So its been a while... me and karrissa have broken up and she moved on with her life... well i thot it would have been easier then this, but everything i do everytime i turn around i still think of her. i cant get over her. she was the love of my life...nothing ever feels so different to me...i miss her. she was everything to me. she meant the world to me. she was the greatest girlfriend anyone...

So today was good. I spend all day thinking about her and that I missed her and wanted to be with her. But i feel guilty. I feel like I'm smothering her and I don't want to mess this up again. But its just I love her so much and with all my heart. I just want to show her that I love her and that I'm willing to do anything for her. I want to always be honest with her and never lie. I want to always...

I woke up, and i was like fuck this shit. I skipped school. Me and Blaine rode around all damn day. Went to McDonalds and ate with him and then I was like woah its almost time for school to end so I ask Blaine to take me to school so i was there for like 15 minutes. But the only reason I even wanted to go back was to see her <3. I love her with all my heart and more. After school tutoring, ugh,...

I woke up, and i was happy that it was the end of the week, but I didn't like it because that was the day I lost her. During school My friend Justin asked me if I wanted to go with him to a party, I said yes because I just needed to get out of the house instead of crying myself to sleep even more. So He comes and picks me up and we go back to his house and he took a shower and got ready, then we...

I woke up siming. But that was short lived when i realized that it was just a dream. I went to school and got jumped (long story). I thought about her more today. This time it was about if she had moved on. So i cried. In gym, me and two of my friends did parkor. Then I was talking to my friend Nick about her and it made me even more sad... I just wish everything would go back to the way it was...

Today was just another day, the whole day i thought about her. I tried not to so I could forcuse on school long enough, but I just couldn't. I was so very much ready to spend the rest of my life with her, but i guess that can't happen now. I just miss her so much, I still love her with all my heart. No matter what happens to me, I'll still always love her. So I spend half my day crying in secret....

Today was okay i guess. I thought about her all day today. I can't help but miss her. She was everything that was anything my world. :/. School was boring at least I have good friends that are trying to help me through this. I love them all and thank them everyday for putting up with me and my shit. I have to many problems, but I hope one day they will all go away again. All the love and support I...