Dead Puppeteer / Comments

Who about? I've only been able to write one Slash in my life (the Twiggy Ramirez/Fred Sablan one). I can't really get into it though. I wrote it for a contest and received good reviews from Manson fans.

Oh I hate that so much!

That's why I am now typing everything through Microsoft word now. This website always logs me off. You gotta remember to highlight and copy all of your writing before you hit "submit" or else you'll lose it and there's nothing you can do. :/

I wish I could concentrate on writing my story, but I am not wanting to write this chapter for some reason.

Thanks! I've been checking out some of your stories as well, though I admit that I haven't really had time today to start reading one like I would have liked to. I had to get up at 3 am this morning and go into work at 4, after getting no sleep last night because I was sick. Then, when I came home I passed out and slept until the sun went down. :/ I hate days like that where I lose the entire day because of work.

I hardly find anyone on here who knows about Anaal Nathrakh or even British black metal in the first place. I just posted my Shagrath story from Quizilla by request from another friend of mine, and I'm thinking of continuing it after I get done with "Kings shall be Kings" (another black metal themed story), if you are interested.

Not too bad. I overbooked myself for cookie baking this year again. I wish I had more money for music because there's a lot of Bathory I want but I haven't been able to buy anything more than what I've already gotten with my birthday money. And I'm getting a laptop for Christmas, so I know I won't be getting anymore money.

What other bands do you like?

Hey, wow! Someone who likes Bathory on here. Nice to meet you, I'm Nikki. What's up?

If you're curious or Mibba becomes a fuckass you can email me here: astorio.579@gmail.com

I can't disclose that information, or I'll probably get kicked off. LOL
But I can tell you somewhere else if you're that curious.

So, just in case I get kicked off the site, which happens fairly often, you can contact me through my tumblr: idiedinmydreams.tumblr.com

Oh thank the lord that I'm not alone with those. I've also seen rain when it wasn't raining. It was almost as if I was living in a photoshop effect when you render rain into an image. It was strange.
I used to hear these two little girls singing. I was very young then. I haven't been properly diagnosed as schizophrenic, but I wouldn't doubt that I am. It runs in my family. I also was sitting in my room one night and I heard screaming outside. It was a woman screaming as if she were being raped/stabbed. I immediately went to my window to see if I should call the police, but not a soul was to be seen. Ive also had delusions where I completely believed I was on a film set and if I turned round there would be bright lights and camera crews.
Totally got shivers when I read that you heard a girl singing because of what I previously mentioned.
I don't know if I dreamed this as I was coming out of a lucid dream, but I felt this intense pressure on my body as if someone was holding me down, or I was strapped to a bed, and a demon spoke to me. I don't know what it said for I don't remember, but I woke up in a cold sweat. I've also seen someone run at me from my door. I couldn't sleep that night. I've also seen my television come on when it didn't.
On another note of schizophrenia, I'm also incredibly paranoid. I cannot leave my flat without feeling as if someone, somewhere, is going to shoot me, run me down, mug me, kill me for some unknown reason. I also feel as if at any moment someone will break in and murder me. I can't trust people due to the constant paranoia of being killed. Some days I can't leave my flat for fear of this. It's anxiety and paranoia all in one. It's quite frightening.
Due to the fact I cannot be in a car without feeling like I'm dying or will die or am dead, I often wonder if I'm fit for society.
I'm also glad that we're able to discuss this because sometimes even the professionals don't understand and misdiagnose.

Why thank you. Reasons I was in AP English my entire life. I'm good at making arguments and giving advice. I wanted to be a psychologist, but I figured I'm too fucked myself. Haha.
Some people will never understand what one goes through, but one must go through the suffering themselves and shun the others. As I have mentioned previously.
I, too, see things. I always think my door is opening but it never is. The other night I saw a very real figure walk towards me, and it was stranger since I live in my own flat with cats, so I was afraid someone had broken in. I ran into my bathroom to find that the figure dissipated and was, in fact, not real.
I also see light highlighting people and lights trail in noon-day sun. It's odd, but it happens. And I will randomly hear things, but they aren't as frequent as visions.
I have a question: Have you ever felt like you weren't yourself but someone else? I often feel as though I am not myself, not Alex. I sometimes feel like I'm someone famous, or just another guy that isn't me. It's strange and fleeting, but it happens often.
I haven't met anyone who has that problem, and if you don't that's fine, too. Haha.

You're welcome :)

Of course it's hard, but you're still young, whereas I'm not, so I've had time.
There's always time. There will always [i]be[/i] time. Just remember that.
My friends used to laugh when I had seizures.
I found out that I have non-epileptic seizers a couple of years ago (I had always thought it was vertigo, but it wasn't) and in anger I yelled at them, "THESE ARE SEIZURES YOU FUCKERS" and they felt rather guilty for laughing for all of those years.
But if they laugh at you, either flip the fuck out, or just turn and walk away. I know that's probably a corny answer, but sometimes that's the only answer that works.
You must weigh the options in your head in a matter of seconds. Am I close to this person? If they laugh at my very real problems, are they really my friend? Are they worth my time? If they aren't even worth a backlash, leave it be.
I often just leave it be and go about my own way, back to my cats and good music that washes it all away.

This is the second compliment to my profile I've had. Haha. So, thank you.
Oh, you need the luck more than I do. Really. I've had these issues for so long that I've learned to function in society about as normally as you'd expect.
So, my best wishes to you, m'dear.

Maybe switch therapists? :/ I'm sorry. Well, I'm here if you need someone to talk to, lol I'm not a professional or anything though.

I've added you as an author. now all you have to do is click on the open lantern and, add a new chapter on your stories.

Thank you, and I love you're stories! I love the plot and passion you use!

:D Thanks!

Hey Im Jaimie, welcome to mibba, how're you today?

hi :D
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