A Zombie Attack / Comments

I've licked a girl's tongue before. The same girl who I've kissed. But it was accidental because I was going to lick her cheek but she turned her head and had her mouth up in like a laugh and yeah, we licked tongues. My mum thinks I'm pansexual because I told her that. She wanted to know what my sexuality was and I had to say something. It's sort of true though, I wouldn't go for someone who was really hot and had no personality and I couldn't keep a conversation with. I'd go with someone ugly in people's eyes but with an awesome personality and I could talk about lots of stuff with.
I get how you meant it, and I'm glad you got how I meant it. I was worried that I might have not explained it well.

I actually don't know. I mean, I couldn't see myself doing anything with a female or male (though I have kissed a girl once) but I think I know I'm at least not straight. Yeah, people should be allowed to like whoever they want, and be able to keep that information to themselves if they feel like it. Sometime's it is really awkward being asked that question.
Yeah, but then, without trying to be mean or nasty because I don't intend to be, some charities, the people who you're donating to help, bring some of their troubles along themselves.
I probably was horrible at it explaining it there.

Yeah. It can be good at times, it's like everything can be good at times. But don't over do it.
The longest label that has been stuck to me is that I'm a lesbian. In year seven, the first year of high school, I didn't know anyone. I was the only one from my primary school to go there. And yet the people in my form decided to say I was a lesbian and get it around the year. And after over four years, people still believe it.
Exactly! Though, sometimes you need more money then you have to help out directly so I can see why people would see donating as the best way for them.

Sure, once in a while because it's not too much but all the time is just....too much and stupid. Most people leave me alone because half the time I won't reply to them and in year seven they pegged me with so many labels, gave me more in year eight and nine too. It's probably why they leave me alone.
Exactly! Like, if they're donating to save a child's life, chances are by the time what money does go to the charities can make a difference, the child is dead.

Yeah, it's just never good when someone craves compliments and attention a little too much.
I'm content with people thinking I'm a freak just so they leave me alone. Sure, I don't like the fact they'll call me that but if it makes them leave me alone, then I'm okay for that bit.
Yeah. But then, charities that some people use to help people don't work because half the money doesn't even go to the charities so they're not really helping people even though they think they are.

Exactly! It's human nature to want attention though some people don't but they do like some attention. But wanting to get the attention by getting someone else into shit isn't something you should do. Don't be selfish just to be noticed. I hate being noticed. I prefer to just sit there and be ignored.
There are a lot more sucky things in life. And sometimes people don't get good stuff in their lives.

Yeah, you'd wonder but like, with some people you wouldn't wonder with if you knew they were attention seekers and said stuff just for attention. Like this girl in my year, last year she see accused this boy in my year of raping her. No one believed her but of course the police and school had to take it seriously. They found out that he didn't, of course, and the girl moved school because everyone hated her for that.
Life sucks a lot but then there are them good things that make it all worthwhile.

Exactly. Words are just words, so you say them without meaning it but you end up meaning it because of how people think of you and how you won't do it.
It sucks even more because life just likes fucking with our emotions.

Yeah, exactly. With words you don't know whether it's serious or not. And yeah, like everyone thinks 'he won't do it' and you know they think they think that so you just want to prove them all wrong.
Mhm. And most times it sucks that we can't control how we feel because it lets us down at times.

It was like....he said he was going to bring it in when we were in Welsh the day before but no one really thought he would.... Yeah. In all honesty, we don't really control our emotions and reactions, they control us. If we don't want something to bother us too much then it most probably will bother us because of our emotions and shit.

It was more...funny for us, but also not funny. Kinda. And yeah, bullying isn't something you can control and it's not like you can control how the person who you're bullying will react.

Exactly! This boy in my form brought a knife to school like last year sometime. He chased this guy in my year with it. Obviously he got expelled but he was one of the ones who had the piss taken out of him like all the time but brought it along himself at times, y'know how I mean?

Yeah. It's like they're not helping the bullying bit one bit which makes the bullies think that they can get away with it, which is technically true seeing as teachers can't do anything outside of school, and really the teachers in my school barely do anything either.

Exactly! I mean, sure it's good that they try and stop it but the way that they go about it just makes it all that much worse. And honestly (I don't like saying this but it's true because a guy like this exists in my form class) some people don't help themselves when it comes to being bullied. Like, they deliberately do something/act in a certain way even though they know they'll be bullied for it and then have the nerve to complain about it. Sure, people shouldn't be bullying in the first place, but still.

School is just a breeding ground for stereotypes and bullying.

Me too. I dislike a load of people in my school. They get under my skin.

Yeah. School just really annoys me. And it's for loads of different reasons not just because most of it isn't going to be of any use to me.

Yeah, they don't think. They just do stuff and still expect us to be 'perfect' in their eyes.

Yeah. School is just like that. It has a grudge against you even before you get there.

Exactly. But I swear it's like my school has changed almost every teacher of mine this year. You'd think that people in top sets would have the same teachers so that they can get the high marks that are expected of them, but no. They change the teachers so therefore you're not comfortable with them, they don't know what you can and can't do straight away like your old teacher can, and just basically not the same way of learning.