It's been a month since my ex of 6 months broke up with me.. I've been crying for over a month.. Idk what to do except I'm so in love with him. My heart says he is the one but he loves another girl who happens to e a friend of mine now... My therapist says I have a lot of problem.. Iv been molested and raped about 10-11 times(by boys and girls). I am so scared to be without my bf even though he is...

People look at me, what do they see? They see this beautiful,smart,funny girl. That's not me at all, that's called acting. I'm actually crazy,you know? I cut myself, I pop pills, suicide is always on my mind and I can't help but act like a slut. I have zero respect for my body, already about 7 people touched it and abuse it without my permission. Who could love a girl who isn't pure? Whose crazy...

Dear reader,I'm sorry I can't be the perfect daughter/sister/girlfriend ECT.. I always thought I would die at an old age . But I was wrong. Everyone has hurt me.. I'm not good enough or ever will be.. Just forget I was ever born. Forget I was ever alive.. I wish i was  never born.. I have only endured pain in my life.. Only endured suffering.. No one has ever truly love me.. They judge me...

On the outside people see a pretty smart girl. I get good grades and am a cheerleader . But no one knows the real me. Everyday I go through hell. I put a mask on so other people are happy. I have cut my arm because of my pain.I'm depressed alone and sometimes just wanna die. I have a hrd time trusting guys. I was molested. I throw myself at guys cause I I think I need to. I have confused love with...

Dear reader.. I shania Lynn Mofle might not wake up tommrow. I am filled with pain and regret. I can't control what happened in my past. I with I could.. I am sorry I sent that topless pic to tanner.. But you kissed a girl..how am I suppose to feel? My heart is ripped out and I am lifeless.. So I'm goin to take a couple pills to help me sleep.. I want to die.. I am so hurt.. Beyond...

You see I am a freshman and I do track. I was the only girl in my school in 1a to make it to state track championships.. I qualified for the 3200m and 1600m.. so I raced and got 11 in the 2 mile and 12 in the mile.. I wasn't proud if myself.. Like I wasn't even happy to be there. Is there something wrong with me? Why did I feel that way? I was the only freshman girl And girl at that to go to state...

I cheated and I feel so stupid.. I what to die an slit my wrists some more... But my bf keeps reminding me of what I did.. Is that right? He doesn't understand that everytime he says that, that I break inside each time... Is that right? Idk what to do but all I know is that I am beating myself up so badly about myself.. I jut can't handle it but I love him.. You may ask why I cheated and I can...

who cares what people think? i should know what happened in my past because it is MY past. so no need to say i am lying when i aint. ok? not all rape victims are the same. some actually tell more than one person i am telling because it happened when i was 5 and i dont know him anymore, so why say i am lying> funny how the world is today. always thinking people are lying. i poured my heart out...

I come on this website and I get judged. Sorry I have been raped and molested and don't know what to do anymore. I thought people would be more understanding not jerks.. Thnks for the self esteem boost!! Ha whatever . If people only knew I was a cutter and depressed: I don't seek attention so stop saying thT!! Why must a person judge? No one knows me or my past or what I have been through. Maybe...

I really should wrote in this everyday: well richie And I made love o. 5-15-11. It was strange because earlier that day and night I wouldn't let him touch me because I was scared. I literally started crying. But the look on his face was horrible.. I didn't mean to cry I swear!! I have been having horrible nightmares o what the guys did. I haven't been telling Richie because he already has enough...

1. Joey hicks said he was 34 years old. I met him in yahoo chess when I was 10. I remember him promising to save me from my parents and I sent him dirty pics. I thought it was love and fell for him so hard. Then idk what happen between him and I. Itblasted 2 years then ky mom found out. I lied about the cutting.. I cut when that happened. He dedicated the song here without you. He used me. I...

I'm in mrs. Dasko's office dying of cramps. They hurt so bad. I can't even concentrate on my school work . I started my period today and the cramps are really bad. In a way it's a good thing I'm distracted because now I don't have to think of the guys and what they did. Well I'm going to try an taking mu mind off the pain.P.s I love richie. AragonIdk what to do anymore it's just ugh I do love...

5-11-11Dear journal,Well decided that I am going to start writing in a journal again. I have so much going on in my life right now. I feel so numb and confused !! It's like I'm dead inside.but I shouldnt be!! I have a bf that loves me so much . I just wig I could love him the same. Almost every guy Ive dated has my heart . Im going to list their names1. Joey hicks2. Kris3. Justin flom4. Tanner...