Okay so I've made this realization about myself before but now I just did again after reading a story about this girl who is so against love and doesn't want to be in love blah blah blah, so of course she meets a guy who she just falls head over heels in love with. So I'll just say a few things about me. I am shy, quiet, like to blend in than stand out, doesn't like being the center of attention,...

Emo. Freak. Idiot. Stupid. Those are just some of the things I've been called. Sad thing is that's all what my brother and sister have called me. Well my brother called me emo, my sister called me the rest. So with my brother saying I'm emo, for my birthday he bought me a skull, heart, and bow necklace and funny thing is I wouldn't have bought that for myself even. Wonder if I could still return...

So about three years ago, I dated this guy, who shall be nameless(I won't be naming people other than general names, like guy, girl, sister, dad, etc). In the beginning it was good, he was sweet and niice and everything. But as it went on, I lost something I really enjoyed, my space, my own time, where I could write and read and everything else I loved to do by myself. Besides this journal, my...

So I had my birthday yesterday, woo I'm 17 now! And surprisingly it wasn't all that bad this year(shocker there with my dad!) I got to see my best friend and have a niice famliy dinner, so yay it was actually a pretty good one! Only downer was my dad yelling at me while I drove on the freeway =/ yeahh that isn't a good thing to do to me especially when I've only been on the freeway like twice now...

So my sister is graduating pretty soon and she'll be having a graduation party in a couple weeks. First off, I should add that we're step sisters, even though to me, she just is my sister. So anyways, her "mother" if you could call the woman that, hasn't talked to her since she was bout 10, and my sister wants to invite her to her party. I know it's her party and whatever but I told her honestly,...

What's so big about a birthday? I mean, you're only getting a year older. All the presents, the cakes, blah blah blah. All my birthday brings if frickin tears to me. My dad is just a frickin asshole! He'll just yell at me, oh why are you bringing this up, that up, how much are you fucking asking for! I asked for my favorite food my mom makes to eat at home, no we should go out, have fun and find a...