Does it really seem that bad?

I'm 18 years old... I'm about to finish my very first semester of college... I'm just barely starting out in this world and taking care of myself. My boyfriend keeps saying the word "forever." Normally, I guess girls would be excited and happy, but I'm gettin' kinda worried. It kinda freaks me out. I don't even know what I'm going to be doing tomorrow, let alone twenty years from now. I'm not sure...
December 11th, 2011 at 04:40am

In Memory of James Thomas Squires

I found out what happened Tuesday morning. Your mom apologized for me having to find out on from Facebook. You've been on my mind since you called to go get that stupid bike. I don't know why I shut myself off when you called me... Maybe I got scared. Monday night, I found letters I wrote about you. I find it strange that it happened that night, while I read about my feelings for you. My world...
November 28th, 2011 at 05:55am

November 12, 2016

He's my love story. He's my favorite book that I've read a million times and each time it's like the first time all over. With each page, I get more excited, I cry at the same places, I laugh and I hate him. The thing is, I haven't finished the book yet. I'm only on the first chapter and this book is really good. I mean so good that it can make me put Harry Potter down. I found my magic kingdom. I...
October 23rd, 2011 at 06:44am

Just a little something I need to get out.

Steven Christopher Hagood.To you, it's just a name, three words with no meaning. To the one behind the keyboard, those three words, those 23 letters, that one name is powerful. It's beautiful. It's the one thing in this world that I understand. To you, "he" is just some boy you've never heard of. If I tell you that he's 17, he's just a teenage boy. To you, it's just a pair of dark brown eyes,...
October 13th, 2011 at 06:25am

Has VERY strong language so if you don't like it, don't read it.

Mom,You fuckin' left. YOU left ME! How the hell you gonna say that I'M in the wrong? How the hell you gonna tell ME I'm not strong enough to fuckin' make it on my own? Bitch, I've done it my entire fucking life! You say I'm just like you? I'M like YOU? Really? Who the hell raised YOUR boys? Huh? WHO THE FUCK CLEANED YOUR HOUSE? WHO TOOK CARE OF YOUR FUCKIN' NEWBORN FUCKIN' BABY WHEN YOU WERE...
September 26th, 2011 at 10:01pm

From one side to the other.

My best friend is moving to California in 6 months at the most. It scares me. It hurts. I mean, I want her to be happy. No question about that. I just... I don't wanna see her leave. She's going to be on the other side of the country. What if she has another breakdown again? What is gonna happen? I've never been good with goodbye. And I know it'll be hard. My dad lives 1000 miles away from me....
September 21st, 2011 at 05:11pm

So there's this girl

Her name is Jaylene. I've known her since I was 14. So about 4 years. I've loved her for quite some time now. She's one of my very best friends and I would do anything for her. She's having an awful hard time right now. People aren't being very fair and I'm doing my best to keep a smile on her face. She's so beautiful when she smiles. Her and her little brother know things no one knows. Things...
July 25th, 2011 at 06:11am

Parents suck.

My boyfriend and I have been together for a year. My family has never approved because he's a year and a half younger than I am. We've had a few unpleasant break ups. They don't really know that we're together because I'm trying to warm them up to it again. We're fighting because he wants to talk to them and I keep telling him that it won't be a good idea. For either of us. It's hard enough...
July 17th, 2011 at 07:16am

You're such an ass.

Are you kidding me right now? First you're not gonna talk to me all day. Which is fine. Not like I mind. But then the first fucking thing you say is "Hey, Baby, I'm going to hell. Now go to fucking bed." WHAT THE FUCK?! HAVE YOU LOST YOUR MIND?! Honestly, Honey, you know me and you know that I don't like anything about that. You promised me Monday you'd come spend some time with me before I leave...
July 13th, 2011 at 07:19pm

There's no distance I wouldn't drive, no force to push my love aside<3

You know that my parents don't like the idea of us being together. You know that I absolutely hate hiding things from anyone. The way I feel around you makes me want to make everyone see that you aren't the person they think you are.We've gone through a lot this year. When we weren't together I didn't know what to do. I was completely turned around. See, you're my best friend. You know that I'm...
July 13th, 2011 at 12:11am

Let's see if I can do this thing. ^-^

I've never made a list of facts about me... I want to see if I can do it. I asked my Megan and she said 100. Let's see if we can do this.(Jaylene is helping me if I get stuck because I don't really know what to say sometimes)1. My name is Stephanie Dawn.2. I'm 18 years old as of February 11.3. I'm currently listening to the good version of the Justin Bieber song "One Time." The one by Cities...
July 8th, 2011 at 07:21am

I want to do is show you...

It's kinda like when an artist displays a painting. She put so much time, energy and effort into the painting. She put every emotion they have into making that painting what everyone looks at as they walk by. They stop and stare for a moment, they smile then they walk away. The artist is putting herself out there for everyone in the world to see, waiting for that one person to walk by. When that...
September 10th, 2010 at 02:31am

Way too young to go. </3

So last night I found out that one of my good friends, Jacob Lamarr, had past away. He had a motorcycle accident Sunday and they found him yesterday. He had just turned 19. What I don't get is why him? And why now? I mean he was so young and now he's gone. He didn't do anythign to deserve this. He was sweet and amazingly funny. He always had a smile to share and a warm heart to help you through....
August 1st, 2010 at 04:58am