December 28th, 2012 at 10:52pm
I miss you so, so much!
Lando you mean the works to me, always will be one of my greatest friends.
Everyday I miss your ass a little more then the day before. I hope you and Addie are together up there and you both are looking over all of us.
We were all such amazing friends in high school and had such big plans for the future.
Now look at all of us. Who's left?
It feels like just me, Lilly, and Mina.
Actually, it feels like just me and Lilly. Mina has been busy with her life.
Oh yeah, Mina married Michael, no surprise there.
We all knew they would end up together. She was pregnant for a short time, sadly though she lost the baby.
It's like death surrounds us all more then anybody.
So many of you have been lost from our life. I feel like we live in a fucked up soap opera. It sucks. It really, really does.
Not a day goes by that I don't think of you, Addie, William, Kelle, and Carmen.
All of you were huge parts of my life, you and William more then anybody.
I feel like life is just a dream, a bad one, I feel like I'm just numbly walking through life and not living it.
Because this wasn't how things were supposed to be. Things were supposed to be so much different.
Me and William were supposed to spend the rest of our lives together, same with you and Addie, and then everything went south.
Ever since we lost William, Kelle, and Carmen it's like life has just kept getting worse and worse.
Like Jerry's out of jail, works at some pet store and he's hooked on pills. Brooke, well she's knocked up and still lives at home with her mom, her boyfriend lives there with them, neither if them have a job or car and Brooke has a bunch of shit wrong with her. She is nowhere near ready to have a kid. Courtney I still haven't heard from, still in Washington going to school I suppose. Ashton is a jerk and has like shunned us cause now he's to good for us, and he's moving to New York soon enough. Don't even know wtf happened with Elaina and Logan. I don't even see then around anymore. Maggie just fucked, dropped out of college this year, has no job or money and Is pretty much homeless, crashes at different people's houses.
But I guess there are good things happening as well.
Lilly and Tiny are still together and live together. Both are still in school and working. Although Lilly now goes to a different school to be a dental assistant.
Me and Alex have been doing really good. He's still working and I still have my own place, plus school and work is going well.
I hear Rodger is still in school, he also just had a kid. Baby girl that they named Michelle.
So I guess not everything is bad. But nothing is what we thought it would be.
Life is funny like that. I suppose.