Annoying and/or cruel people are always purposely crawling under your skin just to get a reaction, just to get an angry growl or a teardrop rolling down your cheek, and if they're lucky, a new scar on your body. People who think they're high and mighty laugh at you because you're so different and because they think you don't belong. They make fun of you until your pride is stripped away and all...

As we all know, life is full of troubles. Heartbreaks. Tears and separation. Right now, I'm writing/typing this to get it off my chest... I would say out of my mind, but that won't happen any time soon. Family friends. We all have them... Mostly, I guess. Even if they're only friends with your mom and your dad. Well... My mom ha[s/d] a friend named Sheena. I met her and we clicked instantaneously....

This week has been horrible. Dear lord. I'm horrible. I have to punish myself for a few things, but I won't say how. All I'll say is that I deserve a million times worse. I'm the worst girlfriend on the planet. I just hope what I want to happen happens. I know I'll never do it again. I love her so much... So, so very much. My friends are telling me to be careful, but they know I'm not going to be....

So, everything's been going down hill lately. Kristen broke up with me. She was lying to me the whole time. Nobody even warned me, but everyone knew. I might fail freshman year, which I really hope I don't. I don't think I'd be able to survive. I've been having really bad urges, but I haven't acted on them. I'm kind of proud of myself for that, but the pain outweighs the pride. My mom has been...

I'm becoming depressed yet again, but that's no surprise, is it? The same girl, the same problems. I'm half Akers, and the Akers have a curse. A jealousy curse. There's a guy I've liked for a while, before I even talked to my girlfriend. I kind of love him. And he flirts around a lot. Even though he has a boyfriend. And it drives me crazy to see it. So crazy that I've been so depressed lately that...

My best friends are here.They're getting wasted.Soon they won't even know what's going on.They'll be oblivious to their surroundings.And tomorrow, they won't remember a thing that happened tonight.I'm not crying yet, but I probably will be soon.I'm hiding in my room, because I don't want to see it.One turns into a total douche when he's drunk.If him and her fight, I'll end up bawling.I regret...

Is this what my life is going to be like from now on? Full of pain, depression, anger? Tears, break downs, and words on paper? I guess so. It hurts to breathe again. It hurts to smile again. I'm wearing a mask again. It's a new mask. It falters sometimes. It did today. In public. I don't want to try anymore. It'd be so much easier to give up.This translates into,Heart broken. I was angry. I was...

No more. Please, just let everything be over. My life is hell. I'm getting weaker. Every day, I'm getting weaker. I can't go back to day zero, because I told the girl I love that I'd try to stop. And I don't want to disappoint her. But everything just hurts. People are lying to me. Abandoning me. Forgetting about me. I'm becoming more invisible by the second, and I'm starting to wonder when I'll...

Who would care if I died?Sometimes I wonder.I'm already half dead anyway...I feel dead, or like dying.Depressed, sad, sometimes too sad to function.Staring into nothingness, my mind sometimes a void, sometimes a rotten hole filled with 'what ifs' and 'whys'.Crying without even realizing it until someone else tells me.Wanting to see blood.My own blood.Wanting to just crawl under a rock and...

"As of right now, I don't like anyone, I just need to fix everything in my life before I try and date someone."As soon as I read those words, I broke. Something in me switched off, and something else switched on. The tears that filled my eyes leaked out, and made their way slowly down my face, dripping off my chin. I was mortified. I am mortified. I swear I think I heard my heart shatter. It...

I wanna die. I wanna die. I wanna die. I wanna die. I wanna die. I wanna die. I wanna die. I wanna die. I wanna die. I wanna die. I wanna die. I wanna die. I wanna die. I wanna die. I wanna die. I wanna die. I wanna die. I wanna die. I wanna die. I wanna die. I wanna die. I wanna die. I wanna die. I wanna die. I wanna die. I wanna die. I wanna die. I wanna die. I wanna die. I wanna die. I wanna...

Amber is moving.Back to Texas.And I'll probably never get to see her again.I don't want her to leave.I'd thought about this possibility, but I didn't think it'd actually happen.I'm going insane.Like, today,I held her bag, and she's like,"Thank you, my love."And I wanted to cry.And then at the end of the day,Erica and I were talking about what her girlfriend said.And she said,"She's pissed me off,...

So, my mom's best friend, Sheena, came over today. She's 24. And I like her. A whole lot. But she has a boyfriend, and a girlfriend, (and if you're wondering, no, they don't mind at all, they get along great), and I'm 15. Friday, she promised she'd cuddle with me all night. And now she's here. Asleep. On the love seat. Cuddled up to her boyfriend. And, the first night we started to get close, we...

Well,You're my big cuddly teddy bear.<3I lovelovelovelovelove you!You've always been here for me when I needed someone,And by God, You still are.You get me,No matter what it is,You always know what I'm going through.You always talk to me,And you've made me smile when I've been so rediculously down.We always tend to cheer the other up,And to be truthful,You've helped me a lot more than most...

Hello, my love.Well, at least,That's how I like to think of you.Even though there's not even a 0000000000000.000000000000001 chance of it happening.If I could,If you would let me...I would love you.More than I already do,If that's even possible.I would hold you,And hug you,And kiss you,And when you came over we could cuddle up together,Because I'm not like your current... Lover.I wouldn't ever...

I slide down the wall, iPod in hand. I look at my wrist, where her name is written in marker. I dig my iPod into my wrist and make it bite as hard as it can, and her name becomes lighter. Tears run down my face as I mouth the words 'I'm lost without you.' A teacher walks in and asks if I'm okay. 'Not really,' I say. My teacher knows where I am, yes, so she leaves. I let out a sigh, and more tears....

They kiss. He wraps his arms around her. She motions for him to leave. When he's gone, she comes to me.(No, this is the day before valentines day, so the last one was on the twelfth of Feb. The next one is valentines day. The day before I overdosed. If you're interested, a poem comes before the next journal entry in my notebook. It's called 'Valentines Day'. Yeah. So, a little insight on how much...

I see her face, she holds out her hand, and I drop the stick of eyeliner. She puts it on, hands it back to me, and leaves. A minute later she comes back. She's just standing in the bathroom stall. I worry about what she's doing. Cutting, bleeding, crying, fleeing, from her heart breaking life, her pain, her memories will never fade. Every day she's with him, it seems like he's doing something I...

I've been crying for a while now, on and off. I made a video about her. I think I'm obsessing. Well, I really can't help myself. I mean, we've done almost everything in the book, and she expects me to forget all of that? She would say, 'forever and always, babe.' Turns out she's no good at making promises. Breaking them seems to be her strong point, along with lying. For example, when we were...

As these tears run down my face, my heart stops beating. My blood runs cold. With fire in my veins, I struggle through this challenge called life. When the ice drips down my arms, I feel at home, but I can't ever do it again. I promised. I swore. The pain of abandonment feels so unreal, it's like I'm in a different world. I go to sleep with tears in my eyes and wake up the next morning with a wet...