i dont know if I can do this anymore. I was so scared that I couldnt find all the answers in you and you proved me right. Oh baby I will love you till the end of time. I remember that one day in your car when you promised me that you wouldnt hurt me. The way you looked into my eyes almost made me forget that people lie. Almost. I just cant anymore. I'm tired of the problems and complications. I'm...

How things went down on Friday and how confused I am lately has finally all came crashing down. My inner hippie is writing this today so if its a little confusing or vauge I'm terribly sorry. I'm on my high horse. Um so back to my story of being motivated to rehab strong once again. Um lets start with the Friday story, me and the ex have been really nice to each other lately, we keep joking about...

Honestly idfk anymore. Things are up and things are down I think he's in love with two people at the same time but he's just not admitting it. He's happy with phoebe and then we also have been very happy lately. What. The. Flying. Octopus. Fuck. Is. Going. On. Is it possible to be in love with two people at the same time? Because it seems to be working just fine. O but it was so cute the other...

Yaaayy its been one week. Rehab is working but its working the opposite way. I feel closer to him. What the fuck is going on? But my rehab has not failed. It has only made things smoother :) and I'm in love. I'm happy that he was able to share what was on his mind with me and asdfghjkl!!!!! I'm in fucking love. Rehab makes you fall in love XD and this guy is the one. Like THE one. Like I'm going...

I had something to write here and I think that I'm still going to go through with it but something has changed drastically since then and it was very unexpected and deeper than I thought. He continues to suprise me more and more everyday. Two days ago now, I read something about how some rehab patients write down or explain the reasons of why they were addicted to something. So I sat down and...

Abusive protectors kind of strange right? Nope not at all, when you have an exboyfriend who hates your other ex boyfriend and threatens to kick his ass XD rehabbing isn't working but then again I'm just in the early stages and it seems like I'm just falling more in love. Fuck what am I doing wrong? Anyway for the sake or saving jimmy punching holes in walls in gonna stop talking to Zach all...

Um so I'm a hippie. Besides that today was overall pretty good, I got a new phone (the windows Nokia Lumina 900) and its amazing I love it and its sooooo fast! I mean I'm trying my blog from this as we speak. Yea its that cool. So I wanna go back to Friday, I got told some interesting information and I don't know what to do with it. Jimmy told me that he was in the hospital three times since we've...

So for my Ex Rehab to work it takes two people. And that sucks major ass. Today once again another arguement unfolded based upon the reasoning of why things ended, Jimmy made a comment saying that the excuse he gave me really wasnt the real reason behind why he dumped me. The excuse he gave me was that his two ex's phoebe (current girlfriend) and sidney were creating drama and blah blah blah. At...

No I'm not thirty so I am not really going "Over The Hill" persay but I've heard something lately that seems to piece my most recent "getting everything off my chest" behavior lately and just having it being repeated in the back of my mind makes me wanna roll around in cake or something. A friend told me that "the first step in getting over something or someone is admittance." THANK GODDESS! It...

Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck FUCK FUCK FUCK. I'm dreaming. I have to be. FUCK I dont even know how to explain the INTENSITY in my chest right now. I know shes right and she had a lot of good points. Today was a very bad no goood awful day. Well 4th block was at least. What have we learned today missy? That blogs should stay as that. HERE AS A BLOG AND NEVER TO BE ADMITED TO OR OWNED IN REAL LIFE. like...

I sent the text. I was getting ready and trying to frantically clean the house. I cleaned our den and by time I was finished pacing the floor because I was so damn nervous. My pocket vibrated with a text from him saying that he was here, you dont know this but I grabbed a pillow from the couch and just started screaming hoping that it would take some of my nervousness away (of course I was wrong)....

First off before i start this i would like to take time and apologize for my horrible author skills. i am complety unprofessional by taking so long to post chapters, but you all have been on my mind lately and trust me an update is comming soon maybe even to both stories. now that that jazz is out of the way i will tell you how my life is going even though you people dont give a shit XD! but...

First i just want to say sorry for not posting in like forever and in the next few paragraphs or however long this takes you will hopefully understand. So ive come to the conclusion that i can feel if me and my boyfriend are going to break up a week in advance, i get insane almost. im driven crazy and unable to sleep at night and crying and having random panic attacks. well thats what happened,...

as the title says, there is a moth in my room just chillin on my closet door, i kinda dont want it to leave because i think its kinda cool just sittin there. worrying about its self. so today was an okay day i guess, i finally got some reading done from the book i am currently reading called 'Die For Me" by Amy Plum, at first me and my friend april (you can check out her page and her stories she...

Today was my parents annaversary (i know i didnt spell that right but i tried re-typing it like four time so i give up) they have been toghether 17 years, which is also a very personal day for my mother because she lost her sister many years ago today, i dont want to go into details since it is my mothers personal business. Anyway she woke both me and my father up very early to go to church. that...

so here i am again writing my stupid boring life story to the world. Today was pretty much a good day. I went over my grandpas house with my two cousins, my mother, and my aunt. We all had a good time and then it came time to leave so we drove my aunt and two cousins back home and when we got back to the road to go home (from my aunts house its about 45 minutes to get back to our own house) my mom...

So first I know what you're thinking, how dare i have the nerve to call this entry day 2, well its my journal i can name my entries whatever i want even if its been way more than a day between this entry and the last entry.So lets start with my random thoughts, the biggest one on my mind that keeps popping up everytime i send it away? love. i hate the girls that only talk about their love life all...

Okay I am in desperate need of a journal, I tried the whole blogging thing and well I don't want to keep up with it anymore because I think its boring. I'm only doing this because I got inspired a few days ago from that new mtv show awkard, and if she can type her daily life on the computer, so can i. I should be reading some of the books i ordered a few weeks ago but we both know i am way to lazy...