Journal -I have an unwillingness about me that i can't seem to shake, I don't accept things. I don't accept the cards I have been given to play in life and search for loopholes aimlessly and without much luck. The past, that's what keeps me back, at least i hope its my past, not some damaged psychological complex unable to get pass reality and accept life as it is. Becoming Schizophrenic, is not...