am I pathetic?

Please, give me an honest answer. Usually critical honesty really isn't my thing, but I may need it this time.There's this guy (who I thought I liked). We used to hook up through the winter time, but it ended simply because we never contacted each other anymore. He randomly started texting me this summer, but only at late times during the night, making it quite obvious that it was a booty call....
July 14th, 2008 at 04:22am

infected piercing.

So last Friday, when i finally got my license, i went out and got my rook pierced to celebrate having a form of id saying that i was eighteen. I was totally fine until monday when i got my conch pierced. My ear started to throb and it is just so painful. i don't understand what happened because i clean it properly everyday! i did it wet because I work as a lifeguard for my job. however, i asked...
June 28th, 2008 at 05:12am

hey guys!

I have created another story. I was downloading some techno/rave/trance/psychedelic/ music and it gave me an inspiration to write about one of my favorite topics; the club scene. If any of you have seen the movie, Party Monster, then you will notice some similarities between the film and my story. I'm not sure what else to say about it, but I would you guys to read it and comment it if you would...
June 27th, 2008 at 04:18am

I HATE to admit this...

Although, many of you see me as some cold a** b***h, I actually do have feelings. I hate feelings; especially the feeling of longing. Longing for something or in this case; someone is my least favorite feeling. There was this guy who I used to hook up with frequently. Before you begin to call me a slut; I actually did like him, he just didn't like me. He was too hurt by his ex-girlfriend to start...
June 24th, 2008 at 09:43pm

updates!

So; this week has been EVENTFUL!Friday: Guess what? I FINALLY RECEIVED MY DRIVERS LICENSE!! Yes, I'm eighteen and a half years old, but I honestly don't give if you think it's ridiculous. I've ridiculed for it for the past two and half years, it's been the one thing that everyone has made fun of me for. Anyways, I finally passed the road test. I never thought it would happen. I wanted to hug they...
June 23rd, 2008 at 06:24am

are you serious?

so here's a story for you:Guy sort of knows girls. Acquaintances. See each other around at parties and such. One particular night; girl is pining over boyfriend who is cheating on her with other girls and guys. Both boy and girl are pretty drunk. Girl goes outside. Guy follows. Need I say more? Girl and Guy do not speak for two months. At a party, girl drunkenly calls guy saying she wanted to see...
June 16th, 2008 at 06:57am

drugs.

So, everyone tells people that drugs are bad. If you do drugs, you will die. If you do drugs, you'll lose all intelligence you once had. If you do drugs you'll ruin your life. This statement makes me a bit angry. I feel as though there are two different types of drug users. Addicts and Experimentalists. An addict is someone who needs a certain drug to get by on every day to day thing or else the...
June 14th, 2008 at 07:33am

last entry

as a high schooler!!! Yes, this means that I graduate tommarrow! I can't even believe it! For so long I though that I wasn't going to make it. I kept failing classes here and there, and then I owed a ton of money to library. I just got my cap and gown today. Looking at makes me think, wow-this really is happening. I'm actually leaving Souhegan. I'll never have to see any of those people again,...
June 13th, 2008 at 06:13am

Crime and Punishment

Sometimes I feel as though this novel is reality. Sad thought, I know. However, how many of you can ever say you acted in a Raskolnikov like way? How many of you have ever thought that you were superior to another inferior being? Maybe you haven't, or maybe nobody would admit it. It's weird to think about. I see people EVERY day that act as though they are superior to another, taking advantage of...
June 12th, 2008 at 07:30am

SUCH A GOOD DAY!!

IT WAS MY LAST DAY OF HIGH SCHOOL EVER!! I GRADUATE ON FRIDAY!!!To celebrate, my advisory went down to my advisor's house in the country. It's so pretty there. Also, my advisor is the most inspirational man i've ever met in my life! Anyways, when we got there it was boiling hot so we went to the lake and swam for awhile, then went back to his hosue and cooked a BBQ. Everyone sat down and talked...
June 11th, 2008 at 06:13am

People on here

Are just SO hardcore RUDE! I'm not saying everyone, because some people are really sweet, but others, WOW!Like, I'm not a huge fan of everyone I go to school with, but I've never in my life encountered someone as rude as I have on this thing. Thank god I actually have a life and don't spend it all on my computer trying to bring others down, flinging insults left and right...I'll leave you with...
June 11th, 2008 at 05:49am

you know what i hate?

LOVE. Yup, that's right...I HATE LOVE. I hate watching couples mackin' it the hallways. I hate watching couples hold hands in some sort of love trance, look up at each other with the disgusting love-struck look in their eyes and kiss. UGH, seriously...it's people like those that make my day soooo much harder than it needs to be. Is it necessary to rub in others faces that 'oh, hey-you can't find...
June 10th, 2008 at 09:13pm

New Story

So, I'm writing a story for myself and decided to put it on mibba to get some feedback. It has been awhile since I have written creatively, so kind suggestions would be nice! Oh, it is NOT about My Chemical Romance, or any other pop/punk band, sorry to disappoint you. My characters are completely original; based off of real people. Actually, this story is a real story, used with fake names. It's...
June 6th, 2008 at 05:30am

acid.

Um, I'm not sure how to go about addressing this and I'm sure I will get loads of hate mail for my decisions, but I have to put it out there. I've had an offer to do acid. One of my best friends has done it a couple times and nothing terrible has happened to him. Anyways, I don't know if it'll be too intense for me... the only drugs other than weed I have done is shrooms and opium. Also, until...
May 24th, 2008 at 08:17am

extremely private.

So, as I said this was an extremely private journal; I'm not saying this to get attention or to brag or anything. It's something that's been on my mind that I don't really feel like sharing with people I actually know.So, I was on this one medication called lexapro. It made me wicked hungry to the point that someone could honestly mistake me for a compulsive over-eater. So I went to my...
May 21st, 2008 at 05:23am

I NEED HELP!

No, this is not a suicide threat- I just need help doing something. This may a really really stupid question, but I'm not very computer savvy...at all.So, how do you change your profile picture? Not the picture that comes up when you click on your profile (the big one). I'm talking about the picture that shows up when you post on something. Ah, I've tried everything and I can't seem to figure it...
May 20th, 2008 at 09:28pm

anger 101

I'm so SICK of everyone at my school. Everyone, EVERYONE makes me SO angry! I legit actually like and care about TWO people, yep that's it-two! In the whole school! I'm not saying I'm anti-social, because I'm not. I have a ton of friends,and I'm always, ALWAYS with friends, but seriously...SOUHEGAN SUCKS. That's all there is to it. Everyone is such a cocky piece of crap! There is no genuine...
May 19th, 2008 at 11:57pm

here's to everyone who thinks they are...unique.

My advisor, Paul, who is most likely the most influential man in my entire life. Sorry, celebrities don't inspire me; they are too distant. Anyways, one of many great quotes he has told my advisory is "You're unique...just like everybody else." I loved this quote, so much! It is the most profound thing I've ever heard. I've always wanted to say something like this, but could not gather my words to...
May 16th, 2008 at 04:37am

Writing Therapy.

I'm doing it for my senior project. I did a ton of research on it, and my essential question is "How is writing therapeutic to the human mind." Since this is pretty much a writing site, I was wondering if you people would be so kind and tell me how writing has effected your life, and how you may have even used it as a therapy. Writing therapy is a very postive way to deal with negative emotions,...
May 15th, 2008 at 03:16am

Does ANYONE have the same music taste as me?

It feels as though, NO ONE ON THIS SITE SHARES THE SAME MUSIC TASTE AS ME, and it's frustrating. I mean I used to like MCR and all that, but after I met someone very special to me (who does not feel the same way about me) I started listing to different music, and actually REALLY liked it. I'm not saying anything bad about MCR or The Used or any of those bands (they are truly amazing) ....but may I...
May 14th, 2008 at 04:37am