I need some mindless reflection.

Be honest, do you have a boyfriend?No. Nor do I really want one at this point.Who are you texting right now?Nicole and Mackenzie.How late did you stay up last night and why?I was up until around midnight, reading. But I was tired.What are you gonna do later?Party. Yep. Should be good.What's currently bothering you right now?It's still bothering me that she didn't want to tell me. That really,...
December 30th, 2011 at 01:21am

Would it be weird?

If I asked permission to touch your beard? It's just so beautiful and cuddly looking. I am compelled to touch it, but I hardly know you. I figure it would be less weird if I asked first rather than just went up to you and started touching your beard.The other option is going up to you and kissing you. You may react better to that than to the beard-touching. Either way, I get to feel the majesty of...
April 3rd, 2011 at 08:17am

I'm just going to wallow in self pity.

Even though I know I don't deserve pity. I pretty well deserve to be slapped.-------I'm really sick of being a sh~t human being. I don't know why I even pretend I'm not.I haven't talked to anyone at all today. I left my phone in my room and stayed offline. I figured that way I could at least pretend to have some control over the fact that she probably won't talk to me for at least a week. Yeah, I...
March 9th, 2011 at 04:29am

Really, tacos?

I can't believe that happened. Tacos. Of all the stupid things to say to "Any big plans for tonight?"I can't believe you actually went with it. You're so chill, it's fantastic. Maybe next time we can have a conversation with substance rather than about substances. Maybe I'll tell you about my interview, if you care to hear.Ha, I wonder how you'd react if I just said to you "I had an interview the...
February 27th, 2011 at 10:20am

I am done.

I am so done with this. I am worth far more than you realize.I'm not an object.I'm not an airhead.I'm more than some pretty faced trophy you don't even try to show off.How do you expect me to keep loving you when you don't show me the person I fell in love with anymore? How do you expect me to love you when you actively eliminate any emotional connection we ever had? "You're so cute <3" "You're...
April 13th, 2009 at 08:09am

I met Santa Claus.

She's been back for nearly a month now. It's been... rough. Both of them had expected to be out of the country when he left, but they were both still here. Now we're cleaning up what he left behind, but pushing ahead for what will come next.Some interesting things I learned about him.1) He's actually a member of the church of latter day saints. In other words, he's mormon. However, he kind of left...
March 23rd, 2009 at 04:54am

Snow.

It's snowing outside.You know those days that lose all sense of time? You don't know what day it is, what you're doing, where you are, or why you're here? Today is one of those days. It melted in from yesterday, and I don't know when tomorrow is.They said it was spring. Starting yesterday, it was spring. But yesterday was summer. It's winter again already today. I was wearing my bathing suit, I...
March 22nd, 2008 at 02:06am

I wonder what motivates people.

I wonder what motivates people to try to become involved in what they know little about.After all, a one-sided story is often misleading.And to make matters even worse, I don't even get to know who is so self-important they feel the need to instruct me on how to behave. Ah, the joys of anonymous messaging.She (yes, I at least know it's a she) herself told me that she is "sure she doesn't know...
February 18th, 2008 at 09:25pm

Valentines.

I'm sure you've all heard it before. Valentines Day was created by a card company to increase income in the down season.But... There was no Valentines Day for a very long time. Yes, there was a Saint Valentine, but he didn't do anything to get a day. Until Hallmark wanted money. It's true.But that's not why I'm here talking about Valentines Day. I myself am a firm believer in love, it's the...
February 9th, 2008 at 02:02am

Rette Mich

Rette Mich is such a fantastic song. Like actually. I want everyone to hear it.I'm in english. I'm ahead. Because I'm ahead, I noticed that one of the links didn't work. So instead of just chilling and waiting for the teacher to find a new link (the first was blocked), she gets me to find a new link. After about 15 minutes of reading page after page of what I wasn't looking for, I found a somewhat...
February 6th, 2008 at 09:44pm

I don't speak legalese.

I need to go to the legal studies room down the hall. You see, I have a contract I need to sign and I have no idea what it says. "The Producer shall be entitled to use and exploit and license others to use and exploit such contribution, in whole or in part, by all means and in all media and formats whether now known or hereafter invented throught the Universe for the full term of copyrigth and...
January 31st, 2008 at 10:41pm

I don't want to say this out loud.

If I say this out loud, the reaction will kill me. Even typing this kills me, because I want you to be happy. So you can disregard everything that I'm going to say. I should stop talking to you while I write this, it just makes it harder because I know you're really happy right now.I am a selfish bitch for saying this at all, I should really just keep this to myself. But if I keep it inside it'll...
December 23rd, 2007 at 10:37am

The Secret Life Of Bees

I hate reading books in class. I can read them for class, but in class I can't do it.I get very attached to books. I feel the characters going about what they will while I'm reading, and I feel that I know them.I'm currently reading The Secret Life of Bees, which is a very good book. I've enjoyed what I've read so far. I'm writing this because I need to take a break from it. About two minutes ago,...
December 8th, 2007 at 12:02am

At a loss

I don't know what I'm going to do about this. There are only so many options, and none of them appeal. I can't keep at what I'm doing, it's just way too much. I can't deal with racism or God right now, and this as far too much of both, and in addition, dealing with loss. But if I change what I'm doing, I'll be bored out of my mind everyday for the next three weeks. I have no idea what to do about...
December 5th, 2007 at 01:16am

1997 and other things on my mind

I just re-discoved the band 1997, and I really like them. Garden of Evil may be their most popular song, but that doesn't stop it from being my favorite! And no matter what they thought, I was born before 1997 and listen to their music.More importantly:I'm talking to my friend, and she just went out with one of our other friends. It wasn't a date, or so she says. But going to a movie and then...
December 2nd, 2007 at 12:25pm