECONDThese drugs have made it so I've lost a lot of my feelings, for someone I thought I'd always love. A few days ago I couldn't bare to be without him, now, we can not talk for hours on end and I don't care as much.THIRDhttp://ibelongunderneaththesun.blogspot.com/ New...
September 16th, 2011 at 10:04pm

Rant/question/tattoo

This is just a random rant. I don’t expect anyone to read about it or comment.Anyway, I’m rather excited and nervous about the next few days. I’m nervous because today my doctor proscribed me Citalopram (anti depressant) and even though everyone is different, I’ve heard that almost everyone gets the bad side effects and I don’t want to start my first day feeling sick or other side...
September 12th, 2011 at 10:27pm

Rape! Questions.

If you're thinking the title is leading to some sort of joke you're very wrong.It’s true that one mans freedom is another mans hell.I personally think it is wrong to joke about things like rape, and recently rape/molesting has reached a shameful level, especially in the UK.This morning I was reading some disturbing articles about a young girl who was gang raped by 3 Muslim men.‘The Queen...
September 11th, 2011 at 01:56pm

I thought...

Thought I couldn’t breathe without you, turns out I just learnt to breathe with your restrictions.Thought I needed you there, turns out I just needed the chance to stand on my own two feet.Thought I was lost without you, turns out I could find myself without your help.Thought I was in love with you, turns out I was in love with the idea of you.Sometimes people help you find yourself, other...
August 3rd, 2011 at 02:48am

Beauty survives.

I’m 100% positive I’m not the only person in the world that has ever felt down because of the way they look, but, this isn’t just about me, this is about everyone who has ever thought they aren’t good enough, they aren’t beautiful, because I’m telling you, you are.Everyone gets good and bad comments thrown at us, some people have a habit of thinking the bad comments are more truthful....
July 30th, 2011 at 02:11am

What defines us, + questions.

What really defines us? Our personal items? What we wear? Life experiences? Friends or family? Money? Our hair? ETC......Many people say that when you look inside a girl’s bag, you can see what kind of a person they are, so I thought I’d take a shot at making my own “inside my bag.” with text.1) Ipod Touch2) Blackberry Storm phone3) Neroli Jasmin Eau De Toilette4) Mint Tic Tacs5) Sony...
July 23rd, 2011 at 12:46pm

The world is a stage, and the human race are the critics.

Picture yourself walking with people staring and judging you. Why do people judge someone for how they look? To look like everyone’s expectations, you’ll always loose. If the cover doesn’t look appealing, would you not read that book? The inside can be completely different than what you assume from the outside. Did you ever think that person has feelings as much as you do? Why can’t people...
June 11th, 2011 at 11:23pm

Can someone help?

My Passport expired in June 2010 and I need some ID, I know some places don't accept an expired passport as ID, but, would it work if I showed my college ID, that's got my picture, DOB and name on it?I know most places won't just accept a college ID because it doesn't have a signature on it...Most places only accept things that have a signature, picture and DOB. [I live in the UK, just in case you...
November 10th, 2010 at 05:30pm