Long Time No See

Wow...it's been a while.About 8 months since my last blog...huh.I'm just having one of those days where I just want to sleep.Let's see...some updates on my life, well:1. I lost my best friend of 5 years. She didn't die or anything but I fucked up and now...now it's all over...now we're just...strangers again.2. I have a boyfriend...yeah shocking right? A boyfriend wow such a great life update....
August 30th, 2015 at 10:41pm

Well... This Is Fun... Not.

So my "best friend" is skyping someone right now. I don't know who and nor do I really want to. I'm spending the night for the second time in a row and I'm just bored now and ready to go home. Happens every time I spend two nights at someone's house. You just run out of shit to do.Anyway, while she is busy talking to someone I'm preoccupying myself with looking at 5SOS, One Direction, Harry...
December 29th, 2014 at 05:44am

I've Heard It All Before

I've heard it.The whispers.The lies and deceit.I've heard the compassion. The sympathy. The pathetic pity that is ensued upon me."It gets better.""You won't alway feel this way."Well, I hate to break it to you, but I fucking know that.AND HEY!MAYbe I will always feel this way. You can't know.You don't know.If you did, then hell yeah, I'd believe you. I'd put faith on that but guess what?You don't...
September 29th, 2014 at 05:48am

I Hate That I Know

I hate that I know...What someone is going to say before they say it.I hate that I know...Who died before someone tells me.I hate that I know...How it feels to hate someone and be hated back.I wish it would all end. THIS world. Is irrelevant now.It KILLS me.KILLS ME.I feel like I'm slowly breaking and all the while trying to hold all my pieces together with one hand while I search for the super...
September 29th, 2014 at 05:34am

One Direction in St. Louis Tomorrow

I'm going.Then I'm going to see 5SOS in a year...this all happened in one day.Particularly yesterday. I was being my normal awkward self and my best friend, Xavier came up to me and told me he was going to a see 5SOS in August of next year and he wants me to go. He was like, I have one extra ticket and you're coming with me.I literally responded with, "Are you shitting me?"He answered with, "No,...
August 27th, 2014 at 04:21am

I'm Depressed

I'm not sure why...I feel like no one understands me but I supposed that's how most people feel while they're depressed.I tried sharing my opinion and it backfired...Life is such a privilege and I understand that.I'm contemplating starting to cut again.Honestly though, I only ever think about it, I'm too chicken to do it because my mom would beat my ass if I did actually go through with it.I just...
August 17th, 2014 at 07:50pm

I Hate Kissing || Pet Peeves

Wow.I can't believe I said that, I mean, I'm a girl. Shouldn't I love kissing?I just, I hate saliva and the whole idea of getting their tongue touching mine is like a major turn-off for me. I'm not sure why, that's just how I feel.The thing is, I really wish I DID like kissing because everyone else does, so why don't I, right?People keep telling me that I just have to wait for the "right person"...
July 20th, 2014 at 04:34am

I Want to Become Famous

Who doesn't want to become famous though right?The thing is, I don't know what I want to be famous for, you know?Like, singing? Sure, I'm alright at that but I'm no Madonna, Katy Perry, or One Direction...Yeah those are like 3 different types of music geez...I'm also not 5 totally hot British guys...Anyway, I don't have money. My camera is crappy so I don't post many videos on YouTube or...
July 18th, 2014 at 05:45am

My Mom Is Struggling...Sigh

I'm currently sitting on the couch with her.She's pissed at my dad...again. He said something about Eminem earlier. Now, she's not a diehard fan of him or anything but, you know, we own the movie 8 Mile which is a semi-autobiography about his life...Anyway, my dad said Eminem was never poor and he lived in the fucking suburbs. Now, I highly doubted that, but my mom is sitting here on her iPad...
July 5th, 2014 at 01:39am

Bonnie & Clyde

"You know what I've been thinking Clyde?""I ain't no mind reader..."They are legends.I am in love with their story.Even if they are the bad guys. It makes me sad. They started out...I don't know, simple? I'm not sure that's the right word. Over time though, they got worse, more crazy.The line that stuck while watching the movie, the one from 2013, was close to the end when Bonnie was on drugs for...
July 1st, 2014 at 06:51am

Would Anyone Want to Make Me a Story Layout?

Ok so I'm writing a new story that I thought of while scrolling through tumblr on the toilet.I'm going to call it The Fortune and it will be a Harry Styles fanfiction. Honestly, I'm also going to put it on Wattpad but here too. So I need a layout but I want it to be perfect and that isn't really something I'm good at... Like at all.To give ya an overview of what it's about, basically Harry goes to...
June 29th, 2014 at 05:31am

Lying Is the Most Fun a Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes Off || My Stupid Problems

"Is it still me that makes you sweat?Am I who you think about in bed?"Problem #1:There is this guy on kik who can be sweet at times. He tells me I'm beautiful and that I'm special. He makes me feel good about myself. Then, in the same sentence he'll say: "You are so beautiful :) My d*ck needs massaged so baddd ;)" And I'm just like, wait what? I mean he's hot and I'm a single 16 year old girl!...
June 28th, 2014 at 09:20pm

Carter Reynolds

He is amazing.That's really all that needs to be said and people who are fans get it. They understand that he is just THAT good. At everything. Being funny...being beautiful...just everything.For me there is only one problem.I'm obsessed.Legit.It's getting worse and worse. Like how I was when I found out about One Direction. I flipped out and watched ALL of their videos and video diaries and...
June 28th, 2014 at 06:02am

I Almost Hit the Hottest Guy

I was driving down a back road toward the main road and I stopped and had to chose left or right. I happened to choose right just for the hell of it.I stop at a stop sign and in order to get back to main street I had to turn right again. I was driving down and sped up a little then I saw people walking across the street ahead. I slowed down and looked closer then realized I recognized them. It was...
May 16th, 2014 at 01:25am

Anybody Want to Solve a 3rd Grade Math Problem?

I'm grading my brother's homework...It says:Robert buys 7 bags of marbles. He gives the clerk $20 and gets $6 back. How much does one bag of marbles cost?Like I don't know if this is a simple problem and I'm just overthinking it? IDK...So um yeah...He put 20-6=14. And then, 14/7=7. Then he said the answer was $7.00...it just doesn't seem right...Like, 7x7=49 so the answer just seems illogical but...
April 24th, 2014 at 11:55pm

A World Without Film

So I'm writing an essay and I need a little help...Where do you think the world would be without film?I am trying to think of some ideas but they're all kinda bad.I mean, we wouldn't have YouTube right? So that's something because all that really is is just videos and without fucking film there wouldn't be videos...Anyway, I am mostly just trying to get over 100 words otherwise I can't post this...
April 22nd, 2014 at 11:59pm

Memory Lane

So I was being my usual creepy stalker self and was scrolling through Facebook. I came across this girl who I used to know in like 6th grade before I moved to another town.So I clicked on her and started basically stalking her Facebook and looking at her pics and stuff. I was all like, "Oh, wow she turned out to be so pretty!" Even though it's only been like 4 years. It's still a while. So then I...
April 19th, 2014 at 07:08am

You and I Music Video

I just...Can't...Fucking...Breathe...Have you ever watched a One Direction video and at random moments when something they do catches your attention, you just inhale a breath so deeply you feel like your lungs are going to concave and fold into themselves? Yeah me too!!They're just getting so old...but in a good way. They've grown up! They make money writing and singing music. They're a...
April 19th, 2014 at 05:14am

I Just Want to Breathe

Something shitty happens to me every single day.I mean, not that shitty things don't happen to everyone every day, it's just that for me, I feel like I can't go one day without wanting to feel like it's the end of the world...Gahh, but I suppose that is the wonderful thing I like to call, The Life of a Teenager.Now playing.Anyway, I just feel depressed or something. I'm tired and I feel very...
April 15th, 2014 at 03:53am

So Can I Complain?

FIRST.Lol.I'm not really that angry I just wanted that to be in all caps.Anyway, Point #1:My theme for my blog seems way too girly. For real though, and I go and look at more mature people's blogs and just think that wow I should change mine to something like that. So then, I go and try to find not the same exact layout that they have but somewhat similar, and I come up with some more girly shit...
April 13th, 2014 at 06:11am