Today it is my birthday! Im actually so excited about it too be honest and everything is just greqt this morning. Up until the fact that i cannot sleep a wink of shut eye! You wanna know why though... Because i feel incredibly guilty and im watching the basement door so no one goes down stairs... At all because no matter what i have to remain gaurded. I'll tell you why now. Last night a friend of...

This is all I'm going to say. I MISS YOU GUYS SO FUCKING MUCH. You two were like big brothers to me, shielding out the hurt and loss and now that you're gone...Everything is going break and fall apart. Why did God have to take you? Seriously? He couldn't take a couple criminals and be happy with that? No...He had to have the best people I ever knew and now laying in my bed, loosing sleep and...

This is really hard. but on this day June 27 2011, two of the most amazing. caring and love people passed away. The thing is, I didn't know them personally but something about it just makes me want to crawl in bed, put my knees to my chest and cry. All though I've already done that once people keep telling me that I didn't know them so why care. But the thing is, I do care and they don't...