Life sucks.

I've self diagnosed myself with some sort of anxiety disorder. I get so nervous when I'm forced to go out into public. It's gotten quite bad over the past few months. I don't know why. It's really terrible.I don't know why I've taken to writing this into a journal either. It's not like this would help me in my situation at all. I guess, I'll take this opportunity to complain about all the awful...
April 25th, 2012 at 08:10am

I Need Some Help...

It would mean the world to me if some of you guys could help me out with some writer's block that i'm having. I have a discussion due tonight & I simply can't think of anything to write for my homework. My mind is completely blank & I really need to do this because frankly, my grades are horrible.Anyway, if any of you kind souls are willing to give me a tad bit of input it would be...
April 5th, 2012 at 04:35am

Social anxiety really ruins everything

I think I need to be drunk all the time in order to maintain friendships.My social skills really suck. I hate the fact that I get extremely nervous every time I have to go somewhere alone, which is a lot lately. This will most likely be my downfall. Why can't I just be normal for once & get over this thing.I require tons of personal time but, there are those rare times when I actually want to...
March 31st, 2012 at 10:59am

Something's different...

I've just had a huge realization. This seems to be happening a lot as of late. Last semester & like the first week of this semester, I used to go home A LOT. I literally live like an hour and a half away. My house isn't anything spectacular, its just home. It's actually rather boring since my parents are like prison guards. Anyway, I used to always want to go home...idk why homesick mostly I...
February 16th, 2012 at 03:57am

I'm a whole different person...

Last night was definitely weird. I woke up on the floor of my bedroom with my friend Manuel passed out on my bed. My mouth has this horrible vodka & cigarettes taste. (I don't even smoke either)I vaguely remember last night's adventures, it was fun at the time but, I have concluded that I am a whole different person while inebriated. hahaaI made out with my friend Danielle's neighbor, Twain....
February 5th, 2012 at 12:12am

Tonight is just one of "those" nights...

I feel like crap. I am sitting in my dorm, listening to depressing mood, letting myself fall into this melancholy mood. I do not know what is happening. I feel like doing absolutely nothing & everything at the same time.Can I just get drunk?Then things would just be great. It would be even better if I could get drunk with Keanan but, that's beside the point right now.Ugh, I'm just hating life...
November 10th, 2011 at 05:40am

HELP!

I am currently trying to write my valedictorian speech for graduation. I have no idea what I'm supposed to write about. I've tried google, looking at sample speeches, etc.This is what I have so far:"Good evening ladies and gentlemen, distinguished faculty, administrators, friends, family, and of course the graduating class of 2011. Before I start with the inspiring and utterly amazing speech I...
May 23rd, 2011 at 02:41am

Thoughts & Wishes.

Do you ever just feel like crying?When you get that lump in your throat and everything just feel hopeless, like there's nothing that could ever happen that will take away this pain and sadness.That's exactly how I feel right now. I hate the fact that I live in a home where everyone hates each other. Where everyone's always yelling, screaming or crying. Where your mom tells you she wishes you...
April 25th, 2011 at 01:41am

Oh Stephen...

I thought this was interesting...I wonder if Stephen knows about Mibba yet? If he did find out about MIbba what do you think he would do?Personally, I don't think he would give it a second thought. He'd probably be just a little creeped out. I think I've read a story on here about someone from a band finding out about Mibba before. It wasn't very good, but after seeing that on Stephen's formspring...
March 31st, 2011 at 06:40am

I can't breathe.

I am incredibly bored. I have not left my room in two days. Being friend-less really sucks. I think I may be on the verge of depression. It may just be the depressing music that I am listening to though. I've also been making tons of layouts. I don't think they are "good" though. I felt like I didn't even put any effort into them. I wanted them to look a certain way but they just weren't coming...
March 26th, 2011 at 08:03pm