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I've been here and there...

Wow. Who is the (un)lucky star of your daydreams? They must be extra douchey to warrant such prolonged attention.

Sure, I've been maiming. Mostly only myself but that still counts right? I've just been working and trying to get through my crippling writers' block. The last couple of months have been lame and interesting at the same time. Its been weird.

My dear, psychotic Seven! How have you been?

This is the third fucking time I'm tryin to write this. Fuck. lol. Third time's a charm, right? lol. But seriously, mibba needs to stop making me feel like I'm crazy. I feel like that enough. I don't need it's help. lol.

I get that. You can't give all the time. You'll eventually get totally wore out, and to the point where you don't want to do it anymore. I don't blame you for reaching that point. My mom does it, all the time. But it's just not in me to do the same.

What Sarah doesn't understand is that you can be as careless as you want. You don't have the responsibility that she should have. I'm not saying you're being careless, but I'm saying that you have the right to be. If you wanted to.

I tend to agree with you. If someone is safe about it, they should do whatever they want. I think she just flips out about it randomly because she's jealous that she can't do it anymore, or maybe that she thinks I'll wind up just like her. What she needs to realize is that I am NOT her. Never will be. The whole white-picket fence and 2.5 kids has always been her dream, not mine. I don't even think I want children.

At least Ricky is learning. That has to show for something. lol.

New years eve, I went out for a little bit, then came home to get totally trashed with Lexi, because Rylee was at her dad's for the weekend. She didn't really have anyone else to drink with, and she asked me to, so I said that was fine. There wasn't that much going on any way. Besides a few parties, but they didn't seem that fantastic. As for new years day, I was mainly hung over. lol. Then of course, Matt texted me and asked me if I was still going to his party that I had totally forgotten about. I told him I'd work on moving, and that was that. lol. I think I ended up showing up about an hour late from when I told him I'd be there, and still hung over. He asked me where the hell I'd been. I asked him who he thought he was, my father. That kind of thing. I tried not to drink though. It didn't last long. lol. Matt kept putting his drink really close to me. Then handed it to me, because I wouldn't drink it. I refused to get my own. lol. So things like that basically. How about you? Anything exciting? lol.

I swear to god I replied..... Or maybe I just thought about replying? I'm not sure. lol.

Haha, very practical. I'm sure I'll be wearing black too. XP.

I get why you were angry with him. You guys are his blood. That should mean something. What's wrong with people these days, I'll never know.

Yeah, I get that. That's why I usually only drink around people that I trust won't let me do something too stupid. I mean, I'll do stupid things, but nothing life threatening. Which would be something I would probably do. lol.

You're right. My sister and I have gotten into it about my drinking. I think it mainly comes from her jealousy that she can't do it because of Rylee. It's time for Sarah to grow up.

As for Justin, he sounds like a class A fucker. I'll be more then happy to help. XP. Paying someone to let you suck them off? FUCK. lol. That is so fucked. Ricky doesn't get it, which is even worse.

Well that's not good! How'd you manage that?
Mine was pretty good. We spent Christmas eve with our moms and spent Christmas with his dad's side of the family. I got to meet all of the rest of his family on his dad's side. They were all pretty nice. :]

._. That would be odd. I don't blame you for being freaked out. Whatever it is tapping on the window should be shot in the face.. yes, lol. With a shotgun! :D
Anyways, I'm pretty good. How're you? Did you have a good Christmas? :]

I know what you mean, lol. I hope that time comes when it's right and that you accept it when it does. :]
My husband and I do too which is probably why I like it, lol. You just learn more about a person that way, yah know?
So how're you today?

I was like that at one time. Maybe not to that extent but I never imagined I'd get married. Let alone want to because I'd always considered marriage more trouble then anything else. But when I met Nate it was just.. different. It just felt.. right?
I like rambling spells, lol. Aww, thanks! :D

I just didn't think it sounded right, lol. Believe me I'm VERY stubborn and he knows it. XD
Okie dokie. :D

I am very happy. :]
Yeah, it's weird. I did kinda want to keep my last name but at the same time I wanted his name. But Urbina and Pryor don't go together, lol. So it's just Pryor now.
I sent you a friends request. I have a whole album of wedding pictures. :D

It was a lot prettier then I thought we could make it in the time we had, yah know? I was beyond happy. I still am. He makes me super happy. :] It's just weird having a different name now, lol. Like.. when I have to sign my name I still want to sign my name and not my 'new' name. XD Do you have Facebook?

Haha, I would have loved to see his face. Are there pictures? lol. If he thinks he can change you by giving you disrespect, he's truely barking up the wrong tree. If it makes you feel any better, you can show up at my wedding wearing black. Fuck if I care if it's a dress or not. He's lucky you showed up at all, you know? He shouldn't be focused on what you're wearing.

Honestly, I can't say that I was ever a habitual weed smoker. I've tried it, but it just wasn't that great, to me. One of my friends used to be with me, but now that's all she does. Not that I mind. As long as she doesn't get into harder shit, and it doesn't consume her life, I say whatever makes her happy. As long as she doesn't get on my ass about drinking, I'll leave her along about smoking. You know? As for Sarah, it sounds like she's letting whatever she's into consume her. It's not healthy and she should get some help. Or get some sense beat into her. One of the two. lol. I would think that if I had a child, and he or she hated me, that would be a wake up call for me. Has she always been this way? Or is it just recently?

Justin needs to get the fuck beat out of him. I don't even know him, but I'll do it. XP. So if you and Raine want some help... You know where to find me. XP. I'll come down and help. Okay. Who's Ricky? And what do you mean bribe? I have a feeling this is a lot more twisted then I'm thinking it is. Haha, I know you have a shovel, and to be completely honest, I don't even know if I have a shovel. But I want a peice of this particular pie too. XP. Sharing is caring after all.

I'm great. :D
Married now, woo!

Heeeeeeeeey, how are you? :]

Gotcha. My grand mother is like that. Which is exactly why we don't talk all that much.

As for Sarah, to me it sounds like she should go to rehab or something. Don't get me wrong, I'm all drunken stupidity, and partying and 'living life'. However, to me it sounds like she's taking it way too far. It sounds to me like she needs to grow up, if not for herself, for her kids. She shouldn't be throwing around killing herself so lightly. I don't blame you at all for being upset with her. You have every right to be, especially for what you've been through. You know? And I'm sorry, but I have to ask this. Who's the little shit head who's been sucking her husband's cock? Why do I feel like I'm missing something? lol. If I didn't feel that this shit head deserved whatever it was that will unevitably happen to him, I would feel bad for the world of hurt you're going to put him through. I have a shovel, just saying. =]

Haha, No doubt in my mind.

I think it was the second thing I learned about you. First being the pure awesomeness of your violent tendencies. lol. As long as you promise.... lol

I get what you mean. Why are you guys fighting? If you don't mind me asking. If you don't want to talk about it, It's all good. I understand. They should understand that though, and care a little more. I mean, they should honestly consider themselves lucky to have someone like you in their life. It's not everyday you meet someone who would die for you, you know?

I figured you would. XP. As long as you know the consequences going into it, I say do it at your own risk.

Do you know what would happen if you take it apart? You would BREAK it. Which is something we're trying to avoid, correct? XP. And yes, I keep reminding you not to break it, hoping that by some miracle, you won't. XP. And yes, yes I do know. lol.

It does. I'm thinking I'll have to play this game. Honestly. I can't believe I haven't played it sooner. XP. My sister and I used to have really bad ones, but ever since Rylee was born, we didn't really do it anymore. Though I will say that we did get into a really bad one a couple weeks after. What it was about, I'm not sure. XP. And yes, she should have known better. It's the most obvious thing about me. Jeez. And I don't blame you. Everyone has thought of it once or twice. Whether or not they carry out with it, that's a different story. Though, something tells me you would wake me up. XP not that I blame you. lol.

Yeah, I would definately try and fix it that way. A can of air is cheaper and probably easier. XP. I'm all for the easiest way possible. And yeah, think of it as a challenge. That's how I would look at it. Don't break it. That'll just cause you more problems. XP

I'm so irritated at myself that I missed that oppurtunity. It's okay, I'll just hit them the next time I see them. When they ask why, I'll hit them again. It'll be a game. XP. And I get what you mean. It's like there's a neon sign above you that says 'bug the shit out of me' when you just want people to leave you alone. I pity the fools that decide it's a good idea. lol. Wait, no I don't. lol. Haha, yeah I get what you mean about your dad. I try and steer clear of fighting with family members. Except I did hit my mom last night. But it was only on the arm, and she woke me up. I didn't even think, just swung. I apologized, even though I was still pissed. lol.

lol. I bet it does. lol. Then don't think of it like a stress reliever. Think of it as.... well, I'm out of ideas. lol. When are you getting it fixed?

Hahaa, yeah. I'm getting so close to just punching someone for looking at me weird. lol. God knows I get enough of those looks. lol. Maybe I'll just snap. lol. Sounds like fun. I did tackle one of my friends into the snow last night. She was bending over and picking up a snow ball, so I casually walked over to her and just pushed her over. Twice. You would have thought she would have known it was coming. lol. Then of course, the two guys I was hanging out with decided that they would pick on the short one, and throw me into the snow. I should have taken that oppurtunity now that I think of it. Damn.

Haha. Wow. You're doing well with what you're working with. And just think of it as another stress reliever. Just don't break it any more. lol. That's my only warning.

Hahaa, very true. I was shocked I was the first comment. I figured some dumbass would have gone before me. lol. I thought about just leaving the "nice story..." bit but there was more I wanted to say. lol. Let's be honest, if anyone can ramble, it's me. lol.

Hahaa, that's true. lol. I think that I'm losing my violent tendencies. I haven't actually full on kicked someone's ass in months, it feels like. Jeez. I need to start drinking vodka more. That makes me more bitchy. Which in turn, makes me more violent. lol. I've punched, and kicked a few times, but not actually kicked someone's ass. lol. Now I'm itching for it. lol.


Hahaa, don't worry about it. I had to go back and look at what you were talking about. lol. It took me a little longer then usual to find it. lol. I'll blame it on the beer. lol. Just because.