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    I didn't have much to think about. I guess it was kind of pathetic in a way. Because I knew in my head what I really wanted; and what I really wanted was Carter. Yea, there was a few stipulations that were extremely important. But he was the one who was pursuing me.

    I liked him. I found him attractive and smart and funny. But he was the one with the motivation to ask me out. He must feel the same way as I do.

    And he's sticking his neck out on the line for me. He wants to get to know me and take me out, not just as friends. It took a lot for him to bring it up to me.

    I value that. And I value him.

    Which is why I was crazy enough to say yes.

    But look at my life so far.

    Is it really that crazy that I would date my boss/ married man?

    Okay so yea it is kind of insane that I would do that, even for me and how my life has turned out so far. But still. I don't want to sacrifice my happiness anymore. I shouldn't have to.

    Carter and I are adults. We have our own rights to make our own choices.

    Do I think it's right for him to cheat on his wife, with me? No.

    But that is their business. And it wouldn't be long before they were over with anyways. Hopefully.

    So I decided to not tell my sister about Carter just yet. She was way too busy and I was way too scared to tell her. So it kind of worked out. She didn't question my whereabouts or ask many questions in general, and that was quite the relief. I didn't want to hide from her but I just wasn't ready to tell her yet.

    I knew that eventually I would have to, but it was still such an early stage in our relationship, if that's even what it was, for a lack of a better term.

    The only people that I was worried about was my coworkers. If they found out? They would hate me, make my life hell, and probably get Carter in a lot of trouble/ get me fired somehow.

    We were breaking so many rules but we already committed and there was no turning back now.

    I didn't want to.

    So I kept my mouth shut at work, pretended like nothing was going on, and did my job as I was told.

    "I don't know what is going on, but I'm scared that Mr. Sinclair has lost his mind," one of my coworkers said to another.

    "Why do you say that?" I asked even though I wasn't sure if I was entirely part of the conversation.

    "Because he actually gave Gwen the night off last night. And this morning there was bagels in the lobby. With cream cheese and butter. He's losing it."

    I furrowed my eyebrows.

    "So?"

    Todd laughed, right in my face.

    "So? He's a cold-hearted cutthroat shark, Jarrett. They don't do nice things for other people. Especially when they never have before. It's strange."

    "Well maybe he's turning over a new leaf," I said as a matter of fact.

    "No, I doubt it. Something else must me going on."

    I bit my lip.

    I hoped nobody was catching on.

    But I'm sure if they were they wouldn't talk about it in front of me.

    They probably have no idea.

    But it's kind of nice that Carter is trying a little bit to be nicer to his workers.

    Even though the bagel thing was 100% my idea. I told him I was starving in the mornings and don't have time to eat, so my guess is that he couldn't just get me a bagel, he had to get everyone a bagel so it didn't look suspicious.

    Giving that woman Gwen the night off, that was him though.

    Maybe I'm rubbing off on him?

    Or maybe he really is a sweetheart deep down. That's what I really think. He cares a lot more about a lot more than people think. If that makes any sense.

    I'm just so glad that I get to witness a totally different side to him.

    Speaking of that... We had a date tonight.

    But not our usual kind of date. We weren't going anywhere. He requested to come to my place. I was happy that he wanted to come in and see what "regular life" was like. He didn't care that I didn't have much money. He didn't want me to feel embarrassed or anything like that. It made me feel better about my whole situation. And it also helped me realize that he just might actually have genuine feelings for me.

    I had to snap out of my thoughts and get back to work, but it wasn't easy. I was excited and happy to see him later.

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    As excited as I was, I was also very nervous. I didn't think he would judge me or anything, but my home was nothing like I imagined his was. I was almost certain he had a huge mansion with 8 or more bedrooms and a whole bunch of fancy things to go along with it.

    I had a 50 inch TV with optimum on demand and that was about it.

    My phone buzzed twice letting me know I had a text.

    It was Carter telling me to look outside my door.

    My heart raced as I fixed myself in the mirror one last time before answering the door.

    I smiled and let him in.

    He was holding a bottle of wine and handed it to me.

    I awkwardly took it and offered to take his coat.

    "I'll put it on this hook here. Thank you though Jarrett," he said kindly. "You have a lovely home."

    I'm sure I blushed.

    "It's not much but it's nice," I said as I set the bottle of wine down.

    He looked at one of my "family photos" of me and my sister that was hanging on the wall.

    "That's my sister. We live here together."

    I forgot if I ever told him about that. But by the look on his face it seemed I didn't.

    "Just you two?"

    "Yea. It's a long story," I said while scratching the back of my neck. "The pizza is in the oven. And no it's not frozen. I actually made it," I said with a laugh.
    November 13th, 2015 at 01:37am
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    So it took a little while to kind of take everything in that was happening. That happened/ had the potential to happen I should say. Because if I wasn't mistaken it seemed like my boss was flirting with me last night.

    It could have been the alcohol talking, but more than 25% of my being told me maybe not. Because although he was intoxicated, he carried himself rather well and was very coherent at all times. So I was pretty sure he was being overly friendly to me with intention.

    But was he doing it out of feelings he might have, or was it a manipulation tactic to get me to do my job better?
    October 3rd, 2015 at 04:46am
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    I took a sip of the vodka that Keagan put in my face before getting up out of my bed. I was still feeling a little tipsy from before, but I didn’t want him to know that. It was hard for me because I wasn’t used to drinking so much, but I tried my best.

    As soon as I sat down on Keagan’s bed I knew that I was not getting up any time soon. The new mattress top that he bought felt like a cloud. It was literally so comfortable even just to sit on; I could only imagine what it would feel like to actually sleep with it.

    Keagan took another sip and situated himself on his bed.

    I was surprised that he could tell something was up with me. I didn’t realize that he had any intuition about people’s feelings at all. Not trying to make him sound like a bad person or anything, because he’s not. But still. He doesn’t seem like the type to care about anyone else’s feelings.

    “I don’t want you to think I’m bent out of shape because of you. That’s not it,” I said after I drank from the bottle.

    My mind told me to stop drinking, but for some reason the message wasn’t received by my mouth right away. It wasn’t until I started to feel dizzy before I put my hand out to stop Keagan from giving me the Vodka.

    “Well I didn’t say that you were. But how could I know for sure if you don’t say anything? I’m confused as to why you’ve been acting different lately. Not just at the party. You know exactly what I mean.”

    I shrugged my shoulders.

    Maybe I was meant to confide in Keagan. Livvie wasn’t aware of what was going on so I couldn’t vent to her, and Russ was my only other friend and he was the reason why I was acting weird so I couldn’t talk to him either. All that was left was Keagan.

    I was scared to say anything because Keagan and I don’t have the kind of touchy feely relationship that I’m used to.

    How did I know he wouldn’t make fun of me for being a baby and whatnot? How did I know he’d understand? And most importantly, how did I know he wouldn’t judge me and view me differently?

    I had no idea, but it didn’t stop me from putting myself out there for once.

    “It’s not so simple Keagan. It’s actually really complicated.”

    He furrowed his eyebrows and looked angry for a moment.

    “You don’t think I’ll get it because I’m stupid, is that it? Because if that’s how you feel then I’m-”

    I interrupted him politely.

    “No, I promise that’s not what I meant by that. I mean like… the situation is complicated in itself. It’s about one of my friends from home, not Livvie. My friend Russell.”

    “You’ve never mentioned Russell before. Why is that?”

    I was really taken aback that Keagan was talking to me like a normal human being for once. Did I have to get him drunk in order to get treated like this? Because if that was the case I’d have to keep a bottle of alcohol in my fridge at all times.

    He was making it easier to confide in him, and I liked that. It was a good feeling.

    I still wasn’t 100% comfortable about telling him exactly what happened, but at least I was willing to give it a try.

    “Before I say anything else, can you just like- promise me that you won’t judge me or anything? It won’t be worth it to tell you if you’re just going to be mean or weird about it.”

    Keagan sighed, but not in a bad way, almost like a ‘duh’ kind of way.

    “Jamie just spill. I know we’re not best buddies or anything but I’m not a heartless bastard like you think. So lay it on me.”

    I only nodded, feeling a little embarrassed. There wasn’t really any reason to, but all I had to drink wasn’t exactly helping with my clarity.

    “Well Livvie, Russ and I are all friends. But um. Livvie doesn’t know that Russ and I are… closer to each other than to her. So to speak.”

    Oh man it looked like Keagan just wasn’t following. I’d have to go into detail, which was something I didn’t want to do. I never ever wanted to discuss it out loud unless it was to Livvie, and even then I probably wouldn’t do it face to face.

    “Like better friends?”

    I shook my head.

    “No not better friends. Like… um. Russ and are were uh. Involved. Sexually.”

    Keagan almost choked on the last sip of Vodka.
    Like he coughed and everything. All over me.

    Now I smelled like liquor and I was extremely embarrassed.

    I kind of wanted to crawl into a ball and disappear at that moment.

    “Wait wait wait,” Keagan said with disbelief. “You had sex?”

    “With Russ? Yes.”

    Keagan put the bottle down and smiled to himself. I had no idea what was so funny to him.

    “Holy shit. I could have bet money that you were a virgin. I would have lost lots of money. Oh my god I can’t even picture you- oh shit sorry. I’m not judging. I apologize. I’m just very shocked. I thought you were more… conservative.”

    I squinted my eyes at him.

    I wanted to swear at him but I didn’t. I didn’t want to get on his level.

    “Well maybe you shouldn’t judge a book by its cover Keagan. Getting back to the original issue, I trusted Russ. And I understood that he wanted to keep it under wraps. I got that. But after we stopped fooling around we stopped talking for a while. And then I left to come here. But when I talked to Livvie last, she told me he was acting off. I can’t help but think it’s because of me. And I just feel bad. I want to make sure he’s ok, but I can’t tell Livvie without his permission.”

    Keagan bit his lip.

    “If I wasn’t drunk I would so give you better advise. But honestly I’d just let things play out. He wants to keep things secret, let him. He’ll tell Livvie when he’s ready. For now you just have to either talk to him yourself, or get Livvie off his back. If he feels cornered that’s not good. You just got to leave it for now.”

    I didn’t want to that. But it might be my only choice. For once Keagan might have been right.

    “I know, it just hurts me that he’s not acting like himself. If I’m the cause, I want to make it better. He’s my best friend. I thought that we were on the same page with what went on. But I guess not.”

    Keagan put a hand on my shoulder.

    “Sex fucks things up. Especially if he’s the only one you’ve ever slept with, which is what I’m assuming. And vise versa with him. He’s probably feeling like you deserted him and he feels like you don’t care. So just reach out to him, you might be able to solve things without drama.”

    I was now starting to agree with him. Now he was making sense. He was right, and he knew he was right. But how did he know so much about me when I barely said anything? Russ was my first, and my only. And I was his first and his only too. We both knew that, and that’s why we had a special bond that no one understood.

    “But,” he said, continuing. “If you’re not over him that’s a different story.”

    I held out my hand in defense mode.

    “I never said I was into him. We’re friends who had sex, and that’s it. I knew what I was getting myself into-”

    “I was going to say,” Keagan started, interrupting me. “The best way to get over someone is to get under someone else. It’s the cold hard truth. If he was ever into you, that’s probably exactly what he’s doing, or did, or plans to do. That’s probably why he’s acting weird. He doesn’t know how to act.”

    For some reason my blood started to boil.

    I didn’t have feelings for him, but I didn’t want to think of him being intimate with anyone else; even though it was inevitable.

    “So what are you saying?”

    Keagan pushed my hair away from my ear. It was getting so long. I needed to get it cut. I hated it at this length. Or maybe I was thinking about my hair so I didn’t have to think about anything else.

    “I’m saying that maybe you should do the same. You don’t have to go out and sleep with anything that walks. But just… explore. If he’s moving on, so should you. And like you said, you were never into him. It should be easy to let go and let loose.”

    My heart was beating so fast. My palms started to sweat. I felt Keagan’s breath on my cheek and I had no idea what do to.

    A part of me was uncomfortable, but only a small part. The other part of me missed being touched. I missed having hands on my skin, and I missed the feeling of being wanted.

    "K-Keagan-"

    He didn't let me speak,

    He put his hands on my face and he leaned in close. His breath was hot but welcomed. I enjoyed the sweet smell of vodka on his mouth; and I leaned in further to his movements.

    My wind went totally clear when I finally felt his soft lips press against mine. I pressed my lips back against his and closed my eyes. Keagan gripped my hair and began to kiss me harder.

    He kissed me so differently than Russ had.

    Keagan was more confident, more sure.

    I didn't want to compare them, but it was hard not to.

    Keagan moaned in my mouth quietly before he pulled my body down onto his bed. But before I could even set myself up to make the next move, he was completely passed out next to me.

    And I had gone to sleep quite sexually frustrated that night.
    February 20th, 2014 at 10:14pm
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    I hated that I always seemed to run late when I needed to be somewhere. It was definitely a flaw of mine. See if I had all the time in the world to get ready, that’s when I’d finish early and have time to kill; but noo since I have to be finished at a certain time now I’m running late and am not even dressed yet.

    Logan told me to dress nice; but how nice? Nice shirt and jeans nice? Or suit nice? Or somewhere in the middle? What if I was over or under dressed?

    I threw out different outfit combinations on my bed and shook my head. I needed new clothes, I seriously always wore the same thing. The same color scheme. I refused to wear black, it just wasn’t my color. I’ve been told that blues and greens bring out my eyes, so I always was drawn to those colors. Everyone loves a nice compliment now and then, right?

    I sighed and picked up a nice dress shirt, it was light blue with silver stripes. It fit and looked nice, so that’s the one I chose. I wore jeans but I threw on a tie that matched my shirt so it was still fancy.

    Sasha was whining at my door to be let in my room but I just couldn’t let her get her hair all over my nice clothes. I’d open my door and let her in when all my stuff was put away. I felt bad, because I knew she missed me, but not bad enough to let her ruin my clothes.

    When Logan sent me a text saying he was on his way I kind of freaked out. I still needed to do my hair, brush my teeth, and figure out which cologne I wanted to wear. I needed to do three things in 10 minutes. It was damn near impossible but somehow I managed to brush my teeth, style my hair, and smell good all in the amount of time I was given.

    I heard my doorbell ring and I freaked out a little bit more. I had no idea why I was so nervous; maybe because it was our first official date and I wanted everything to be perfect. He was already perfect, so I really had no reason to worry. As long as I was with Logan everything felt right. All was good in the world when I was with him.

    I gave myself a once-over before going downstairs to meet my prince at the door.

    And when I did? My jaw dropped.

    He looked amazing from head to toe. And there was a huge limo waiting for us outside.

    “Oh my god…you look so handsome Logan, Wow. Look at you. And you got a limo? You’re too good to me.” I said as I embraced him in a long tight hug.

    He returned my grasp and pulled away looking at me like I was something special. God he made me feel like I was worth a million bucks.

    “You look even more handsome, Scotty. Your eyes are shining so bright right now I can barely see anything else,” he said nearly beaming, “Come on, let’s get going. We look too stunning to miss our dinner reservations.”

    I smiled and chuckled as he took my hand in mine and led me to the limo.

    I couldn’t help but stare into his eyes the whole ride, he just looked so happy to be with me and that made me feel great inside. He could be with anyone else; Daniel even, but here he was with me and only me. Well the limo driver too but..he didn’t count.

    When we arrived to our destination I gasped. There was no way in hell that he could have known I’ve been dying to go here. It was really hard to get reservations so he had to of pulled strings to get us a table. It was a really fancy Italian place that I always passed by but never had the chance to go into.

    La Bella Ristorante

    “How did you get reservations for here?” I asked a little bit too excitedly. Calm down Scotty jeez.

    He smiled and shrugged his shoulders playfully.

    “I have my ways. Now come my dear, we have a four course meal ahead of us so I hope you’re nice and hungry.”

    My stomach grumbled just thinking about what was in store for it. I don’t think I ever sat for a four course meal; three at the most. He really was too good to me. I didn’t know how I was going to top this. But maybe he didn’t want me to. Maybe he felt guilty for toying with my emotions, sleeping with his best friend, and choosing him over me; and that’s why he’s going so over the top.

    But deep down I knew that wasn’t it. Logan was an amazing guy, one of the most genuinely nice guys I knew. He’d never do something like this out of guilt. This came from his heart and I knew that it did. And I appreciated that more than he could ever know.

    The whole date his eyes were locked on mine, and his hand was placed gently over my hand that was resting on the table. It almost felt like we had done this before. Because it felt so natural. Just being with him felt natural; like it was how it was supposed to be all along.

    And I realized in that moment that I didn’t think I could ever feel this way about another person. Like, when I saw Sasha for the very first time, I knew she would be a part of my life. There was something about her that drew me to her, and that was it. She was mine.

    But Logan was different. This thing that we had going on, it wasn’t instantaneous. It developed. It blossomed and bloomed like a flower in the summer. And I loved it. I learned his tics, his likes and dislikes. I knew a lot about him and he knew a lot about me too. We just sort of got each other in a way that no one else got us.

    It felt really good.

    He leaned over and kissed me as our dessert sat in front of us.

    I could barely fit another bite into my mouth but the strawberry cheesecake that was in front of me looked too good to pass up.

    “Here let me feed you,” Logan said with a grin.

    He was too cute.

    I opened my mouth and let him feed me as much cheesecake as he wanted to, and he let me feed him as well.

    Everything was going so perfectly, I couldn’t believe that this wasn’t a dream or something. I wasn’t imagining anything; I was really on one of the most perfect dates with the man of my dreams.

    But I couldn’t help but feel like he was keeping something from me. There were many times during our night where he had started to say something but then changed his mind and said he forgot, or decided to take a sip of wine instead.

    I figured he was just nervous and brushed it off.

    I forgot all about it once we were back in the limo and on our way back to my house. He held my hand and kissed it gently, which made my heart turn into mush basically.

    He was doing a great job making me fall for him, if that was even his intention. All I knew was that this man had the power to break my heart, but I was trusting him not to.

    He followed me out of the limo and walked me right up to my door.

    I shuffled my feet and blushed.

    “I had a really great time tonight Logan. Thank you so much for making it so special.”

    He smiled at me and pecked me on the cheek.

    “You made it special, Scotty. I hope to do this again sometime. I really do.”

    Once again his mouth opened but no words came out. And then he kissed my lips soft and gentle before he started to walk away.

    I was just about to say ‘wait’ before he turned back and came to me on his own.

    “God Scotty I have been trying to do this all night… you have no idea how nerve wracking this is. But what I’ve been trying to ask you is.. if you will please be my boyfriend. Officially.”

    I was so shocked at his question, it was the last thing I thought he would ask me. I mean, I probably should have seen this coming but I was so involved with him in general that the thought didn't even cross my mind.

    And then I realized I was standing there like an idiot instead of giving him an answer.

    "Of course I will!" I said and wrapped my arms around his neck lovingly.

    I was so happy at that moment.

    "I was hoping you would say that," he said with a huge smile:

    I kissed his forehead.

    "Why don't you come inside Logan?"
    August 15th, 2013 at 05:41pm
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    I'm participating in the Hanover College promotional scholarship to win free textbooks. The person with most points from likes and shares wins. 1 like=1 point and 1 share=2 points. I need all the likes and shares I can get to win.

    So, could you please click the link below and like and/or share my photo to help me win free textbooks?

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    Oh it's okay.
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    NOBODY. LIKES. AUSTIN.
    And trust me. There's gonna be a good reason for that.
    But thank you so much for your kind comment on Invincible!
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    Not a problem. :) And really it wasn't that many. Just a few towards the beginning that I had to re-read a few times before they made sense to me. I'm kinda queen of awkward sentences, so I totally understand. I just thought you might want to know, cause I know I can appreciate helpful comments like that. But yeah, overall, I really enjoyed it. ^^
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    No problem at all. :D It may have been through comment swap, but I was very pleased to read your writing. Comment swap is one of the best ways to find good writers here, I think.
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    Thanks for the comment on Almost! Actually what I didn't like about it was the shortness, so I might continue it.
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    Thank you so much for your comment on After The Party's Done, I was worried for a second that it was bad when I saw the 50 Shades of Grey reference. Because 50 Shades of Grey came as a real disappointment to me. But I'm glad if you liked 50 Shades of Grey and my two-shot lived up to those standards, well that makes me extremely happy!!!! Mr. Green

    I'm glad I got that point across that I wasn't really trying to make either one of them "cheaters"!!!!
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