Okay.. It's gona be all over the place because my sense of time sucks.First, school: I was bullied all the time. By friends even. In the younger grades (grades where boys shouldn't even know what sex is) there was a group of guys who would harass me. All the time. Not just by saying stuff, (really dirty sexual things) but at one point two of them touched me inappropriately without my permission....

Hey guys...I've got about 5 minutes to type a quick journal and then I got to go to the gym. Yay.So, I've been dieting for about three weeks now. I've lost 8 pounds. I should have lost a lot more, at least 10... I feel like a failure, but my mum is pretty proud. She just doesn't know that I'm not just exercising a lot, I'm "starving" myself. I don't feel as hungry anymore, but I did when I first...

I know you hear all these little drama queens say that all the time, but I legitimatly hate myself. Every little thing drives me mad and disgusts me. There are SO many flaws. Not just in my apperence either.I hate my personality. I hurt everyone. That saying "If you can't love yourself, how are you gonna love somebody else?" is very true. I hurt the people I "love" because I get so mad at...

My step dad, John, was diagnosed with cancer a few months ago. If you follow my very irregular blogs, you'd know he was a heroin addict as well. I don't know what type of cancer he has, other then its in his blood. For a while, he seemed to be doing better.Two weeks after school let out, he left to go to the Mayo Clinic in Rochester for treatment. He's been there since then. My family went to see...

I'm really crunched for time, I have to leave in a few minutes to go to the gym with my boyfriends mom, but I figured I'd post a quick blog because I have a lot on my mind...First thing, is my weight. I know a lot of girls are unhappy with their bodies because of photoshop in magazines and all over the place, but I actually do need to lose some. I'm almost on the edge of being overweight, so I...

All those words describe my moms ex boyfriend. He gets extremely abusive when he's on heroin. Obviously. He's had two relapses before and I think that he has had another. Tonight, the past hour or so, has been terrible. Hell, all day has been.Around 8pm, he called my mom and demanded that she let him spend the night tomorrow so he could see the kids. Mom said no. He was irate even then. Half hour...

I'm getting really really nervous and scared. I'm starting to worry that this may not just be a stomach bug or depression.I've been really fatigued, randomly nauseous, moody, my boobs are so sensitive and.. the big one.. my period hasn't come this month. It was supposed to come a few weeks ago. I'm so nervous. I've had a scare before, and I really don't want to go through this again. I took a test...

I just found out, maybe 45 minutes ago, that an old friend took his life. I continue to tell myself it isn't true, but every time I look at his profile, I see a new post, telling him how much he was loved. It kills me to hear about someone taking their own life, especially since he was a friend. And when I hear it was because of bullying.It's been years since I had a real conversation with him....

I heard rumor (a long time ago) that The Doctor would possibly soon regenerate into a woman. I highly doubt this will happen for many reasons. (Main one being girls love Time Lords ;) ) This rumor did give me an idea for a story though..I've already written the preface and a bit of the first chapter. The story will be called, if I post it, The Woman in the Blue Box. Take a wild guess at what...

My boyfriend has been bothering me to make a journal. So, here you go babe(:As of yesterday, Stuart (that amazing guy mentioned there ^^^) and I have been dating for four months. It's not that long, but it feels like its been longer. There was a bit of drama right at the beginning, mostly because of age and how mom had to find out we were dating. Neither of my parents really care about the age...

Stranger: I'm a ninja that sneaks into your bedroom at the dead of night and licks your curtains.You: Lmao.You: xDNice to meet you Ninja thatlicks my curtains...Stranger: Nice to meet you too... Waiiiiiit... VOLDEMORT?You: Muahahaha. >:DStranger: Oh you sneaky son'abitch. >.<Stranger: I thought you were on a bigo' mission to kill Harry Potter?You: I gave up on that forever ago.. now im...

Title explains one of the many things that happened today. xDI spent yesterday and today with my bestestest friend in the whole world. Yesterday we met at the library and wandered all day before she managed to convince her dad to let me over for a while. It was so much fun. Her brothers are so weird. I swear Sam has a crush on me and hes 11. Its kinda cute. Haha <3Things happened when we got...

I'm shocked it actually happened. A friend and her step brother actually... I can't believe it. I hate it. I legit got sick when she told me. Not because its bad, well... It is, but that's not the real reason. I love her. And I've had a crush on him for the longest. I mean, with himnits probably just lust, because we mostly just talk about sex... But there are times we actually hold good...

[I'm writing as though I were talking to my friend... whom is ticking me off at the moment]You think your life is SO bad, but it's not. You make up these stories trying to convince me that it is, but it isn't. I know they are just stories because you always confess to me that they are. So don't start saying that they aren't now.You are constantly searching for attention. Any sort of attention....

Ever have someone make up a life to try to please you? My friend is doing that.I tell her something and magically she has or is going through the same thing. Here's some examples (she's admitted at one time that some are lies.)I confessed to her that I was raped and sexually assaulted between third and the beginning of sixth grade. She tells me her uncle raped her, only to later on tell me it was...

I can't believe her. I want to scream at her and call her a whore and tell her i hate her guts and to never talk to me again! But... I love her too much.I've had a crush on my best friend for the longest time. I told her about it about a two or three months ago. She pretty much told me it wouldn't happen because she likes her step brother too. (That's a long complicated story. If you wish to know...

I'm debating if I should write a story entitled as above. It'd be partially based on facts, what's actually happening to me. If I do write it, I'm not sure if I should make it one long chapter (well, long for me) or like.. a three shot.My friend and I are pretty messed up. We have talked about suicide, never murder. I'll think about it occasionally, but never ever will I act on it. Suicide though,...

Alright. So...No clue what this journal is about. I'm just going to babble and type and see where this all goes...Anyway, It's almost one in the morning. Quarter to one. I'm actually sorta wired at the moment. I've been drinking Mountain Dew and other caffeinated beverages. Oh! I got something interesting... I think.So, I go to the store up the street almost every other day. Today, as I was...

Alright, I've done a journal about this before. But now I have some stuff for you Christians that are against homosexuals. You say it's wrong? You say the bible says that it is prohibited and a sin? Well... You are right. It does say, in Leviticus 18:6: "You shall not lie with a male as one lies with a female. it is an abomination." and also, in Leviticus 20:13: "A man who sleeps with another man...

I came across this video on youtube. Its called The Way She Feels by Between the Trees. <3 I love it. It really hits home.I've been cutting myself since I was nine. My mom had a heart attack and I couldn't stand all the new stress and things going on. Mom's heart attack wasn't the only thing. My step dad was an alcoholic and tended to go into violent rages. The kids at school were complete...