Do you ever feel like everything is just nothingness? That's contradictory, but you know what I mean. Like life is just this boring thing, and no matter what you do to jazz it up, it still kind of sucks. The only real emotion you show is when someone in your favorite T.V show dies, or a favorite band breaks up. At least that's what it's been like for me. I just feel not exactly depressed, just...

Have you ever met someone, and you just become the best of friend like the snap of a finger? Well, I have. Way back in my eighth grade year, I came back to a school that I hadn't stepped foot in in years, and I had no intentions of liking anyone. But one girl broke through. She's been with me, through thick and thin, all the way through high school. Until now.It started slowly, she stopped eating...

School's starting up in four days. Hello Junior year. I feel like this year is going to be different, even though I'm going back to my old school. There's so many others that have left and aren't coming back, my group has dwindled to just a few.I think that the weight of reality is finally kicking me in the ass. I used to be so apathetic about everything, I hated life and all the people and things...

Six years ago today I lost the thing that I loved the most. My sister. My only sister. I was nine years old when two women sat me down in the game room lounge of my group home and told me these horrible, horrible lies.They told me my sister had died in a car accident and I didn't know what to do. So I laid there in one of the workers laps and she held me and told me everything would be okay. But...

The full impact on the future is finally hitting me. I'm going to be graduating next school year and I'll only be seventeen years old. I'm going to be moving to a different state in a huge, unfamiliar city all alone. I'm going to be on my own for two years and when I graduate I'll be nineteen. Nineteen and already have a college diploma and be off somewhere in the work force. I'm just... Dizzy and...

Okay, so I'm moving to Tennessee after I graduate to go to Nossi School of Art. But they don't have dorms, so I'll have to be completely on my own. I have to take my dog with me, but since she's a pitt bull everyone thinks she's aggressive. But she's not, she pissed on herself on our birthday (we share the same birthday, I got her as a late birthday present) one year because there was so many...

I just don't even know anymore. I mean, I gave her my all, and now she's with this guy. She keeps telling me that it's okay, that there's no competition, that when school starts back that we have a chance, but she can't promise that, what if she falls in love with this guy? Then what? I'm going to be left on the side lines while she traipse off into the sunset with him, and I'm starting to think I...

A friend at school just recently lost his brother in a car accident. I'm sixteen, and so is he. I lost my big sister when I was eleven, and I know what it feels like. You have no idea what to feel, one moment your sad that they're gone, the next you're angry their gone, leaving you all alone in the world, then the next your angry at yourself for being angry at them. When it finally sets in, you're...

Dont grieve. Anything you lose comes aroung in another form.Friends are enimies sometimes, and enemies frineds.I was a tiny big. Now a mountain. I was left behind. Now honored at the head.You healed my wound, hunger, and anger, and made me a poet who sings about joy.If your guidance is your ego, don't rely on luck for help. You sleep during the day and the nights are short. But he time you wake up...

Okay, so I had this dream and Gerard Way was in it, I have no idea why. He isn't even someone that I idolized. For some odd reason I was in this Chinese restaurant and I was like "Can I get something vegetarian? Like a salad or something?" And this weird little Chinese girl pops up out of no where. I was like.. Okay? And then I go to sit down and yenno Im just sitting there, lolly gagging. Then he...