How stupid have I been? I've broken everything and there is no way to fix it. Why must i write? Why am I the one that had to be born? why not one of my brothers or sisters? Me... I was the one that made it through life. Could i let them down by dying? if they were alive then would they have the same problems as me?Why, why, why... I ask this every day. Why couldn't i die? I hate like. All of it is...