I hate apologizing!

No one ever fucking accepts my apologies even when they are 100% genuine, sincere, UGH like what am I supposed to do when I messed up? Aside from explain myself, admit I was wrong, explain what was going on when I fucked up, what my thought process was, and ultimately apologize. What the fuck else.I hate apologizing and I hate when no one even considers accepting it. I'm not asking to forgive and...
January 8th, 2013 at 06:38am

I hate myself lol

I hate myself. Like everything about myself and everything everyone ever thinks about me. I hate my family. I hate my life majority of the time.Not long ago I was so good at hiding all this, I could be the most positive person and always view everything as the glass being half full. Now all I do is cry and bitch and moan about everything. Everything is falling apart though. Everything that I...
January 2nd, 2013 at 06:46pm

Because now I feel nostalgic: blog of pictures.

I don't think it's a secret to anyone how much I change my hair color. I was looking through old pictures and I realized I really will miss 2012. I wasn't gonna do any nostalgic blogs but I feel obligated to now.This obviously isn't in any order but this is a timeline of my hair from late 2011 to 2012, and a few days ago.I've had so many other colors too lol. The most recent is the red where my...
January 2nd, 2013 at 05:45am

Is this a legit reason to break up with my boyfriend or.

If anyone is actually interested in this read my last blog for actual details ugh I'm not gonna relay it all in this.He sent me so many fucking pictures from the party.Then he sent me a picture of him and that fucking girl that was the whole reason I didn't go to the party! Who fucking does that! I'm so pissed off it's not even funny. He didn't text me all last night, he didn't call me and say...
January 1st, 2013 at 07:16pm

Skyrim and boyfriend problems.

Like I said in my last blog, my boyfriend is a fucking asshole so I'm spending New Year's Eve alone.I'm playing Skyrim now because I'm sick of Twilight Zone. My question is what race I should play as. I played as Khajiit once but I really don't like how they look. I'm considering High Elf or Breton. Which race do you like better? Also who is your favorite follower? I had Mjoll once and she was a...
January 1st, 2013 at 03:54am

So much for a good New Years Eve spent with my boyfriend.

I don't think I really said much about Ryan on here, not that people regularly read my blog or anything but he's my boyfriend as of not long ago. We were gonna go to Siobhan's party but this girl I can't fucking stand is gonna be there. Siobhan's guy friend is dating her and she felt bad saying no she can't come to whatever. It pissed me off but it's her party I can't say much. But I told her I'm...
January 1st, 2013 at 12:22am

New Year Resolution, fat, and pictures.

My New Year Resolution is different from most people's. I don't want to lose weight or anything. I want to cut myself off completely from my mom, like get her the fuck out of my life for good. I'm done with her.A less serious one is to eat healthier. I don't care to lose weight but I feel better about myself when I eat better. I've been eating like shit the past few months and I feel awful.Me and...
December 30th, 2012 at 04:17pm

Christmas.

Christmas is so stressful. I have so much to do and I don't know where to start. The things that I know I should do and how to do them, I can't do. The things that I don't really need to but I think may be a good idea to are two people jobs and I'm alone.I legit just finished shopping today for groceries and whatnot and finally finished cooking but there are still some last minute things I need to...
December 24th, 2012 at 03:45am

Fat

I feel so much more comfortable when I'm naked or just in a bra and underwear. I hate my body in clothes, they all make me feel so fat. Fitted, loose, and baggy clothes. I'm only totally comfortable when I'm not wearing any.I was talking to my friend about this and she's the same way so at least I know I'm not the only one lol but some people think it's extremely strange. I don't even really like...
December 5th, 2012 at 10:05pm

I don't know if this is considered too inappropriate for Mibba but..

Anal.Why? I just..no.You can look at my butt.You can touch my butt.You can even kiss my butt.Put your penis ANYWHERE NEAR my butt and so help me I will rip that damn thing off.It grosses me out to no end. Only with women though. Gay sex doesn't bother me. I mean I don't read slash because it just doesn't tickle my fancy. Women though..we have vaginas that are just as accessible if not MORE...
November 15th, 2012 at 07:47am

Can someone please tell me what's wrong with my face.

I know I can make some ugly faces but it's pretty upsetting when your friend constantly laughs and says "YOUR FAAAACE". I don't mean to make faces all the time. I try not to take it personally but it gets old after a while lmfao.Clearly I am capable of making some HORRIBLE faces. But those were all on purpose. When I'm put off by something and just making very subtle faces but people have these...
November 15th, 2012 at 12:14am

Story idea, annoyance, and does this make me a bad friend?

I already know this doesn't make me a bad friend but I need to vent as usual.I hate Christmas shopping. I hate it. Last year I spent $1200 on people and not for nothing but they weren't all that thankful. I get DAMN good gifts too. Siobhan, Chris and Jaykob are my best friends okay? I got Siobhan a bag she wanted really bad that was $220 and an obscene giftcard for Victoria's Secret on top of that...
November 13th, 2012 at 03:34am

Dreams and scary wake up calls.

You all know Reptar right? From Rugrats? The green dinosaur thing. Well he scares me. Like a lot. I don't have any weird fear of dinosaurs or anything but Reptar always scared the shit out of me when I would watch Rugrats.I had a dream last night that I had just woken up. I was getting out of bed and was heading for the bathroom and when I looked in the mirror, which takes up the length of one...
November 12th, 2012 at 03:32pm

I made a Twitter.

Halp. I've fallen and I can't get up!Follow me on Twitter and let me follow you too. I don't know what to do on it except look through other people's. And I've drawn a blank on what artists and celebrities I like so I can't even search many lmfao.I've had the best night tonight. I can't stop thinking about it. SGJKHSLGH.http://twitter.com/biablueeI guess I made it a while ago but never like....
November 12th, 2012 at 06:19am

MURHUR

I'm so bored. I've been awake since 4am and I just cannot sleep. It's about noon time now. I haven't had any coffee or anything caffeinated lately so I don't know what's keeping me up.I had such a great night last night though. I needed it. I've been in such a shit mood lately to the point where I couldn't even eat because I'd just throw up. I've been at my friend's for the past couple of days...
November 10th, 2012 at 06:14pm

Why is it considered weird to have friends online?

Honestly. I spent all last night texting Ashlynn who I met on here and I can trust her more than I can trust anyone I know 'in real life.'I live on and off with my closest 'real life' friend Jaykob and last night Ashlynn and me talked a little about how people shit on the idea of knowing and befriending someone you haven't even physically met in person. Jaykob knows I talk to some people online...
November 9th, 2012 at 09:11pm

Don't put a security system on my house.

It will get destroyed. End of story.My mom is actually considering finalizing her and my dad's divorce to marry her shithead of a boyfriend. Like her and my dad are split up right now but not legitimately divorced. She wants to marry this guy though and he's HORRIBLE. I fucking hate them both honestly. And when she asked me if she could marry him I said no absolutely not and she said too fucking...
November 9th, 2012 at 02:49am

Crying crying crying

CRYINGNot because Obama wonNot because America is a beautiful countryNot because of that beautiful picture Obama posted of him and his wife huggingBUTBECAUSEROMNEYLOSTI'M SO HAPPY HE LOST. Romney needs to just fall off the earth. No not really but he's not fit to be president. Not after what he did to Massachusetts, not after all the lies he told, not after he chose the most ridiculously extreme...
November 7th, 2012 at 06:12am

When you're so angry you want to cry.

Legit the worst feeling ever. I'm always SO fucking angry when I'm at my mom's house. I hate her so much, I hate her boyfriend just as much, and my brother's just annoying whenever I see him. Everything about being here makes me so mad and I just feel sick to my stomach. I can't eat because I ALWAYS throw up. I can't wait to go back to Jaykob's. I wish I could afford to officially move in there. I...
November 6th, 2012 at 02:52am

1D vs SS and all that stuff.

Literally so sick of seeing this. I don't care who you are or what music you like. Mitch Lucker is DEAD and to insult his fanbase is annoying yes but to insult his FAMILY, friends, band, and the dead man himself is just straight up fucked.I know it started with a One Direction fan(s). But seriously. Not everyone who likes One Direction hates Mitch or is as fucked up as that person/those people who...
November 5th, 2012 at 04:20am