I'm not perfect. I make mistakes and I can't help it. But just because I won't yell back at them or stand up for myself when they yell at me, doesn't mean I don't have feelings. I put up with thier shit all the time. It's hard trying to live in my brother's shadow but at least I'm still here. They should stop trying to get rid of me and realize that I'm hurting. I'm tired of the fights I hear...

Today's the anniversery of my brothers death, and even though I always tell people it still hurts, they tend to blow it off like I should just move on already. Honestly I probably should move on but I just can't. I miss him so much. He's the one who gave me my nickname, Sunshine and his favorite number was 53, hence my username. :/It feels like no one really cares about him, which makes me want to...