I'm sorry I've been distant lately, sometimes I just get stuck inside my own head. I think about the past and where I am today. I think about the situations and every possible out come. I think about moving back in with my family and I have to remind myself that I'm not a failure for it. I have to repeatedly tell myself my family doesn't see it as a burden. I think about what will happen if I get...

So I really hope none of you waste your time reading this. I've been a massive fucking wreck this last week. I have this playlist I made of just a couple songs.. All Angel No Wings by To Be Juliet's Secret, I Lost Her by Brighten, Please Don't Say You Love Me by Gabrielle Aplin, Children Of Divorce by Johnny Criag, and Trust Me by The Fray. That's my playlist. The one that I always listen to. The...

Just need to vent.I love music, it's what keeps me barely sane. But lately I can't seem to stop thiinking of you in every single song I hear. You are always there. Almost every song, and I just can't take it. All the music on my iPod makes me think of you, and the radio? Even worse. It's like someone enjoys seeing me squirm and wanna die everyday. I miss you so dang much. It's almost unbelievable....