Hello, hello, Mibba.I was addicted to this site, but it's been years since my last login.I saw this on an old favorites list and for old times' sake, I clicked on it, guessed at my username and password, and read all my old crap.And then it hits me. I've changed, drastically.From freshman to senior year, I've been in a cocoon all this time and I didn't know it.I won't lie - my old profile fills me...

I have given up on the idea of writing a sequel. At least at this present time. Maybe in a few months or so, but right now the chances are, well, slim.Fortunately for those of you who enjoyed HSB, I am instead writing a PREQUEL. Ohh yes. But it's going to end right where HSB began. I'm failing at coming up with a title, but it just might be a Killers song. Romeo and Juliet is my current favorite....

I never realized how valuable time is. Every moment, every day. You don't think about it much - until suddenly, you've lost someone precious to you.You start remembering each day you spent with them, the little things, their mannerisms, the stuff you thought was everyday, but suddenly, it's not.Suddenly you start to think, 'wow, why didn't I do/say this' or 'if I just had a few more days...'Every...

messy, depressed, introverted, feels invisible, does not make friends easily, nihilistic, reveals little about self, fragile, dark, bizarre, feels undesirable, dislikes leadership, reclusive, weird, irritable, frequently second guesses self, unassertive, unsympathetic, low self control, observer, worrying, phobic, suspicious, unproductive, avoidant, negative, bad at saving money, emotionally...

Why do you have to go? ... well, I know, but I don't want you to go.It really kills me that you have to go. All the way to another country...for a month.I'm really gonna miss you.Please don't look at me like that and tell me you'll be back soon. I don't want to hear that. Why can't you just tell them you have to stay? I know you want to go, but there's people here that care about you.Not that I...

My heart and my head have never been friends. But most of the time, my strong emotions get the better of my weak judgement, and I end up making huge mistakes.But the one time I'm trying to save my heart some pain, I need it to shut up and stop fighting.There's some conflicting emotions going on here.I'm so scared of this blowing up in my face...as good as this feels, that's how much it's going to...

Oops. I didn't mean to. But I did.I know I'm going to regret this later, because this was definitely not a good idea.You don't choose when or who to fall in love with... and the person i happened to fall for wasn't the most convenient of people.Yeah, from the title you've pretty much guessed who.And...it's the guitarist in my bandOw...So, I pretty much have no idea what to do about it.I'm screwed....

What a disgusting person. How utterly repulsive. Self-centered, stupid, and you don't even have looks to make up for it. What a waste of oxygen.I hate you. I hate you more than anyone or anything I've ever hated.Fat. Lazy. Even as I say the words, I try to keep back tears.You don't mean to be this way. You didn't ask to be this thing, this utter waste. In the secret hours of the night, you pray...

That was our song. "Your Guardian Angel" by the Red Jumpsuit Apparatus.I promised you I'd be your little angel. I always wanted to be your little angel. To make you smile. That was all I ever wanted.You said that you'd do anything, anything to make me happy. But that was what I'd do for you, too. I would have done anything..You were my hero. I loved you...more than you'll ever know.I was...."was"...

My favorite line in the poem "To Trust", that one that I really prided myself on, was "is love a punishment or a crime?"I think that played a role in my own experiences - maybe why I wrote that line. I used to think love was a crime, something to be ashamed of. Towards the end, I wondered if it was a punishment for something I had done. What had I done to deserve falling in love with a person like...

It wouldn't have been that cold, but for the wind. The rain I could handle. But the wind, it was unbearable...I shuddered and pulled my numb hands inside the sleeves of my hoodie.I waited so long for you. I really did think you'd come this time. That you'd come for me... why did you not come?It wasn't the fact that you left me standing there, it was the fact that you lied to me. About everything....

"The topic of your journal has to be something worthwhile and can't be silly spam. You need to put effort into your journals."This is something that means something to me. Would Mibba call it worthwhile? I don't know...*****************************************************************************I didn't mean to fall in love with you. It was an accident. I should have made sure you were completely...

I'm sorry. But you're too late.Where were you?Were you with her...telling her you loved her? And all those other lies that you're trying to tell me.Where were you when I was contemplating death? Weren't you sitting beside her, telling her everything you told me? Isn't that where you were?I've heard it all before. She told me. She told me everything you said.So before you lie to me...I'm going to...