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I shrugged. I read that comment when you left it originally but I've just been meh. I'm moving on with my life, though. It's not worth it. I'm hurt still and I miss her because I mean, it was two years and I loved her with everything in me, but this is what she wanted so this is what she's getting. She made this choice and I'm just done with her and the rest that came with her. I'm moving on with my life. But thank you. For offering to be there for me. I have a good support system right now and others offering so thank you.

Hahaha...oops. You commented two weeks ago. That was a 'my bad.' I was busy that day and then forgot completely to reply. But hah, I knew I'd be right. ♡

I imagine you just have a short attention span. I used to go off and on this site often before I started writing more. I would say making friends also helped, but that doesn't seem to help you.

We are now. We had started when you commented, but it's been better since on that note. Just going through other things that we have to get through together. But all in all, everything is alright now.

My days? Hah...haha...hahaha, nope. Don't even get me started. I didn't have a break, though, because I'm home-schooled. And I haven't been all that concerned with classes right now. I want to take some creative writing classes soon or take part of a writing group. Something like it. How about you, though? For all three of those questions.

Song of the month, as in January? Lost It All by Black Veil Brides
Song of the week, right now? Five Seconds by Twin Shadow

Your song of the month in January and this week's song?

I don't think I like being an open book. I've been hurt before because I let myself be read too easily. I'm not sure, honestly. But no, you aren't the first to tell me this. But haha, I can promise you that I won't think you're a creeper in the least.

Uh huh, I am. I think we talked about it once or maybe I'm thinking of someone else because I've talked to a lot of people in the span of almost three years here on Mibba and some, I talked to longer than others and then there's some that I only talked to for a little bit before that was that so I can never remember. But anyway, yes. I'm home-schooled. After fifth grade, I was pulled out of school. And well, it depends on how you are. For me, I like it but my dad is constantly saying that I have social anxiety now because I've been isolated for six years. I think he's actually worried about it because I can't "throw" myself out there and make friends. I don't know how to be around people anymore. I also watch too many crime shows like Criminal Minds and whatnot, so you can imagine how that is when you're overly paranoid.
As I said, I entered ones that were never followed through so no one won. It annoyed me a bit. And oh jeez, don't feel too bad about your grammar. My grammar is absolutely terrible still and I'm still trying to get a grasp on it. I've gotten better since I joined Mibba, but I still haven't learned. I have learned, however, that I tend to...ahem, overuse commas.

I always smile when someone says that because we've been through hell and back this year. I honestly thought we were going to break up for good earlier this summer and before that, a few months earlier around May. It just hasn't been the best year for us.
Uh, it has happened before. This summer, when our issues came into the picture. About the same time. Her mom took all her shit but she got around it by working for her uncle so she had the laptop and then slowly, but surely, her mom stopped caring and she got her shit back. It happened in July and in September, when she started school, it eased. This is different though. She swore she wasn't going to talk to me anymore when her mom found out we were still talking this summer and some shit went down and she found out she was still talking to me. All hell broke loose, then. But her mother is unpredictable. It could be next week, it could be next month. It's been over a month now and nothing's changed so I'm not holding my breath for this to be over any time soon.

I'm not sure. I don't want to be alone, I want to be left alone and I imagine it's two different things. But I live in the middle of nowhere so my town's population isn't high at all really. We're so spread out that I have no idea. I generally just hate where I live, like state and as horrible as it sounds, country. I feel like I don't belong here. I don't know anyone around here, at all. I sometimes run into people that I used to go to school with but I've changed so much that they don't really recognize me, I don't think. I saw in the town's paper a few months back that some girl I went to school with was crowned prom queen and just shrugged. And no, I won't. Really, I have no desire for the college life. The only reason I won't skip it like I want is because in this world, you don't get very far without education, which is pretty stupid. I'll do it "just in case" and to satisfy my parents.
Ah, I see. I thought it might have been something I can help you with but I'm not grasping what you mean. I make my blog layouts but whatever you're describing is confusing me so I'm not of much help.

...I honestly made this face. I don't have either of those. I have the original XBOX and PS2. I would love to have an XBOX 360 but we just haven't gotten around to it. I feel like I'm so boring compared to you because really, I haven't played many video games at all lately. That feels totally weird to say because I was like video game crazy. Now notta. I feel like I'm cutting myself back a little on them, as well, to focus on my writing because they have this tendency to make me fall way behind. Kind of like what YouTube is doing to me when I should be working on the next chapter for The Sin City Movement. (Which, I actually remember you reading and commenting on that. You were so fucking in love with Eden, rofl.)

Hm, I've been listening to Lose Your Soul by Dead Man's Bones a lot lately. And Save Him by Justin Nozuka. I have an entire playlist on Spotify that I've been listening to a lot, but those two songs especially for whatever reason. What about you? And book? Oh, please don't disown me, but I haven't read any new books lately. I haven't had the time what with the holidays. Have any suggestions for me? And no, not really. Other than more morbid stories, nothing new with me, hah. Anything new and exciting for you?

I laughed. I missed it, too. I like having long conversations with people.

Oddly enough, you aren't the first person to tell me that and I find it absolutely peculiar, but it did make sense and I didn't find it weird in the least. As well as being told I'm puzzling, I've also been told that no matter how long or how much someone lingers, they aren't ever going to figure out what it is about me. (Said person that told me this also later said that I'm alluring, hah.) I find it to be a...compliment, in a way.

Ooh, winter break. See, I don't have a winter break considering I've been at home for six years now. But that's good! I can't wait to read what you get out. I entered a couple contests before but I had the unfortunate luck of entering the ones that never followed through so I stopped doing that. Considered it, looked, but never found anything that jumped out and seduced me with lovely promises. I imagine contests purring, "You want to enter me." (Because that didn't sound dirty at all.)

We are, we are. Two years next month.
Uh, I talked to her today but only for about two hours and it's been like this for over a month now. I talk to her maybe once or twice a week if I'm lucky and I hate it. I literally loathe it. I still feel like I'm at a loss of what to do with myself because she's barely in my every day life right now. I need the bullshit to be over.

Ah, loneliness. I get that. I have successfully isolated myself from society for six years now. I barely know how to act around people in public anymore, hence why it's easier to talk on the internet. I believe I'm alone, as well, by choosing. Mainly because I hate people and the people that live around me make me want to either commit suicide or go postal. I'm better off alone. It's so bad that I'm considering taking online college courses rather than going to the actual school. And hm, I know how that feels, too. No one actually believes me when I say I'm a seventeen year old girl. I stopped trying. What site are you doing your blog on? Tumblr, Blogspot, etc.

As of lately, I haven't been playing any games but for awhile, I was playing WoW again since it's my "fall back" video game when I have nothing else to play. That quickly bored me so notta right now. I play the occasional video game on the Playstation like Champions of Norrath and Dark Angel. I miss my xbox the most right now because ugh, Gauntlet. Also, I'm going back to Rift soon. adoreadoreadore. What do you play, though?

Oh well, hi there. I thought you forgot about my entire existence, it's just been that long.

Are you sure about that, darlin'? You said that last time~ ;D

But I'm good. Well, as good as I can be. I'm having some issues with my girlfriend due to her overly controlling mom that believes I'm Satan and have corrupted her daughter. I'm actually a bit worried that we won't be able to talk on our anniversary next month. But meh, generally, I'm okay. How are you? <3

Glad you like the "Prompt" idea! If you like I can add you to the list as an author!

Small writings and such are the fun things in writing that need to be seen! They're random, fun, but also close to our hearts.

Good luck to you and your writing! :D

haha, n'aww. you're absolutely welcome! :) the link i sent you should make things easy to understand; it's supposed to be a comedic infographic. so yeah, i hope it helps! it's great that you're so open to criticism and eager to improve - that's really respectable. :3 again, you're more than welcome. :D

Awh, you're so sweet. Lately I've mainly just been trying to finish up You Win and I've also been planning this other story about a summer fling and death and yeah, it's kind of weird but I like it. I made a summary page and a layout for it because I like doing that stuff. Here's the link if you're curious:

http://www.mibba.com/Stories/Read/466339/Summer/

I'm not sure if you'll be able to see it though.

Do you have anything special that you're writing or planning?

Haha thanks! I'm glad you enjoy my gif posts
Do you mind my asking what story you saw those posts in?

Thank you for the poem comment

Oh my God, you are seriously the best. WHERE DID YOU COME FROM? JESUS ASKDLFJHASKLDJFHASDF.

I actually made a grammar help journal/blog thing a while ago that you can take a look at. Also, there are tons of things on the internet to help you with grammar. TONS. Here's the link to my journal:

http://www.mibba.com/Blogs/Read/279363/grammar-lessons-with-eight-letters-late/

That's just really minimal stuff, there's so much more out there as far as rules and exceptions and such.

Also, I just saw this quote on tumblr and thought it was really inspirational, and it basically targets exactly what you were saying:

"Nobody tells this to people who are beginners, I wish someone told me. All of us who do creative work, we get into it because we have good taste. But there is this gap. For the first couple years you make stuff, it’s just not that good. It’s trying to be good, it has potential, but it’s not. But your taste, the thing that got you into the game, is still killer. And your taste is why your work disappoints you. A lot of people never get past this phase, they quit. Most people I know who do interesting, creative work went through years of this. We know our work doesn’t have this special thing that we want it to have. We all go through this. And if you are just starting out or you are still in this phase, you gotta know its normal and the most important thing you can do is do a lot of work. Put yourself on a deadline so that every week you will finish one story. It is only by going through a volume of work that you will close that gap, and your work will be as good as your ambitions. And I took longer to figure out how to do this than anyone I’ve ever met. It’s gonna take awhile. It’s normal to take awhile. You’ve just gotta fight your way through."

It's sort of long, but I think it totally hits the nail on the head. Like, as long as you can envision what you want to be, you can be it. Because just to envision greatness is something that not everyone is capable of, because they don't even know what greatness is. I think.

hey thanks for your comment on my blog! haha. it is a great song!

Ahhhhhhhhh that's so cute akshdfkajsdf
Thank you so much! It's not creepy or weird at all. That was so wonderful to read! I'm pretty anal about grammar, especially in my writing. I usually just look at how it's done in books, because if they're published then they must be doing it right. And if you need any help with it, I would be more than willing! And you are so sweet!

Oh! You! Hi. I miss you, too. <3
I'm on Mibba a lot more now that it's summer break!

How are you, lovely?

Hey, beautiful. Sorry for the late reply. Haven't had the right amount of time to get online and reply to comments.

I'm good. Tired constantly from work and studying, but good nonetheless. What about you? And things are pretty good, too. I just hit my one year anniversary with my girlfriend just yesterday, January 24th. So things are good. Anything new and exciting with you?

Sorry for the totally late reply but my favourite song is Properties of Friction by A Lot Like Birds cause the lyrics are strong and really relatable (:

just a reminder, don't forget your entry for the one-shot contest!(:
if you want to be taken out, just comment me back or on the thread.

Thank you.
I'm Paul, nice meeting you.

Thats freakin awesome! I love them too!

Thanks!
Uhh, I'm really not but I believe it's you who should judge that