the devil is knocking at your door. are you man enough to let him in? link

i'm a girl growing up in a small town in the middle of nowhere.
i'm young, but i always act like i'm older than you think.
i try way to hard to get people to like me, and you know what happened?
the answer to that riddle is that everyone hates me now.
way to often i think about ending my life or slicing a cold steel knife through my veins.
my story is highly complicated and anything but innocent.
i'm not that pretty.
i'm nice when i want to be, which isn't that often.
the only people i truely love is my two bestfriends and my family, and the boy i like.
it doesn't take that much for me to trust someone.
i'm trying to change my image ; i hate my little 'emo/scene' look i have right now, or if i even have that. the whole look is entirely too overrated.
video games and music is all i know, but then again i'm not artist.
i like black nail polish and dark things, but shiny objects do attract my attention.
i honestly don't give a shit what people think about me anymore.
and honestly,
i'm just trying to grow up.