In an interesting turn of events a ton has happened in the past couple months that I haven't got to write about. So I'll start at the semi-begining here.1.I went out with my old old old gf(never write about before)for a week then mutally ended it.2. I met this dude in PE and went out with him for about a month3. Broke up with him to be with my exes ex gf and that ended very confussingly4. I went...

"I am a writer, that is what I am." My music no longer keeps me a float. The note has gone long sour now. Writing it what I live for because I cannot end my story without finishing the stories of the brave little people inside my head. But everything is caving in. The harsh words and cruel games have broken down the walls that are long collapsed. Walls are no longer protecting my frailness and I...

I don't know the next time I'll be able to get one. I have been our of school almost a whole week now and I'm still not better. My doctor is bringing me in in a couple of hours. I might, and probably, will end up in the hospital. My temperature keeps spiking up to 103 degrees and I've been vomiting. I'm really dizzy. I can't stand up all too well on my own. I am seeing white spots. I feel pain and...

I took this quiz and got a 94%. It is an anorexic quiz. Above 70% is extreme danger. But I don't feel in danger. I feel in danger when I eat. I've dropped eight pounds in the past week but I think I look fatter now. I feel like I'm not human when I eat. I like feeling hungry. I'm starting to spiral into a spastic fit even as I type this. Must go exercise. My body is litterally vibrating telling me...

What am I?I sorta like girls.I like how soft girls are. How they understand. I like their......chest.I hate they are so moody. I hate that they are so emotional at times. Lower regions scare the hell out of me but is slightly appealing. Mainly terrifying.I sorta like boys. I like their hair. How it is rough and tangled. I like how they aren't delicate. I love how rough and tough they are vs....

If I live on like this much longer.In the shadows of old friend's happiness.I have a friend wanting to kill herself and loves cutting but she is still happier than I am.I'll die.My body will give in or I'll take my life,Please, Please help me...I don't want to die.Not really at least.But I can't take it anymore!I have a boyfriend now.But I so scared of rejection I think I'm just making things more...

I'm sick of pretending. I learned exes can never be friends again. My ex I tried so hard to be nice to is now at my throat with below the belt insults. I bottled my anger until it boiled over and has yet to simmer out. I have a BOYfriend. How it happened? I honestly couldn't tell you anything other than that he makes me happy and dull my anger and pain. Oh and I got a cut on my leg that is...

Remember way back when I said I was a lesbian. I don't know anymore. I got asked out by a boy and I said yes. I liked him. Allot. I am deeply confussed. I honestly believed was done with boys. I really did. But now I am the way I always was before. No preference. I like this boy. He makes me blush constantly. Just the thought of him. He makes me feel like monachs are migrading in my belly. It is...

Two years ago I met a boy named Jake. He is the Jake I name my characters after. He is completely bald. He is a 2% that this happens to. Only I am aloud to talk to him about it because....About a month ago my hair started falling out in strange patches. But the signs have been here since I was born. I have an immune system disorder called Alopecia Areata. It is hereditary. Neither of my parents...

Me and my bestfriend ended up dating for two months. Well I turned her straight:/She won't talk to me. But I don't mind she just iritates me now because you can't go from straight to bi to straight like that. What I am worried about is well, my old girlfriend is dating one of my friends. But she told me this after she said yes to going back out with me. She had been with her two weeks. She is...

For anyone out there I'ld like to say I haven't cut in a month. I'ld like to say I eat at least one meal everyday and that I honestly want to live now. Its all because of my bestfriend. I liked her for a while and she said she was straight. Then she let it slip she liked me to and we've been together a month. She treats me like a queen. I really love her. I got better for her. I have a reason to...

I broke up with my boyfriend.I felt like I had no will and now I am done with boys. I am a lesbain.I have a crush on this girl but she is taken.This other girl asked me out but I had to say no because of the other. I like her and all but I like the other girl alot more. I started toying with ideas and accidently wrote a song about her. She knows how I feel I think. One of my friends is ticked...

I started this thing called '101 reason I am me' not many people have read it but it isd okay because I'm not going to finish it. But its main point is:I've decide I'm no longer human. I'm a shell,empty and hollow and unloved. No one even notices my cuts anymore. No one notices I don't eat. No one notices I don't talk. My boyfriend hasn't seen me in almost a year. I act happy but I can't pretend...

My friends are openly ACTING like they aren't mad but they told me they are pissed. I haven't talked to the girl. But I told my boyfriend and he was sad. He stayed with me though. I'm sure we will talk about it when he gets back in town. I hate it when he travels. I mean I'm happy he is having a good time at Disney but I miss him sooooo much. I wrote a poem in Italian because I missed him that...

I haven't talked much about my boyfriend of nearly half a year. But I do think I love him. He is so sweet and polite and smart. Though we are young he has given me a promise stone. A cubic serconia in the shape of a heart. We have been planning a family. Yes planning now because I can't have kids natural so I would have to have a surgery. So we might as well get it perfect. We will last that long...

So you guys who follow me. I've never really introduced myself. Well that is because I don't really know who I am. But know I think I have figured it out. So lets start over.....Hi. My birth-name is Raven but my chosen name is Aya. I have had a rough time and finally realized that no matter how much I have experimented that my boyfriend is best for me.My life is happier now and it has just...

It is a question I have never really thought of. Not like how I'm thinking about it now. I can't believe I am going to put this online but now I'm too desprate to care. My life had just been picked up again. It had shattered when me and my betfriend messed around and she chose someone else and admited she used me. I didn't take it well but my other friend and a new friend helped me pick the peices...

I fear I'm anorexic and I feel like I just can't be yet it all dawned on me.1.I think I am fat because I weight over 1002.I do not eat unless forced3.I throw up blood4. Nose bleeds5. You can see my ribs6. I make myself vomit7. I am 40lbs underweight8. I punch myself in the stomach to see if I jiggle9. I don't10. Eating makes me feel like a failure11. I black out12. I'm paler than pale13. My lips...