Hello.This is mainly just another rant blog. Pls ignore unless you feel compelled.It's the eve of my birthday, which I always hated.I've already cried, three times today about how pathetic and low I've sunk in life. I'm literally homeless, living in a basement at my mothers, being abused every damn day verbally and mentally.I don't know what it is, but I feel like I deserve better from life. I...

Because um hello.Yeah I'm still alive.Sorry if I didnt get back to anyones comments/messages. Im doing this whole 'start fresh thing', like every two weeks because my life is cluster fuck of failure.Updates for any of my friends;- Still homeless. Still looking. Living in a basement like a true aspiring writer that has been unable to write a single word for months.- I left my shitty ass job for...

Hello.I got a new computer a while ago, and I forgot to write down all my passwords so I got locked out of my Mibba account and like fifty others. I just remembered my password though so yay. I've returned.I haven't been up to much. Keeping my bubble.Things are finally getting sorted out at work which is nice, taking some of the stress away. I have my boys back to help me so maybe it'll all be...

I have no idea why, But I'm back. Again.I miss writing I suppose. I have some old stories I want to kick start again, and some old one's that never made it to posting stage, that need to be finished.Im feeling a little better about life at the moment. In spite of it all.I've reached a point where I'm using my head, which is good. I'm listening to music again too, Like my music. It's nice, I missed...

Kill me.Yeah that's right. I used a quote out of a novel. Kill me.I fucked it all up.I fuck everything up.Maybe it's always going to be this way, maybe not, but one thing's for sure.I. Fucked. It. Up.I can't even bring myself to be angry about it. Like this is what I do. I destroy everything. I did exactly what I didn't want to do, I opened myself too much. I made myself too vulnerable and then I...

Heyo,Jumping on the bandwagon here, figured I may as well post some of my unposted stories and small summaries of them, if I'm lucky I might get some inspiration to work on them again.Iron Thorns -This was supposed to be a Game Of Thrones story, based on the 'what ifs', Centered mainly around Robb Stark and Margery Tyrell. I decided to work on this shortly after the airing of the Red Wedding...

Hi, I'm bored.Found this weird survey on Tumblr. I have a thing for doing weird surveys. So I'm just gonna do that, Feel free to steal.1. What is more difficult for you, looking into someones eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they are telling you how they feel?First one is most difficult for me. I have issues with eyes, They're the window to the...

Hi, I actually have plans today.Well, writing/photo editing plans, not like...actual plans.Well...I did have plans, but not being paid fucked that up, so no plans? Hahaha.Anyway,Making a list here so I can mean to do it, not do and then beat myself up about it later.Writing- Write up proper descriptions instead of all my half ass lame ones.- Fix all obvious errors, and mark stories for...

So, if this doesnt make sense.Im drunk, heads up.Well, mostly drunk, like I can still type, but yeah.Look you know what I mean.I'm so...angry, I think?How bad is it, on a scale of one to ten to not even know what's going on anymore?I'm so sick of these games. I'm so sick of being treated like shit, Like I'm nothing.Sorry, got heavy fast. I'll back track.I'm listening to songs on Youtube.And of...

I figured it out.I've been particularly irritable for about...Gee I don't know...Over two years.And last night, I had a very eye opening dream that answered all my questions. Now you might scoff and say 'well that's stupid, dreams don't mean anything', well dreams have generally never led me astray. So I have no reason to assume this is any different.I had the most mind blowing orgasm last...

Current Tune: Linkin Park/Somewhere I belongHi guys, Hope you all had a good solstice/christmas/kwanza.This is another frustration blog. Warning in advance.Just need to let this out before I explode.My christmas was alright, nothing special, but it was kinda relaxed.Well, I thought it was at the time.The last two days, I've been a total slave for a certain someone. Mentally, Physically and...

Yeah, I hid again. Sorry, Especially to you Hina, I'm back I mean it.I just needed to clear my head a bit.I've had a lot of negativity swirling around lately, and not just your run of the mill blackness that seems to encase me on a 24/7 basis. I've had that old nagging feeling back, the one that whispers constantly, "Your not worth the air you breathe". I'm sure everyone's had that before.On the...

Heyo,So in classic fashion, life's thrown me another curve ball in the form of hemiplegic migraine's.Last night, one whole side of my body went numb and drooped, I was unable to speak properly and I couldn't swallow right. I lost complete function on that side. I could move my fingers, but it felt like intense pins and needles, but I couldn't move anything else except one side. It's was...

Hi Mibba Peeps,I'm in a bit of an 'eh' zone right now. I'm happy with my life, I truly am, but I just feel like something's missing. I don't know what it is. I thought I'd be happy having my family back together, and I am, but I feel, strange, Like something has changed. It's hard to explain. I don't really have words for it.I guess I feel...like I'm being taken for granted? In a way?I'm not sure...

Long time no see.Been real busy, trying to sort my life out.I've been promoted at work once again, Im now officially qualified to run the place 100%.I've been working with some promoters at another venue, also got another job at a concert venue on the go. It's been a busy few months.I finally stood up to my boss the other day, and put my foot down. I told her I was unhappy, and that I wouldnt do...

Hi guys,So Im still reeling over Chester. Still feels surreal. Had their back catologue playing ever since I heard, it reminded me of how much I appreciated their music and how much they helped me with their beats over the years. The lyrics still speak to me even after all these years, They were relevant when I was 14, and their still relevant now - Just in a different way.In memory of Chester, I...

So it's legit just come to my attention that Photobucket no longer allows linking/usage of images on a free account! (As you can see by my blog GIFS now being GONE.)This also means all my story banners I worked so hard on, layouts I've made, now all have bad links and everything is just a giant 'third party usage' banner. I have so many things linked from Photobucket to Mibba for my...

Emotionally.Physically, I look fine. But Emotionally...I'm not.I got diagnosed with a stress condition recently. Which is no fun might I add. Now everyone decides they want to stress me out. Work...Family...and now my partner has decided he's moving away from me. Now sure, I understand the reasons, they are perfectly sound.But I don't care.Right now I needed him here, to help me and it's like...

Hey guys, been a while!I've still been here lurking, but not really posting often apart from a rare comment. I'm doing most of my writing on my tablet right now to force myself to keep doing it and not getting distracted - It's difficult but Im averaging well enough.PersonalMkay so I had my birthday. It was amazingggg. My friends went all out, really. I meet them at 7pm at the Vodka Room - Which...

Hai.It's my birthday on the 24th, Or well, the 23rd I guess for you Americans? Idunno. But I'm turning 24. Isn't that punny? God I'm going crazy.Gonna spend the night at work, seeing my friends - Have some drinks, listening to music I hate till the place closes up and we can go to a strip club. Yayyyyy! Kinda looking forward to it though, One of my best friends in the whole world is leaving his...