September 10th, 2011 at 10:37pm
well I for one adore you.
and I just started school this week
but all my time is already invested.
and ah that college thing, I'm going through
the same stressful process.
hopefully I'll do well enough to get what I want
and I wish the best for you also :)
People used to tell me that'll I'd feel different, more empowered, more important, when I made the jump from fish to I don't even know what a sophomore is called. But, I still feel the same. I dunno if that's just me, or if I'm just fucked in the head :)
Haha, I get what you're trying to say. And, no, you didn't sound crazy :)
I understand what you're trying to do. Smother your past self before it can slaughter the new spirit you're creating.
I admire you for that.
You're not allowing the shit people spat at you to bring you down. You're taking off the weights that are dragging you down into the deep, dark depths of yourself. Into that one place we all possess that can devour our deams, our happiness, our souls if given even the tiniest of tastes of our doubts or insecurities.
When the time comes for your past and future selves to fight to the death, I hope your future self kicks major ass :)