"At my worst, I was a pathetic excuse for a human being. I wanted destruction. Not only self destruction but I wanted to pull people down with me. I wanted them to be pathetically in love with me; to want me to a point where they bleed despair. To let me hurt them, just to prove how crazy they are for me. To crawl on their knees in front of me, and let me slay them for the sake of our endless...

"Have you ever wondered which hurts the most? Saying somthing and wishing you hadn't or saying nothing and wishing you had?I guess the most important things are the hardest to say.Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them. If you tell them, they might break your heart... if you don't, you might break theirs.Have you ever decided not to become a couple becuase you were so afraid of losing what...

Well, I've never written one of these bad boys beffore... I find it kind of weird. I never had a diary as a kid or anything - I was encouraged to keep my thoughts and feelings to my self (maybe that's why I'm so antisocial?).But to the point of this - I'm so bored. Not the 'I have nothing to do all day' kind of bored, it's the 'I'm bored of my goddamn life'.I'm Siobhaan (Hi!). I'm neat, I'm tidy,...