Heartless Monster

I'm Rachel Elizabeth and I'm a bit weird so be warned. I love art, fashion, music, typography, the beach, and my three best friends. People say I look 25 but act like I'm 5, while I'm only 15. I'm not the same girl I use to be, I admit a lot of shit got to me. I hide tears behind a smile, I'm alone but far from lonely, I'm sick and tired but I love my life even if it seems as though nothing ever goes right. I like to see smiles on everyones faces so I put them before myself. Only the few that know me best know I am more selfish than I may seem. I accept the love I think I deserve even though I honestly don't think I deserve anything. If you could glimpse inside my head for a minute, you would be in tears. I believe that if you don't stand for something, you will fall for anything. I waste my days comparing myself to others. Many have given up on me, just like I've given up on myself. I've built walls that I no longer know how to tear down. Just remember, you know my name and not my story.