Whitney
| I'm just trying to find my place in this world. I'm nothing new , nothing special, and I'm definitely not going to preach about how different i am, because who is these days? I just want to get out and live my life, instead of waste it, i want to be known instead of a face that fades, and a name forgotten. I'm not trying to fit in with anything, I'm not fake, plastic. I'm real , I'm human, I breath eat, sleep, and feel just like everybody else. Don't expect more than that. Most people read me completely wrong I'm always the exact opposite of what you think of me. i see things a lot differently than most do, And I'm not fully here all the time. i try to believe that everyone has some good, and that belief has faded. I rethink things a million times and then over again and observe my situations till i cant think straight. I hide from the truth of things, although I absolutely hate lies. I'm so confusing to the point where it doesn't matter what i say. Because you wont believe it anyway. My heart is to weak to wear on my sleeve. I don't let people in as much as i use to,And because of that I'm losing and lost a lot of friends. I'm simply just tired of letdowns, I'm tired of liars, I'm tired of getting hurt. I bite my lips and grind my teeth, I'm always jealous. I walk in circles, following the same routine everyday and its sickening. I NEED change,something new, something different. Just anything. I'm learning, I'm growing. I'm not who i was a year ago,or a month ago. but, I'm not who I want to be. I'm not satisfied with myself. I'm constantly trying to better myself, and every time i do, i just make myself worse. I'm always comparing myself to the girl next me , and i give up you win. I'm afraid of things people don't understand, people don't take the time to understand. some, that i still don't fully understand. And i hate that. I wish upon stars , wish on melted candles, whisper it at 11:11, blow on flowers till there bare, but never does the things i want come true. You don't know me, i don't know me. I'm not who you think i am, not even close. everyone has a story, everyone has depth. just look closer... .. . layout by pearahmore. @ pearahsakiller. |