I'm not writing this because I want attention or I want someone to care. To be completely honest, I can't sit down and write this in a notebook. I don't care if someone thinks putting this on the internet makes me look like I want a spotlight. What do you care? Everyone is only interested, few care anymore. In my case one or two care, maybe. If this bothers you, then please do not read on. Moving...

Can I just start off by saying I hate Facebook? I thought going on my family Facebook and activating it again would be safe; oh how incorrect I was.I should have removed my ex-boyfriend from my friends on there before I deactivated it the first time. I don't want to see his posts about how happy he is with his new girlfriend, or his daughter. My mind lost the battle with my heart when I decided to...

So I'm supposed to be getting ready because I leave about 30 minutes for my graduation. I didn't think I'd honestly see this day. I just want to get it over with already, but my school wants to drag it out. That's why I have to be there at 11am for us to practice for graduation at 3pm. It's ridiculous because we're such a small school and there is only 8 girls graduating. That's what happens when...

I feel like I don't know what I'm even doing here. Every day is a shit day.The people that are supposed to be there for me and love me unconditionally aren't doing a thing other than tell me to "Cheer the fuck up". Thanks, 'cause I wasn't already trying that right?No help at all.I wanted to delete my story today and really just give up on writing because my family thinks I don't let them read it...

I'm not pissed at him. I'm pissed at myself for believing him. Well, wait no I am pissed at him too.This always happens so I don't even understand why I'm so upset. Just waking up to that stupid text message with a simple apology after I waited two hours and JUST BARELY got out of my plans for today made me go ballistic. This is why I didn't want a friendship with him and avoided him for his...

I now know that when I feel like I can't write about anything and I feel like it won't be long enough that I end up writing my longest chapters.Good job by me.I'm so excited to get into my next chapter of my writing because I have so many plans for it! I feel motivated because I have a lot of readers and subscribers. Well anything at all is a lot to me because I had no expectations for this story....

The only way I can get through the shit going on right now is to put in my headphones, blast my music, and just sit here and knock out a few chapters for my story.Great right?No, but it's the best I can do right now.DISTRACTION TIME! ~Entry #8

So once I got home from my adventure this morning I finally found a free version of Microsoft Word I could use so I moved over my two chapters so far and fixed up this issue for me.I woke up around 8pm and watched some show that I already forgot, ate a bit, then started writing. I was working away at my third chapter till the Pierce The Veil UStream started, WHICH OF COURSE I HAD TO WATCH. I died...

I've already gotten into a fight tonight with someone who is an absolute prick, so I gave them a piece of my mind, but that only upset me slightly. Key to anything: Never let someone you say means "Nothing" to you be the reason you're not okay.This stupid knock off Microsoft program I was using to write my story called 'Word Free' deleted my progress -_- pissed doesn't even been to cover my...

Not literally of course because I'm still sick as a dog..But my mood is through the roof!It feels so nice to finally be writing my story, I already put out my first chapter around 7pm.So far 8 readers and 2 subscribers! I consider that a lot since I wasn't expecting any at all. I'm about to finish two then I'll post it, things may start to make sense may then? Who knows.But I adore those 8 readers...

I decided I'm going to write my fan fic that I've been planning out in my head since this time yesterday. I still have a fear of no one reading it or no one really liking it though which is stopping me, but I'm trying to push that voice to the back of my head right now and try something new.Time to type out my first chapter on my notepad to see how it'll look written out. After I decided it's as...

Oh how I've missed writing on here.So you guys are up to date I'll fill you in from the last time I wrote. For anyone that read my post I wrote early Tuesday morning you may think that's why I was MIA, but it isn't (anyone confused just skim the last one). After what left like an eternity (Got there at 8:30 didn't leave till maybe 2) I left my old school where my therapist works from, I felt a bit...

I'm sorry my first two blog posts are all "My life is a sad joke." I don't mean to make it look that way. After this post I'll try to make the posts less upsetting.I'm not good at writing about fresh pain like this, bear with my please while I type, erase, reread, and finally publish this for you all to see. Start time: 3:35amHurting people has never bothered me, unless it's someone close to me....

I don't want to feel a thing anymore.He's held me at arms length for too long, I refuse to sit here a second longer. This friendship stresses me out more than anything else.Pierce The Veil is playing as loud as I can make them go. I want to drown out the voices in my head. I want every single memory of him erased, I wish I had never gone to that football game 10 months ago. I want to slap myself...