June

I don't know, I haven't posted here in a long time. But I don't feel like I can express myself anywhere else, anymore, my stupid tumblr has too many followers and I get hate any move I take on it. I'm just sick of that, and they seem to follow me everywhere. Luckily, few bother to try and find my writing sites.I don't feel like I'm in control of my eating anymore. It's not 2012 and I can't get by...
June 9th, 2014 at 11:17pm

Sexism in slash (TW: rape)

As the title suggests this is about sexism, and I am quite brutal and if you're easily offended it might be best to walk away now. If not;A sweeping generalization of what I've come across while reading on the internet would be that slash (boyxboy) stories have a few stereotypical traits: two overly camp males, some kind of issue the whole thing revolved around, a lack of acceptance and one...
June 13th, 2013 at 12:37pm

Updates

So today (April 5th) is my birthday and my parents gathered together some money to get me a computer with Windows 8 that runs very fast.Now this is relevant to my writing because when I'm contemplating writing something I open up a word document and on my previous computer it could potentially take up to 20 minutes for word to open, and roughly a ten second lag every two average sized sentences....
April 5th, 2013 at 02:56pm

Writer/ writing recc list

I've noticed a lot of people recommending stories and such and I've been really inactive this last year, so I thought writing a short entry on my favourite writers and pieces would be quite nice.I'll be adding more later on, as I'm meant to be revising for an exam tomorrow.Writers Boyking -Basically the man that inspired me to write as I do. A year ago I fell in love 'Insomniac' and 'It's Worse...
February 27th, 2013 at 09:40pm

Plotless co-write! Need authors ^-^

So I have an idea for an story about mental illnesses that requires multiple authors - I'm talking possibly 5, depending on how many people are interested.The story would be set in a psychiatric ward, and based around the introduction of a camera room; basically an empty room, a former cupboard or such, which has only a chair and a camera. The point of this room would be for patients to talk about...
February 27th, 2013 at 05:52pm

Writer's block, help?

So, uh, yeah. I have pretty severe writers block right now which may or may not co-inside with a few of the things I'm about to talk about. If you want to get to point of this post just scroll to the bottom, the rest is basically me complaining, but I'd really appreciate some tips so.(trigger warnings)Exams are starting up real right now, which is stressing me out so much. Mainly because I...
February 9th, 2013 at 09:01pm

I don't feel real

Literally had the worst day; I chain smoked two packets of cigarettes and now I can't talk properly and coffee feels like lava but I'm drinking it anyway. Those two packets were meant for over Christmas while my ex's dealer was in Cornwall and now I have to talk to this creepy guy to get less than ten cigarettes for 60p each which is barely even worth it.So this girl I've liked for ages got with...
December 19th, 2012 at 08:43pm

My not 'ideal lifestyle'

So, there is this guy named Chris. When he came to me for advice on dieting I gave it to him freely because he was looking to lose weight healthily and was willing to exercise and cut out sweets. I was fine with that and I helped him plan meals and stopped him from trying unhealthy dieting methods etc. and I think he lost quite a few pounds.Recently, however, he's noticed my own dieting. In the...
October 22nd, 2012 at 12:06am

Gay Pride 2012

By far the best gay pride I've been to yet - I'm guessing it's down to the alcohol though aha.I did have an amazing time, though c: I spotted this really beautiful girl when I was in one of the stalls buying a 'I like boys and girls' t-shirt and omfg me and my friend just stopped in the middle of handing over money to stare. Aha, I kept seeing her as well about the place and after I'd had some...
September 2nd, 2012 at 05:37pm

I am stupid

Warning: lots of muted swearingSo if this goes on for another week I'm declaring myself single. I don't have much self of worth, but I have enough to realise when something is uncalled for and unfair. He's ignored me for two weeks tomorrow, I don't even care how 'sad' it is that I've kept track, that is a real f***ing stupid thing to do.He told me I was the first person he's ever missed while in a...
August 14th, 2012 at 11:18pm

Back in England soon // bands

Well my flight back to England is in two hours and I'm leaving in twenty minutes for the airport (: Eight hour flight though.Looking forward to going home, haven't enjoyed the heat at all. The sunrises looked nice though and there was this cat near the Asian restaurant which was very pretty. I named him Balthazar and then begged my parents to let me have a snake.If I had a snake, I would call him...
August 8th, 2012 at 11:21pm

Hotel lobby feelings

I'm on a low again.Barbados is lovely but it's full of skinny girls and boys that look like boys I wanted to be born as. There are happy people and couples and I can't stand any of that. I've always hated couples because I have an inability to form a strong emotional attachment to anyone. I can't tell anyone, either, because then they'll just find out how much a freak I am. I can't stand myself.I...
August 7th, 2012 at 02:09am

Piercing issues and I need things to read.

Off to Barbados on Monday, may not be able to post.New piercing! (: He's a dragon called BarryAlas, I have some issues with earrings.They're the standard ones, and after getting them done I didn't remove them for more than the recommend time. I started removing them regularly and they became infected. I treated it and it went away, but after four weeks it was back again. Eventually it was gone for...
July 29th, 2012 at 09:10pm

Lip sealer and life

Went to the gym today, an hour of cardiovascular on a treadmill while watching some awful detective program, and then some Jeremy Kyle. I could feel my brain rotting but the channel changer on my machine was broken and it was just horrible. Burned off 260 calories though, which is pretty alright.Afterwards I went into town and got some new lip liner and lipstick;It looks alright, and hopefully...
July 26th, 2012 at 10:00pm

A tangent like no other

I find myself incredibly lonely and without friendship on this site.Ah; but maybe I am both these things, even when not on a site.I have in recent months become even more withdrawn than I had thought possible after experiencing the cold shoulder from an entire school a few years back. It seems that I have lost all desire to motivate myself in life, though I bear no other signs that the fellow...
July 20th, 2012 at 02:16am

Relationship help

I don't exactly have a great track run with relationships, but the one I'm in right now is pretty amazing. You guys don't need to know the details about how nice he is etc. but I'm just a little worried about something I've noticed.It's probably not anything serious, but I was too late to pick up on the same thing in my last relationship and I just need some kind of advice.Well, I'm on a pretty...
July 8th, 2012 at 06:26pm

co-writer?

I need a co writer that's going to stick. I've had one or two in the past that just ignore all my messages when they decide they're bored with the story. I'd appreciate it if you do decide to quit, to state so so I can replace you ;cI write eating disorders and slash(homosexual) stories - though I will do other areas, I'm best with mental disorders or anything that warps the mind, as my writing...
April 24th, 2012 at 07:32pm

Recommend me // a small favour please help

Hey so first off I was wandering if anyone could take this picture (http://eklesia.tumblr.com/post/1532627367) upload it to tinypic/photobucket and resize it so it's width is 480? Then send me the 'direct link'My computer refuses to let me on those sites and i need it for a layout -Please!):By tonight would be good, but as long as someone is nice enough to do it.Also, I haven't been reading on...
February 29th, 2012 at 08:34pm

self harm questions | free slash reads

Hi so no one answered these last time which caused me to depair but I'm hoping for more people this time?1. is/was there a itch/hum constantly under your skin?2. Is/was this relieved when you cut/other means of self harm?3. Does/did this itch give you a desire to rip open your skin?4. Do/did you do it for the pain or the blood - which one satisfies/satisfied your emotions?5. Does/did the extent of...
November 4th, 2011 at 10:58pm

Sexual identity crisis

Right so, I've been out as bisexual for four years now, and I've never in the history of my life been in a relationship.That's the basics.But now I'm starting to realise I don't see people in the same way. A lot of my friends are 'out' as bisexual also, and they make comments about who they find attractive etc. And I've come to realise they view everything in a sexual and relationship sort if way....
October 22nd, 2011 at 12:30am