I've found myself in a dark place. I feel so.. weak. So helpless. I can feel myself being drained of anything and everything good or happy. I'm drowning in my own tears. I'm trapped. I have to force myself just to get out of bed in the morning. No, I try and try but my body doesn't give in until after noon. I can't eat. I don't feel the cravings anymore, which sadly is a relief. I feel the urge...

I feel like I'm drowning in my own tears.

I am currently 16 years old, I weigh 130, I'm almost 5'5, and I am completely unsatisfied with my body. I don't have an eating dissorder other than BED, which is eating to make you feel better when you are depressed. I'm a curvy girl. I am large chested (34 D- 32 DD) I have a small waste, and then big hips and thighs. I hate it. I have an "hourglass figure" which I know everyone says is the most...