September 13th, 2011 at 09:33pm
I'm glad that you can relate.
I'm okay, I'm just a little fucked up lately.
I wish that there was more that I could say, but I can't communicate the exacts, sometimes my head falls into abstracts, and it's hard to be articulate.
There's this really sad moment when you realise that the straws that you've be grasping at aren't real; when you're wasting life on the stagnant things that died, or the ill things that were imagined out of some niàve form of hope.
I'm more of an individualist than I have ever been, so much so that when I lost my place in life I couldn't bring myself to care too deeply.
I've become apathetic towards the things, and the people that I had thought where there, and had mattered.
I'm more alone now than I have ever been.
I'm stuck pretending to be okay with situations that I'm not, and happy when I can't remember if I ever was.
I can't remember a time when I didn't feel suffocated.
I'm not expecting you to have answers, it's just nice to say it to someone who won't be condescending, or terrifide =]