It's not that, it's I don't want to surpass the age of 45. Personal choice, I don't like the idea of becoming old, after losing my nana, being old seems awful.
Oh my god. I'm in all applied classes, and everyone is so freaking stupid. Which is part of the reason I don't like going to school, I'm not a very social person. I hate society, it's just fucked. All the kids that are younger than us are ignorant brats. I hate kids. Everything just feels so hard. I can't not break down and cry at least once a week. I feel so alone. The only person who I want to be with is my friend savvas. He doesn't even feel the same way. I love him so much. He loves me too, but as a friend. I don't know what I want to do with my life, all I know is I want to do is spend the rest of my life with him, and that's what he wants too. We plan to eventually commit suicide together and we are older.
I know how you feel, I can't really tell my friends anything, they wouldn't really understand. They haven't lived a life like mine, they come from nicer parents than I do. My friends parents all have good jobs. That pay fairly well, and then there is my family.. it sucks being the "Fat" one in the group. :\ I've struggled with bullying all my life. It's tough. The only person I really talk to is my friend Savvas, and he is an online friend. He lives in NY.
It's been alright. I haven't been to school since last Wednesday, I'm supposed to go tomorrow, I don't know if I'll be able to, not really in a good enough emotional state for school. but I've missed so much school. I might go to student services and talk to them and see if they can work something else, like to see if I could do work at home from the teachers. Like, they could give me a weeks worth of work that I can do at home by myself without going to school, I don't know. I just need some time away from school, and I don't talk to my parents about this so they might be like "wtf?"
It is indeed a phone. It's a touch screen. I choose it over a laptop. :p My phone had many problems, and now that I'm in high school I need to be able to call my 'rents.
Oh please! You'll be the famous writer and I'll just be some insignifigant faded memory in the back of your mind. Then while your sitting there co-writing with J.K. Rowling and Steffanie Meyers I'll be staring at you through your window and fantasising... Haha jk I'm not that obsessed with you... Haha jk for real this time