so i havent written in a while. i dont kno what to say. just that i've had thoughts about relapsing. but i didnt. even at this moment of writing this im thinking about relapsing. it's in my head almost 24/7. but i kno it will leave soon. it just has too. so i just woke up from a bad dream. i killed someone after they killed my cousins, and sister. it was kinda fun, but i still have the feeling, as...

well my mom found out about my cutting. my life is pretty much over...... every time she looks at me now, her eyes go straight to my arms, before my eyes/face.... I now draw on my wrists with sharpies. red and blue. i figure if i cant have my own blood on me, red ink is the next best thing to have(in my opinion) also my ankles are the new spot to do it on. i dont tell alot of people this but i...

I dont know whats wrong with me!! I went from a happy little girl who had *true* smiles everywhere she went, to a depressed teenager who doesnt know who she is anymore! It started around 5th grade, when one moment i would have a smile and the next tears coming down my face. It really started to make a difference in 6th grade when, my best friend that I have known since kindergarten, leaft me! But...