Hey! Sorry, I know it has been about a month since i have posted anything on here. I have been busy. I took a class the entire month of june and into july and it was every day from 8 to 4. Then I went on vacation.So this week has had two important dates. The first one being on monday, it was two months with my darling. Things are going a lot better than before and i think its because we are both...

When I was little my mom always told me not to get water on my stomach while washing dishes or I'll end up marrying a drunk. This is what her mother told her, and her mother told her.Sadly, my mom didn't listen very well. She always scolded me when i did. She would say she doesn't want me to end up like her. Her marrying a drunk made her believe this silly superstition. Thats because it became all...

People keep asking me what I want to do after highschool. And I hate it. Not because I dont know. But because I'm expected to know. We're all expect to know. I feel like it has to be worse for the seniors because in may they have to ask permission to go to the bathroom. Then in august they are supposed to know exactly what they want from life. What they want to do and who they want to be.And see....

Okay. so im hella a head in my publication class so im blogging.This is something that had come up the other day and I have been thinking about since so im putting my opinion out there.So there is this person that i know of who was born a she, but is really a guy. And i am really proud of him for accepting that! well anyway. He had a girlfriend before he made the decision to have the gender change...

So life...Yeah..life finally seems to be going pretty decent for me, well at least it has been for the past few months. It is really nice.A big part of it is school. I was ubber stressed out with all things school last semester and i thought i was going to be this on too..but i'm not. I dropped calc after two days and compared to Honors English III, APUSH is a breeze. I can go home at night and...

I've gotten better but worse since I've gotten back from the pavilion. Better in the sense that I'm sort of more able to deal with mom. My temper is more in check. But worse because sence I have been back I've started to fall back into selfharm. That's not it either. I can't be alone. And if I am I have to be Texting someone or thoughts take over and I start to collapse mentally. I'm better about...

So instead of sleeping I have been awake thinking. And it started to scare me. Have you ever just sat and thought about have everyone else thinks? Everyone has thoughts just like you do. Everyone has friends and families. Everyone feels pain. It isnt just you. They have opinois of people. I just think it is really scary to think about. Everyone will have their first kiss. People fall in love....

So about this english paper. It is turning out to be a lot of work and research and i am so stressed out. So what am i doing instead of doing the artical reviews? i am here. On mibba. Because my head hurts and i can never focus in school. ever. Like really. But i like the topic so it makes it more tolerable. Im doing it one the gay rights movement in the US. How it has progressed and how the...

Something I have learned is that people Just want something from you. They always want something. And when they get it and they decide that They are done with You they stab you in the back and throw you out leaving you to die. Then it's up to you to pick your self back up pull three knife out and keep going. Don't depend on anyone. Don't let b them be your soul source of happiness. I did that...

So yeah, life had kinda sucked the last couple of weeks. Me and mom have been getting into it a lot. And by a lot i mean there is like a screaming match every day. And its always over the same thing. Me being gay. Some how every argument get lead to that. Oh, i want to wear basketball short? not okay because im trying to be a guy. uhmmm no. they are comfy. I get my lip pierced? its clearly a thing...

Quick update on how life is going. Ermm well me and mom have been getting into it alot. and i mean a lot a lot. but nothing that new.I Got a new phone and number, paying for my own shit now. If you needed or want a texting buddy message me up, love talking. Also im hoping with the new number that i will stop getting messages from people that just need to leave me alone so thats good! also i now i...

So i just put this on my tumblr. i have been seeing so much hate from anons on tumblr and ask it makes me sick. sooo i write this and i'm posting it everywhereeeWho the hell are you to sit behind a computer screen, go on anon, and tell someone to kill themselves to cut their wrists that they are no good that they are worthless. who the fuck are you to to that? you know what that makes you? a...

A warm hug means the most to me these days. It can brighten my whole day and give me a little feeling of happiness. Which for me is very rare. Most people say that they want money and a lot of friends and that would make them happy. But i dont want that. It doesnt mean anything to me. I dont need a lot of people to be around. One person who will be there when i need them and i will be there for...

Okay..so this is basically just a rant about all the different things that bother me. A lot of them are just small things but still annoying.So here we go, first off I hate when people are insensitive to other people when they are hurting. I can be at work and a kid will be crying and I will set them on my lap(if they are little) and comfort them. I will just let them cry and talk to them and rub...

I used to think that I would never want to have kids. The main reason was that I was afraid I would turn into the kind of mom mine is. But then I realized I'm nothing like her. I don't put other people down to make myself feel better. And I definitely wouldn't do that to my own kids like she does.A big thing that has made me realize I want kids is working at the boys and girls club. I was sitting...

I really think that everyone one comes into your life for a reason. I sit here and I think of all the people who have come and gone in my life. I can see all the things they have done for me know my life. Each person has come into my life for a reason.The first person that comes to mind is my camp leader from a couple years ago. After camp I never talked to her. But in March when my life fell...

Okay...well I have never posted a blog before..ekk..ha..well I have a lot on my mind and thought I would put it down somewhere to see if it helps clear things up..someone please tell me if I'm doing this wrong, because I would like to know, because I really have no clue.Well anyway...I just, I really don't know what to do. I'm so confused. I love her, and I always will. I want so badly to be with...