Man I really need to start making that blog, I don't really find pleasure in logging into here and posting journals.That and seeing someone sign up with a highly offensive, often-triggering username really bothers me (obviously as I wrote "triggering")Anyway. Today I was driving home from work and I thought about my past relationship. Before Olivia, whom I will say I am in a very good relationship...

I've been thinking about making a blog to post in every once in a while. I figure since I always end up writing them here and I feel as if they very much don't quite belong in this, I'd be more relaxed with a separate site entirely.Even though I have so much time now, much more than I did a short while ago, I still don't go online all that much. There's the daily five minutes on Gaia, two seconds...

I have such a huge time gap between my classes, I find it utterly depressing.So here I am typing away, trying to pass time seeing as there is no place here where I can take a quick nap.Lately I have been surviving on three hours of sleep. While I've only seem to have dozed off once or twice, sitting in my bed at night listening to the creaks in my house and baking in the humidity on New York is...

As far as I am concerned, I am healthy. I've been considered 'healthy' for the past three, four years and I have seen my weight increase to a generally "healthy" and ideal amount. Have seen, is the essential phrase.What once was something stable, I think is starting to slip again. Before graduation I was at a good range, From what I remember it was 120-128, little more or less depending on the...

We all deserve a fair trial, right? I was raised by parents who told me to keep an open mind, and if one was incapable of that, to simply leave it alone. Thus, that open mind, that "skull head" if you will, grew into what I am today and will continue to progress.At the same time I feel that humanity is hypocritical, which is realistic and I am completely fine with that.However what is so god damn...

Keep in mind this is, however truthful, a rant.It seems I can only wish people would see that before they made the choice to hide their ugly personality with a "better-looking" person's face.Where does it make you feel better when you fake someone?When you realize you stole another person's identity to feed your weak ability to face the world?OR is it to gain recognition for being a complete...

I had been skyping with Olivia for the past three hours. It started when she called me around two to tell me how weird it felt to be home. It has been so weird to wake up without her next to me. Being back home feels so much different than that little slice of opportunity we had to live together just a while back. It was much more intimate, not in a sexual manner but in the sense that we were only...

After seeing another journal entry about hamsters, it made me think about my own.Sid gave me a hamster for my birthday when we were still seeing each other. He named her Pancake and, UGH she was the best little fatty you could ever imagine!I found some pictures on my old tumblr, hahaha!She was occasionally a huge bitch but I loved her so much haha.I had to put my little baby down a couple months...

equally as confusing better viewI have no idea what's going on in this picture LOLOLOL.But anyway, this was what I started yesterday. It's just an idea that I started to draw, it's nothing serious and.. as you can see, I don't take it seriously.What I did take seriously was the SPECKLING oh my god. I hate speckling because it's so tedious. It makes things look cool but.. speckling ahjhgdghgkhh.I...

Nothing serious, but definitely having more depth that those little doodles I used to do, haha. I haven't used my tablet as of late (except for those doodles which I love so much haha), but I found some great pens the other day and have just been going at that for now.It's therapeutic, despite, you know, my amateur talent lol.What depresses me is the lack of ceramics I have done. What was once the...

JUST KIDDIN'.This is significantly less serious than pretty much every entry I've posted.I'm a serious person, you see.I'm also seriously HILARIOUS. Right? No? You're lying. Don't lie. That's bad.Anyway, I haven't toyed with photobooth on my mac in months. Particularly because I hate taking pictures of myself, but mostly because I'd rather not.There are however, instances where I make a hefty...

I've figured that since graduation I've become less, much less, of an angsty little bratt-hole. I don't exactly see the point of blaming everyone and everything for your "difference", instead of just noticing your own indifference against the common norm as well as others.I'm not as judgmental and neither say that I "do not judge people" or "judge harshly". In fact I find myself asking people why...

I often spend nights with my girlfriend sitting next to each other or slung around furniture holding macbooks or journals or scraps of paper and the occasional napkin, reading to each other the things we both write during the day. We spend a good hour or two listening and smiling and making jokes about stupid things and just taking back the relaxation the day has drained from us. I feel as if when...

The flight home was absolutely terrifying. Both me and my parents and relatives thought the same thing at the same time and booked a flight asap. I don't pray, but with all my hopes I want my relatives to be safe.So besides that, I am home, with a cup of chrysanthemum tea (who knew, seriously! I've been drinking English tea for so long I had forgotten completely), with Olivia at my side pretty...

Why is it so important to people if one wears makeup or not? What is the big controversy?Is it, oh, you wear makeup so you must be super fake and artificial and you are super ugly without it and I am superior because I don't wear makeup at all? I hate that, I hate people who bitch about that. It's like... It's like telling someoneDon't wear those clothes that you like.Stop watching things that you...

One for the fact that I am facing pure boredom or the fact that I have completely filled out my moleskine journal with poems and doodles and recipes.I contemplate over this sudden desire to post some of these poems which are more than often very embarrassing, especially the background which had now become to form with them. I suppose I will tell you, it isn't something very private and should not...