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Hey, how are you doing today?

Awwh. :) I'm glad I sent it then.

Wow, I see. That's good for him. I hope I'm like that at his age.

I don't really like them either, tbh. Well, it depends on the kid, yeah. The nice ones can be quite cute, but the annoying ones make me go
I'd be such a crap mother xD aha.

Yeahh. I mean, we have time to revise between exams, since they're spread out a little. But at the same time, I kind of just want it all to be done. I'm going to run out of steam at this rate. Been working my arse off for once. xD

Yep, that's pretty much what happened, aha. xD Sorry.

Awww, bless him. :( I hope he's okay.
Wow, I see. xD Hmm, maybe she's shy? I wouldn't know, though. xD I'm not good with children.

Awww, haha. xD

Hmm, I'm alright I guess. The first leg of my exams is over, but I've still got 3 more to come, not this week, but the next. This week is just revision. T_____T So boringggg.
I can't wait until exams are over.
xxx

Seeing as I always seem to forget to reply to PMs, and had to go quickly off FB chat last night, I thought I'd drop you a line here. :)
How are you today?
xxx

Hey, how's it going?

My brother cried when we gave away this black and white kitten. xD I think he was about nine years old. It was kind of ridiculous. And the little boy felt so bad it that he wouldn't take it. So eventually my mom took it to a pet store, I believe.

Haha. I wouldn't call it a slight fascination. But we can call it what you want.

My mother can really push to the breaking point. She's...ambitious I suppose. And the whole point of my summer studying is to compete with the kids at my school that have 99-100 averages. I'm in 93-95 average. But I want to go higher, and I can. I've just slacked off a lot as a freshmen and sophomore. (Soph-o-more. I hate the way that's spelled.)

I think I'm about half-way through now and its definitely picked up. I still feel frustrated, but for completely different reasons. It's more like, "Grrr that president!" and "Make up your mind Katniss!" So it's a good frustrated.

I haz stalker? Yeah, its fantastic actually. Everything is still a little fragile with him because we have a lot of bad history that comes with us, but we're happy. And it can be stressful since he's in college and I don't see him as much as I'd like to. But this summer he's coming on the Italy/Greece trip, so there will lots of time to spend together. :3 And dun worry about the stalker thing. I'm so much worse. Today at lunch my friend and I took pictures of this senior she likes without him knowing. xD It's probably the worst thing I've ever done.

Okay, that works for me.
I'll see you this winter then?
Btw, I'll be turning 21 over winter break. ^_^

So how are you doing today?

That's understandable. I'll give you space if that's what you need, too.

Just know that I'm here for you if you need me, as a friend or anything else that you want me to be. I care about you, Molly.
*hugs*

And, I do have one other question, do you still want to see me in July?

Okay.

How are you doing though? I've been worried about you since you made that confessions post. Is everything alright?

Would it be okay if I called or something?

Are you feeling any better?

Awh, thank you. <3

After I sent that comment I read through it again and was like, "Pfft, I'm wishing obesity on a cat. Not that best thing to hope for." But seriously, a pudgy gray kitten to squeeze and love. Who doesn't want that!? Gah, we had a black kitten from this pregnant stray we took in. She was so cute! I was a little sad to see her go because she was the prettiest and the sweetest of the whole bunch. But the girl who came to pick her up seemed really nice and excited to get her. Couldn't say no to that. x)

I should. I've no idea what happened to it though after we moved out. I imagine my grandpa got rid of it somehow because I don't remember seeing it after that. And that is a HUGE HUGE aquarium. xD But it sounds absolutely gorgeous.

I get all that determination from my mother. But with her, its more like being obsessed with being number one. Like when my brother wasn't doing so well with this science project. She just took over to make sure he won first place. Which he did. Along with some scholarship money. My mom never really had that kind of problem with me just because I'm more competitive. Its actually a major flaw. If someone names an accomplishment, I instantly want to be like, "Well yeah I did better!" I've calmed it down as I've gotten older but when I was about thirteen, I was the most annoying kid ever, I swear.

I've started Catching Fire. And I'm not sure how I feel about it. Its sort of frustrating me. I hope it gets better. :/

Awh, I'm sorry meeting your girlfriend didn't go well. :c And I know what you mean. About living a lie. In a bit of different way. Like - I could never commit to anyone else unless I tried things one more time with someone - kind of way, but I get what you mean. I'm sure things will look up for you though. You're just too amazing to be held down. <3

Hey. I've been doing a lot of thinking lately and, I'll stop. I'm sorry. There's no reason for me to feel that way towards you if those feelings are unrequited. I'm okay with us just being friends... just don't be surprised if I feel jealous if you get with someone else. They're my feelings, I'll deal with them, and I don't want them to fuck up our friendship, okay?

And if you do want to cuddle with me or anything along those lines when I come see you. I'd be okay with that, I won't take it too seriously unless you do, okay?

Don't feel guilty about not liking me back. You're not the first one to do that. Most of my exes, actually, originally asked me out first.

So, how are you doing today?

Well as long as you don't hide the super glue from me I don't see a problem. :3

I'm okay with being just your friend, it's just that telling your friends you want to sleep with them tends to complicate everything.

And all I'm asking for is a chance to try and help put those pieces back together.

Yeah. So do I. I guess my mood doesn't change as often though.

I'm glad that you feel that way sometimes, but yeah, I'm looking for a serious relationship here. I don't just want to cuddle or have sex casually. I'm probably the only guy who doesn't just want sex.

I understand that you're not ready for a relationship though. Didn't you just break up with that girl you were with? And then you said something about having feelings for one of your exes in your confessions post?

Yeah. I'm aware of that. This is what, the third time you posted something in the confessions and told me how you aren't sure of feelings for me, friendship or otherwise?

I get that. I understand that you feel that way. I'm willing to wait it out until you are sure of yourself. I'm still here, as a friend.

I just wish you'd hold off on leading me on again until you're sure about how you feel about me.

And this is why you don't want to talk on the phone, more or less, I take it?

You were the one who pmed me and said it first. The only reason I said anything like that was because I thought the feeling was mutual at the time...

And you said that you were jealous of my ex's, and all that, and how you wanted to cuddle... I just don't know what to think right now.

I'm sorry. I just wish I could do something to help other than just send you messages over mibba.

I don't know. If we could both make up our minds and just be friends, I could see it working.

And um, if you do feel like talking on the phone at all, I'm here if you want to.

I really wish I was there with you.

Thank you for the picture comment! It was really sweet. <3 I was working so hard that day and all my friends were just goofing off and trying to get me to smile at the camera. xD I did eventually but my friend never uploaded it. Wastin' muh time!


I think so too. Satoshi is so fun to go visit. He gets fatter and fatter each time. xD I want a big fat gray cat named Gordon that I squeeze and love! >:D Also, a little black one, preferably one that is very jumpy. I think I'd name that one Merlin.

My mom used to own a HUGE aquarium when we were still living with my grandpa. I can barely remember it since I was so little at the time. And I owned a little blue fish when I was about 8 or 9 years old. But I've never had a snake or a turtle and I want those the most. Besides my future kittens of course.

Awh, thank you. ^.^ If you could see my list of summer goals...it's fricken huge. Dx But I'm determined to finish off my junior and senior year with nothing lower than a 98. Which I can definitely do as long as I get a head start in the summer and keep up with those study habits all year. xP Work, work, work. I'm aiming for a scholarships to private school in Austin. I went to tour it and...omg. Dream school. Even though I will have to take religion courses. :/

Anyways...xD I finished The Hunger Games and I'll be starting Catching Fire as soon as I get it from my brother. The ending was so intense! With the mutts, and the berries, and I seriously thought Peeta was some sort of recreated version made by the capitol! I kept myself up late because I absolutely had to finish it. It. Was. So. Good.

Also, I saw your Confession. And I was sad that you seemed so frustrated/sad. And I'm no good with comforting words but . And definitely don't give up. <3

I still want to come, too. Thanks. :]

And don't worry, I promise I won't do anything unless you're totally okay with it. You have my word on that.