I'm worried that I won't be able to get a job.. I'm 20, jobless, and living with my parents. Living with my parents doesn't bother me, but being jobless makes me a leach. I'm not contributing anything to help the family besides do the dishes, or clean the house, or small stuff like that. on top of that, I am a part of three bands: two concert bands, and a civil war reenactment brass band. the...

It's amazing how opening up to friends and family and truly have a heart-to-heart conversation about your feelings, as well as goals and expectations in life. It's really hard to open up and talk about feelings you have towards another, as well as your goals towards family knowing how they will be affected by them, but the results are more amazing and motivating than I have ever thought.I have...

I am standing at one of the most important fork in the road of my life and I don't know which way to go.. While I'm closer to one path, the other looks just as appealing. I am split between these two paths and I don't know which one to take... Each path represents a destination I would love to go to. One path leads to me moving to Durango, Colorado, and the other to Christchurch, New Zealand. Both...

Here I am, home alone. It's that time again when everyone but me is out doing things and I'm stuck here with no one to talk to. I don't like being alone..I get a strange feeling in my gut when I think about being alone. It's like a combination of feeling nervous butterflies and excited butterflies in your stomach. it's funny how being alone makes you feel, think and do things. As I think about it,...

In light of a recent event, I'm starting to realize that I have a knack for saying the wrong thing at the wrong time pissing off whomever I'm talking to, specifically a woman of interest.. Whether it's because if inconsideration, a misunderstanding, or just not thinking at all, something flies out of my mouth and pisses someone off something fierce to the point of no communication. I feel like a...

Sorry for the cheesy rip off Star Wars title, but hey, this is a new hope!So tonight was the Fall Concert for one of the concert bands that I goto. Now, it's only a community band, so it's not the most steller, but hey, it's still a band that plays decently. As for tonights concert..myeh..we've had better ones, but I received a complement about my timpani playing that I consider to be a very good...

It's Thursday night, which means that I have been out to Palm Desert and back to go to a rehearsal for a concert band, which is by far the best one I've been a part of, but that also means that I come home to an empty house. Nothing in the world like coming home to a dark house, except the ones that are on in the entry way, and being the only one awake in the house. This is the only thing I...

Tonight was concert band, which went pretty dang swell with the exception of one thing: A friend of mine, whom I just happened to have a crush on, was very depressed. Usually when it comes to be break time for the band to rest their chops (band term for resting their vital parts to play their instrument) she comes over and we chit-chat. But today, she placed her horn down and stood in a corner...

I will never forget where I was, and what had happened on that day....I was 11 years old and still in elementary school when 9/11 happened. I remember waking up to what seemed to be the usual morning line-up: Me and my brother wake up around 7:00am to eat breakfast, and then promptly get ready for school. Though as we were finishing our breakfasts, and dad suddenly yells, "WHAT?!?!?!?!" We all ask...

Well here we are again. This time it's not really about wanting to be with someone, like a relationship, but I am feeling deprived of human contact. I just have the need to do something with someone right now instead of being cooped up in this damn house doing nothing until I fall asleep in 3-4 hours.Driving at night usually helps me in more ways than one, but I for one think it's too early to go...

Well, tomorrow is my first real interview for a job. My thoughts? Everywhere, lost, clueless, and overall thinking too much. I am thinking about this interview so much that I have a small headache from it all.One of the problems I'm thinking of is how do I respond to personal questions? I DO NOT talk about myself in anyways, even if it's just to a friend that wants to get to know me better. I...

Another thing I've been thinking about, is if I can tell the difference between a good friendship, and love and if I even have the mindset, and the quirks to have a girlfriend.. And I question that acquisition based off of a few events:I am a band geek firstoff. I am a Timpanist/percussionist and play the timps quite swell. With that out of the way, onwards with the stories. The first case was in...

I don't know why, but starting last night I feel lonely and it's really getting me down.I think one of the things that started it was a decline to my invitation to go see the meteor shower with me because something had happened to her that ruined her day, which happened to be her birthday. I texted her that if she needs anything at all that I will do the best I can to help. A couple of days later,...

I'm actually very relieved to be home and alive tonight. Tonight I did the stupidest thing I've done in my life.Tonight was Concert Band at the college, and I was planning to be there at about 6:40 so I have time to set up my timpani, and the rest of the percussion section, which is just habit since the other drummer is going into his mid-eighties and has trouble moving the heavy percussion and...