I don't believe I was raised in this little town. My ideas are too big, my personality is too much, my thoughts are too outrageous. I think there was a point in my life where I was in a different universe that permanently altered me. Everyone here is so redneck, good old boy southern. They're all so cookie-cutter old fashioned white bread and beer. It's impossible to believe i was actually RAISED...

Movie scores.Just the EMOTIONS conveyed with music. A bunch of violins making you feel things you've never felt before. Like the best orgasm ever that can never be duplicated.It's like, flying . by yourself. Above clouds. But you're not afraid of falling. You're free. You have anywhere to go and all the time in the world. You just bob and weave aimlessly with no restrictions or fears. Pure...

1) "Manic" -PlumbThe sound kinda reminds me of other songs from my childhood. "She can hardly speak and so she screams" I just like this becasue it describes me lately, I suppose.2) "My Mind's Eye" -SirenaNot really a huge fan of Sirena. I dont know why, but I like this song. Again, how i feel lately. Kathryn (my sister) read one of my notebooks yesterday. The one that's for random thoughts,...

First of all, I saw Transformers 3 today. It was great if you love giant robots smashing things, buildings and eachother for two and a half hours. But let's be honest here, who doesn't love that? Being the emotional fangirl that I am, I knew I'd cry. Thankfully I didn't. But I did have tears in my eyes at parts. Only because I'm such a huge Bumblebee fan.Yes, I'm still obsessed with Thor lately. I...

Dont get your panties in a twist, i was just reading some stuff. I found the warning signs interesting because about half of them sound familiar.(From the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline)Threatening to hurt or kill oneself or talking about wanting to hurt or kill oneselfYesLooking for ways to kill oneself by seeking access to firearms, available pills, or other meansMaybeTalking or writing...

So much stress since the concert, finals in every class and barely passing everything. I literally did not think I would make it to this summer buy I DID!! I bring good news! I got all A's on my end-of-course-tests!! 90 in math, 92 in english and a 91 in science! These were 15% of our final grades so you can't imagine how happy I am right now. I'm passing!! My final grade in science is a 74 which...

So I pretty much just had the most amazing day of my life. I'll skip to the part you care about. After discovering that a picture of MCR was in my yearbook under "artists of the year," my two best friends and I were checked out of school by my mother. The three of us rode back to my house where we covered the car in window crayoned slogans like "Look alive, sunshine" "killjoys, make some noise"...

Apprehensive. I'm apprehensive. The MCR concert is in 3 days. I'm beyond excited. My two best friends are going and so is a guy from my drama troupe. He's really awesome and a great actor so that's cool.Ive got a plan for everything. I'm over-planned. But that's for the best, right? Just anxious about food and bathroom plans, as well as my TOM arriving that day.I don't think Grace is going to it,...

I haven't written here in a while. A lot of shit has happened and I just wish people would cooperate, you know? V's mom said she could definitely go see MCR in 6 days and now she can't for no reason? I don't know but it pisses me off.End Of course tests sucked, I hate being tested.Anyways, the whole point of the title "terrified" is about to be explained.Last concert I went to was Adam Lambert...

Pretty much felt horrible all day. Over-paranoid. I felt like everyone was staring at me and talking about me. I just wanted to cry. I still feel like that though. I feel like people are talking about me right now and I just want to cry. It's terrible. I just want to scream and hide in a dark corner where no one will ever look at me again.My hair looks like shit. The color's fading and it needs to...

Two new CDs today. Guess what? Vices and Virtues. Goodbye Lullaby. And guess what else? They're fucking amazing. As to be suspected. Avril Lavigne is a musical goddess. Loved her since forever.So, this is really stupid but I'm kinda miffed. I'm very much the jealous type, and when Gee in the rp didn't tell anybody he was leaving for a while, it kinda ticked me off. But then he gets on his other...

I get a journal on here? Huh, shiny. Probably won't keep up with it much. Listening to piano music. I've got this obsession with pianos. You would not believe. I'll listen to pianos for hours on end, I have multiple playlists on my iPod of pianos. Michelle McLaughlin, Helen Jane Long and Beethoven are my favorites. Yeah, Beethoven. Moonlight Sonata? YesssssThinking a lot about tomorrow. Finally...