I was just reaing my old jounals and I struck me that in juli I thought I never would come back to Sweden and now I don't know if I'll come back to America..Life changes and peole do too. It's sad but sometimes goodbyes are for the best and that maybe the change was the best change in the world.I hate this.. That the world doesn't understand anything.They just .. I dont want to talk about it...

Right now I'm just told to do stuff I don't want to do. People tells me to go and join the army( the swedish army is not at all like the US army. It's totaly based on if you're in great fittness and if you have the right psychical mind. So there's not alot of people that goes in to the Swedish army. No wonder that it's not alot of soldier in Sweden. and the fact that the Swedish amy don't have...

As time goes by I kind of get used to this thought.This thought of me ilving here agian.My life has been a compleat mess but now it seems that it's on the right track.I love my friends soo much and without them I don't know if I would have make it this far.I think is't unfair that my mother don't let me know who my father is. She says it's for the best that I don't know. But I really want to know...

This is one of my favorites song..STAY TOGETHER FOR THE KIDS...."It's hard to wake up, when the shades have been pulled shutThis house is haunted, it's so pathetic, it makes no sense at allI'm ripe with things to say, the words rot and fall awayMy stupid poem could fix this home, I'd read it every daySo here's your holiday,hope you enjoy it this time, you gave it all away.It was mine, so when...

I don't know anyone how died or even was in Manhattan when it happenI wasn't even in the US, but it does affect me alot.. Im sorry if anyone gets affended when I write about it.. I really am..In Sweden I head that they don't even talk about it..and the Swedish foreign minister was killed the same day but in 2003.. and no one is talking about it. I don't know where Sweden is going really..Maybe Im...

the summer is soon over and school starts agian..hum.. a really intresting school start is a head.. and I hope it will go wellhum.. summer have come and past...

soo me and my ant and her dogs are moving agian..this time is it because her boyfriend and her didnt work out that things they had to..Soo Its time to say ByeBye to Lars Connie Sebasian and the little baby Bryce..well tomorrow we'll go and look at houses.. does anyone know if a house near by Green Day is for sale^^^???hahawell have a great time until we see each other^^or something =)

Soo don't worry if I'm not gonna be around much becasue I'm going to my ant..Its hell home where mom lives and my stepdad Fredrick tend to hit me alot.. so now I'm going to my ant.. right now I'm at Niklas place even thoug we're not together anymore..He's just my hero..Please dont worry becasue I'm safe at last..I love you guys and I'll keep in u updated on how thinks go.. and I'll update my story...

Sorry for the last journal..I was really tired and I was just spilling out stuff..I'm not really in the shape I should be in.Alot of things isn't right and everything is just hard to deal with..and I know hes married and I know I'm not in love with himYou can't be in love with someone you haven't meet..I didn't really remeber that I had writen that journal..I know that that doesn't really make me...

So now four of my friends has commited suicide the last 2 years..I don't really know what to say..I knew that at least two of them was in really dam shape..I knew that three of them had tried before..The last one was the guy you thought that he was the happiest guy in the world and that everything just went his way..I guess it wasn't that way...I can't really believe that they're gone..The worst...