Okay so in a moment of depression I was bored enough to pierce my ear, again. Yah it was quite fun. Yah it looked kind of cool. Now its swollen and my ear ring won't go into it. I put alcohol on it to lower the swelling and clean any infection it might have. My, oh, my. Why would I do something so stupid and reckless? Im usually much better than that! But it felt so good to get the needle through....

Im kind of sick of the talk about death. It gets under my skin. I want to die old and in my sleep but all the talk about murder, its scaring me. Is it childish to be scared or death? I dont think so. I found the guy that I think is the one so why am I happy when everyone talks about the things that upset me so. Yes I have depression. Yes I have problems. I know this. Why must I let people ruin my...

I am in such a good mood today. I recieved my birthday rats and I have my new look working for me. Back from break feeling fresh and new. I have to wonder if iI have terrible mood swings though. I could swear that yesterday I didnt want to go to school. And then other days I'm depressed and some I'm so excited. I need insite about this type of thing but I have no one to talk to about it so I'm...

Okay so maybe Im not the smartest person but why should i feel stupid? I have hopes and dreams. But things stop me from getting to my goals. I love. Everyone does no matter what people say. Love. They say, "teenagers, kids, do not know what it is." How do they know? I dont think they do. No one really, truly, knows what love is. Its something only God knows. His is something unwavering and ours...

I want to be free. my grams is being insane crazy. I guess thats where i get it from but still. I cant believe she suspected me of being ho-ish. Oh well. I'll get over it but still. It hurts to think im thought of in that way. I love her. I love alot of people. Why is it always the people who say that they'll never even think of hurting you, the ones that always do? I think that maybe its...

okay so i have really bad writers block an im afraid its permanet. i have written so many stories its not even funny but i have found that lately i dont have anything to express. im not the only one this has happened to, obviously, but i think i may never be able to write. im going to try now but i dont know. it might not be good. apologies.so i thought it may be about night walkers. like vampires...

so i was reading someone else journal entry and they said they wanted to change. well......i did and i dont know if i like it so much. hmm. its complicated. i love myself. i love how my friends treat me but i feel like im just here. i float off into myown world and then i think that maybe my friends arent really my friends but just people who are there to make me feel better.its true that while...