I feel sick to my stomach. There's this girl, I'm not going to respect her wishes because she won't respect mine. She refuses to cal me Spencer. She's a transboy, she goes to my school, and she's a b*tch. I don't care, I'm calling her a 'she', because she's doing the same to me. Call me immature, she's said worse to me. She took the liberty to find out my birth name and to cal me that, and to tell...

I cant believe that just happened. I'm sick to my stomach and my hearts beating so fast. I was talking to my best friend, and she mentioned a girl she liked and how she thought she wouldn't like her back. I said I know. She asked if I liked anyone and I said yes.She asked who. I responded: You.If she doesn't tell me if she feels the same within 5 seconds I'm going to hurl.I'm posting this on mibba...

My mind has been centered around the idea that I may possibly be a bigender who prefers male pronouns. Here's the wikipedia cos I don't want to explain it, or I wouldn't know how. Sometimes I feel like a boy and sometimes I feel like a girl**. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/BigenderI don't want to be. I just want to be a boy. I don't want to be a girl and I don't want to be bigender or gender...

Last year sometime, I used this website a lot, and I was always in the journals section. People would post four random questions at the end of their journal for comments, and I did the same. I asked for their favorite word, because I was really getting into words at the time- I just really liked how they sounded on my tongue. I said I'd post them all in one journal entry, but I quit mibba, and......

I broke down yesterday. I was doing fine, and I was tired. I love that time of night when my mind isn't working too hard and I don't notice much. I forget who I am, and I get to be the boy I want to be.Until I see a mirror.I don't want to transition or anything, I don't just want to cross-dress, I want to just be born a boy. That cant happen, and I'm just never happy anymore. I cant take this...

Once upon a time there was a little girl. She doesn't remember much of her childhood. She was little. And she was a girl. That's really it.She grew up a little bit. She was 13, and in 8th grade. She had her first kiss, with a girl who kissed her. Later, she questioned her sexuality. She was bisexual at first, and now she's pansexual. She had 3 boyfriends, and 1 girlfriend. That girl was the one...

It's Saturday. Great. Two more days and I'm no longer homeless. I moved, and I was 'homeless' for a week, technically. That's what everyone says. I don't know why I'm writing this and I might delete it before clicking 'submit'.I'm staying with my grandparents for this week, for two more days. I'm just tired of this, and I'm really sick of ...I'm not even sure. I'm getting sick of being around...

I probably have less people reading this, because of the title. I probably will have to throw words around at the end, because this journal entry won't be one hundred words long. I will most definitely reword this and add words to it, so it will be longer.I would like to ask for anyone reading this to ever so kindly read this poem I wrote not too long ago. It is called Unidentified. Here is the...

This is just really sudden. I hate myself. I used to be happy with who I was, but I just don't want to be me anymore. I don't want do die, I do want to cut, but I won't. It seems like I have nothing to be upset about, but nothing is as it seems now. I do not like myself.I don't know how to explain it, but I don't want to be the person I am. I want to move away, really far away. I want to move to a...

Does anyone here have any fanfiction or know any good ones, on this website or on any website, that they'd like to suggest I read? I'm having trouble finding any.I read: Ryden, Frerard, Pikey, Brallon, Peterick, Gabilliam, or any ship from the bands My Chemical Romance, Panic! at the Disco, or Fall Out Boy. Also, I'd read any The Academy Is... and Cobra Starship pairings.I don't really read...

I go by Spencer, and my birth name is a name only used for girls. I like to be called Spencer, because it isn't a gender-specific name.The thing is, after getting a new facebook because the website wouldn't let me change my name, and correcting my family to the point where I have two family members who try to call me this, I don't know if I even want a name.I just want a nickname, that isn't a...

I just submitted a poem, and I'd like someone to see it. It's called Unidentified.I'm proud of it, and I'm NEVER proud of any poetry I've written.It would mean a lot to me if anyone reading this could read that poem, and possibly comment?here's the link:http://poem.mibba.com/259867/Unidentifiedread and I'll give you a cookie :)And I still have some words to kill, so, if there's anyone who reads...

But I guess you can put a trigger warning on this if you like.It's 1:03am, and I'm awake, unlike the rest of my house. I'm alone. It does not matter what website I read 'this' from.All you need to know is the following:There is a post about self harm. I used to self harm, and I haven't in 3 months. This is something I don't talk about. I'm not around websites or blogs that talk about self harm...

That was the title of the one-shot I was writing. It was a Ryden. It was the first Ryden I had ever written. It deleted. I had a panic attack.It takes me awhile to write things. I have all these ideas in my head that don't come out right on paper- or on the drafts section of Mibba. I'm often just sitting in front of the computer, with my hands hovering the keyboard, not having a clue what to...

I've been on mibba for... a year, a few weeks over a year. When I signed up, I had written my birth name and set my biological gender under info.I've changed my name (not legally, but possibly someday). So, online, I've been changing it to my preferred name, Spencer. I was going to change my gender from 'female' to 'select sex'... but that option is no longer available.Is there a way to change my...

i honestly have no idea what to write about right now. i guess i was going to rant about whatever was on my mind, as usual. and maybe one or two of you guys would read this and nobody would comment, as usual. I'm used to that.I'm wondering, do i suck at poetry so bad and that's the reason nobody comments on it.i guess i joined mibba to get better at writing.from mibba, Ive learned to accept...

this is to the fabulous killjoys.everyone that has an account on mychemicalromance.com, my user name is MCR.is.my.life17if you have an MCR account, please comment on this saying your user name and your killjoy name.if you don't have a killjoy name yet, you should click the like below. its a killjoy name generator. its the generator i used.http://rumandmonkey.com/widgets/toys/namegen/14076/i guess...

The second I turn 18, I'm going to dye my hair every color of the freaking rainbow. why? because I can, because I want to now, and my b*tch of a mom wont let me do anything. So therefore, the second I turn 18, I'm going to do everything she has said no to. You think I'm rebelling don't you? Well I'm not. This is something I want to do. She just wont let me and she never will as long as I'm living...